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Monday, July 31, 2006, 3:13 AM
NACHO LIBRE WAS HILARIOUS. Rated 2 out 5 by the Today newspaper, it was certainly not a let down. I laughed til i teared thus smudging my eyeliner. Anyway, Najib's pretty hilarious. And fortunately, he's no mat. I was so relieved that we were conversing in English. I could have died if i were to converse in malay. I mean, i would be thinking in English and having to translate my thoughts into malay is very tiring. Fascinating stories of my primary school friends were being told about. I felt kinda sad that she had that sort of fate. After the movie, we walked to Esplanade to watch a local gig. I think the dudes who were playing last night were called The Grey Sky Experiment. According to Najib, it was a let down because The Grey Sky Experiment was supposedly to be one of Singapore's best local bands. The drummer was stiff and the lead wasn't too sure of his chords and was vocally quite weak. Ouh well. Transfering all the songs in the cd he gave. tata. maybe i'll blog later. MAYBE. Sunday, July 30, 2006, 5:49 PM
I'm going out to IKEA later with my family, again. It was only two days back did we go there to buy my noticeboard. I think we're going there to buy new tables and chairs. Or either table or chairs. Addicted to PANIC! At the disco. NAJIIIIIIIBBBBBBBB!!!! I LOVE ALL THE SONGS!! THANK YOU VERY VERY VERY MUCH. You're my music pimp. If there's such a thing, you are the music pimp. Not much to say but the fact that I totally slacked this entire weekend. With one month to the prelims, i have a feeling that i shouldnt be doing this at all. In fact, i shouldnt be blogging even. LOL. Saturday, July 29, 2006, 8:17 PM
IT'S 453 AM IN THE MORNING AND I'M STILL AWAKE. SJC SAVE ME. grrring at myself for not eating and for drinking coffee at two. i should be shot dead or sth. GRRRRR... i'm super hungry. But i ate. only thing is that everything i ate, came out the other way. arggggghhhhh. should i grab a bite, cause my gastric juices are attacking my walls. shoot. it's not like i didnt eat. arghhhhhhhhhh. screw this. now i feel too sickly to even sleep. FREAK. i ate a lot ytd. i swear. i ate a meal of pasta and cherry tomatoes. was that it? how is that poss? i gained 1kg. arggggghhh. anyway, i was blog hopping the other day and i cant help but to notice how good students from other schools are in English. Like, i checked out these whole bunch of malay ppl blogs from ard woodlands that area, i was so very shocked. their language is utterly brilliant. i had this streotype thinking that they'd be hardcore mats and minahs, with their awful mat language, with their 'siak' and 'siol'. BUT NO! they write so very perfectly that i feel like i should kill myself. they are very good. OMG. i'm like super envious that i dont school or live there. i mean, in the whole entire school, there are just a handful of ppl who can string a proper english sentence without the lahs and lors and sial. and here's an example: 'Here I am. Back after a lenghty layoff from blogging. It's funny though, nobody has been pestering me to update this blog of mine unlike the other times I didn't blog. Maybe it's because none of them blog as frequently as before? Maybe it's because there's just been too much happening to them in life till they're either too busy or tired to bother? I don't know but it was certainly my excuse. Hah. Seriously, so much has been happening out there. For me, for him, for her, for them, for everybody. I think. With the one week Mother Tongue mock examination prior to the actual things. The Mother Tongue 'O'levels itself -which of course I was anxious about, and pray and pray that I'll do well. And since everybody has been declaring their "undying" love to Cikgu Noorbaya, I figured I should too. Haha. So here it goes: I love Noorbaya! (god, that's weird) Nevertheless, she had helped me a lot, and a number of other people too. Thank you cikgu! or in a more malay tone to commemorate the event, Terima kasih cikgu!- , and yesterday, 2 days of our holiday extra classes just ended and this only means only 5 more days till our holidays officially start... or maybe not if you catch my drift. I'm sure just everybody is thankfulm that the teachers have dedicated and volunteered their time to give us extra coaching. Heh.' seriously, BLOODY HELL. NICOLETTE, as the ambasidor of english in our class, you should blog like that =) , 6:54 AM
SOME CHANGES IN www.mysongsunsung.blogspot.com 1) It'd be a little less personal you want personal you freakin talk to me! I know this is quite a major change for me and for the whole entire blog, because you ppl usually come over to read of my sappy tales and way beyond controlled emotions to mock about it, laugh about it and some of you, to sympathise about it. I'm hoping that if i bottle my emotions, I'd be less human; heartless. 2) the entries will be more of towards the music. YA. music. may it be the freak music that's tuned on repeat mode in my ipod nano or the songs that i wrote and maybe even the songs that i find uber gay and i wonder why some ppl are still listening to them. 3) If i do wanna blurt sth out to this blog, hopefully, it's just a few lines. 4) Most probably, the real emo stuff, will be on my private blog. I've created it, just hadn't put gist into it. If you're not happy about the changes, please, do make your feelings known and see my mood. but no worries, my life will be still recorded here. like the crazy happenings in school. so basically, it's ok, not much diff. Friday, July 28, 2006, 4:41 PM
 the song playing now- Artist: Breaking Benjamin Title: Diary Of Jane Album: Phobia (2006) If I had to I would put myself right beside you So let me ask Would you like that? Would you like that? And I don't mind If you say this love is the last time So now I'll ask Do you like that? Do you like that? NO!! Something's getting in my way Something's just about to break I will try to find my place in the diary of Jane So tell me how it should be Try to find out what makes you tick As I lie down Sore and sick Do you like that? Do you like that? There's a fine line between love and hate And I don't mind Just let me say that I like that I like that Something's getting in my way Something's just about to break I will try to find my place in the diary of Jane As I burn another page As I look the other way I still try to find my place in the diary of Jane So tell me how it should be Desperate, I will crawl Waiting for so long No love, there is no love Die for anyone What have I become Something's getting in the way Something's just about to break I will try to find my place in the diary of Jane As I burn another page As I look the other way I still try to find my place In the diary of Jane I'll be blogging for the last time today. =) then, it's off to study Chem. After flunking it the last time, I'm going to freaking ace the godforsaken thing because I'm not going to let NICOLETTE say these few words,"NICOLETTE ROCKS." lmao. Anyway, my family's starting to pull themselves up. With or without our dad. Dad, is now a thing that i can do without. If i want a hole in the wall, hell, I'll pick up the drill and screw down the damn bolt myself. If i want a new paintjob, I'll pick up that brush and do it on my own. Mum bought herself a new washing machine. She's uber happy about it. In fact, she has bought a lot of things for the house. Almost everything old, she threw away. My room, she bought me a fan so i'd need not sleep with my bro anymore. there are plans of wanting to break the wall of my room to join it with my sis's. ARGH. NOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!! be going out with Najib tomorrow to watch a movie. Either watching The Lake House or Nacho Libre. Or some other shit crap movie that we can watch. We just need some pure break from school work. INTRUIGING SONG  Artist: Panic! At the DiscoTitle: lying is the most fun a girl can have without taking her clothes off Album: A Fever You Can't Sweat Out
Is it still me that makes you sweat? Am I who you think about in bed? When the lights are dim and your hands are shaking as you're sliding off your dress? Then think of what you did And how I hope to God he was worth it. When the lights are dim and your heart is racing as your fingers touch your skin. I've got more wit, a better kiss, a hotter touch, a better fuck Than any boy you'll ever meet, sweetie you had me Girl I was it, look past the sweat, a better love deserving of Exchanging body heat in the passenger seat? No, no, no, you know it will always just be me Let's get these teen hearts beating. Faster, faster So testosterone boys and harlequin girls, Will you dance to this beat, and hold a lover close? So testosterone boys and harlequin girls, Will you dance to this beat, and hold a lover close? So I guess we're back to us, oh cameraman, swing the focus In case I lost my train of thought, where was it that we last left off? (Let's pick up, pick up) Oh now I do recall, we were just getting to the part Where the shock sets in, and the stomach acid finds a new way to make you get sick. I hope you didn't expect that you'd get all of the attention. Now let's not get selfish Did you really think I’d let you kill this chorus? Let's get these teen hearts beating. Faster, faster So testosterone boys and harlequin girls, Will you dance to this beat, and hold a lover close? So testosterone boys and harlequin girls, Will you dance to this beat, and hold a lover close? Dance to this beat Dance to this beat Dance to this beat Let's get these teen hearts beating. Faster, faster Let's get these teen hearts beating. Faster I've got more wit, a better kiss, a hotter touch, a better fuck Than any boy you'll ever meet, sweetie you had me Girl I was it, look past the sweat, a better love deserving of Exchanging body heat in the passenger seat? No, no, no, you know it will always just be me Let's get these teen hearts beating. Faster, faster So testosterone boys and harlequin girls, Will you dance to this beat, and hold a lover close? So testosterone boys and harlequin girls, Will you dance to this beat, and hold a lover close? So testosterone boys and harlequin girls Dance to this beat So testosterone boys and harlequin girls Dance to this beat And hold a lover close Let's get these teen hearts beating. Faster, faster Let's get these teen hearts beating. Faster , 8:04 AM
It is settled. Razin, Jan, Megat, Rachel and I are going to dress up as Power Rangers on BE YOURSELF DAY. That is if the rented costume is affordable. Thought of going goth. damn. razin's such a retard. He and shafiq did some stupid shits today during recess. I laughed till i fell on the floor. That was how hard i laughed. They waddled like penguins around the deligates from china. Kau, you should have seen. I was there with megat and wendy and jeremy giving them more suggestions. Seriously, i love to have razin around. he is officially, a crappist.
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if you gave a thousand years to write down on how much i love you, it would never be done cause no words can describe on how much i love you. No words. NONE. I'd cry a thousand rivers for you. I'd climb a hundred walls for you. I'd do anything just to be with you. Not just anything, BUT EVERYTHING. The choice you made of wanting to change your number just stabbed burning iron in heart. Now tat you've made your choice, i've made mine........... Thursday, July 27, 2006, 9:40 PM
This is gonna be so hard- i love you tan. , 12:52 PM
I think i hadn't made it clear to you ppl to why i wasn't in school today. basically, i had already planned on not going today. I guess i was just too caught up in my own thoughts; i didnt want to appear distracted and unfocused in class. My day didnt go to waste, i revised for emaths. If i'm a goner in amaths, just gotta prove to the world that i CAN do emaths. But it's like a big stepping stone. It's not that i have never passed emaths, i do pass emaths, but not an exceptionally brilliant pass. Main reason, i never really study maths. I mean, i never liked maths. Yeah, it gets fun wehn you get the hang of it, but still, it's tricky. I prefer doing science. I've always done well in sci. But hohoho. I had to drop to combined science because i was complacent. Anyway, I think that 2006 has been quite a year so far. Not one of the best years, no doubt, but it was an eventful one. But, yeah, i hate it. If you had thought that i had gone through enough emotional rollercoasters, i have a feeling the worst had yet to come. As the eldest, i should be the one to glue this family together, but i have a feeling, i'm the one who is actually tearing apart. With each argument, i feel my already shattered heart smitter into bits. With every profanity hurled, i feel apart of myself die. I question to why I am even here. Or more of, was i really meant to be here. I guess that ppl who are together may not be necessarily be soulmates. I guess love doesnt mean that two ppl have to actually be together, physically. Sigh, who am i to say what's love anyway? Was the love i gave good enough? Or did you deserve better? However, i can boldly say that I do love you. You know, i seriously dont get it. The guy says he's not good enough because he makes the girl cry. He makes the girl sad. But he ever made the girl happy. He made her laugh, he made her smile. He made her blush and giggle. He made her feel like she could do anything. even reach for for the stars. Ppl who you are closest to, you tend to argue with them. that's how i feel anyway. Because you are more comfortable showing your emotions. and that what makes a relationship so special. you argue one moment and laugh about it the very next day....... , 5:46 AM
WHAT'S PLAYING ON MY IPOD (as if you cared)  Artist: Panic! At The Disco Album: A Fever You Can't Sweat Out (2005) Song: I Write Sins Not Tragedies well imagine; as I'm pacing the pews in a church corridor, and I can't help but to hear, no I can't help but to hear an exchanging of words. "What a beautiful wedding!, What a beautiful wedding!" says a bridesmaid to the waiter. "Ah yes, but what a shame, what a shame, the poor groom's bride is a whore." I'd chime in with a "Haven't you people ever heard of closing the god damn door?!" No, it's much better to face these kinds of things with a sense of poise and rationality. I'd chime in "Haven't you people ever heard of closing the god damn door?!" No, it's much better to face these kinds of things with a sense of... Well in fact, well I'll look at it this way, I mean technically our marriage is saved Well this calls for, a toast so, pour the champagne Oh! Well in fact, well I'll look at it this way, I mean technically our marriage is saved Well this calls for a toast, so pour the champagne, pour the champagne. I'd chime in with a "Haven't you people ever heard of closing the god damn door?!" No, it's much better to face these kinds of things with a sense of poise and rationality. I'd chime in "Haven't you people ever heard of closing the god damn door?!" No, it's much better to face these kinds of things with a sense of poise and rationality. Again.. I'd chime in "Haven't you people ever heard of closing the god damn door?!" No. It's much better to face these kinds of things with a sense of poise and rationality. I'd chime in "Haven't you people ever heard of closing the god damn door?!" No, it's much better to face these kinds of things with a sense of poise and rationality. Again.. When i first heard the song, i thought it was Fall Out Boy. Ouh well.
Artist: Bullet For My Valentine
Artist: From Autumn to Ashes Wednesday, July 26, 2006, 11:41 AM
I realise something. I'm really spoilt by both my parents. Ok, as you realise, they're not that fantastic around each other but when it's for their kids, they're god sent. My dad is such a miser. Every cent matters to him. Like bloody hell, if i owe him $1, he'll rememeber it and would cut my allowance by a dollar. -_-' but whenever i need a ride from somewhere, he'll send me there. No matter how busy he was, he'd drive me there. I guess it's all about being a dad. They tend to get super overly protective of their daughters. He's just being a dad. And he never fails to get me a new phone. Even if i dont want it, he'd get one from his shop. Ok, so it may not be the newest phone in town, but WTH, i change phone like i change my clothes, there's sth to be grateful for. sigh. emoed my way through lessons today. kinda bummed that i need amaths for JC cant make it lah. i'm so depressed. i just... i hate myself. AMATHS. wth. i can barely even pass. I'm such a failure. I fail to keep everything together. cant even keep myself together. I'm falling apart. thought of buying a pack to calm myself down. but i realised, Prime dont sell the brand i want. Maybe one of these days, i'll hang out with my cousins. seriously la. setitik arak, 40 hari tak leh sembahyang. what more a bottle? let's laugh about how long i have to wait. it's weird. Faith is usually what stops you from doing sth bad. But sometimes, you really cant give a fuck about faith. Tuesday, July 25, 2006, 11:22 AM
I LOVE YOU!!! Just had to get that off my chest my chest. I just came back from CP after eating out with my mum and sis at Banquet. =) Saw dearest's mum. Wanted to go salam her but my mum told me not to. she say she paiseh cause my mum just got back from work and she wasnt wearing tudung. -_-' adults and their crazy excuses. So Faiz, tell your mum that i'm sorry for not salaming her. I WAS TOLD NOT TO. irritating. My mum's gonna give me money to buy that Adidas jacket. Wendy's jacket. It's like nice sia. I think i'll get the white one cause the pink one, is too pink. NOTE TO SELF: be super nice to my mum this whole entire week. lick the toilet even if she asks to. SHE'S BRINGING US OUT SHOPPING! i love her like THAT much. ok lol what sort of child am i? ungrateful little swine. she bought me and my sis those weird door streamers. mine was pink while my sis's was green. it's those things that you dangle on the ceilings. those that you can get from minitoons or more than words. i was so thrilled. i had always wanted those weird thingys. i love saran. we talked a bit today. he's such a nice guy to talk to. i was quite relieved after talking to him. like i've lifted sth off my shoulders. Razin is so funny. he and his gang rock my socks off. they make bullshit into sense. and not many ppl have that talent. GTG. ending this post with a chorus from a stupid song i wrote. yeah, it's tacky, but wth. I'll love you, till the end of time till the sun dies, till there's no stars in the sky I swear to you That I'd be there, I'd be there,I'd be there for you Monday, July 24, 2006, 3:23 PM
Yeah, i'm back. lol i got sleepy. lmao. going off. tata i love you , 1:11 PM
my previous post caused quite a stir, i think. But i was utterly disturbed by fau's post that i HAD to say sth. Maybe some of you think i'm talking from my ass, but i put great thought about it. I'm going out to study later. this time, on my own. yeah, i know it's pretty late, but outside's kinda conduCive. pretty bummed out. i better make sure i wear, insect repellent and bring candles to ward off mosquitoes. and yeah, i better bring the right homework. I'll be studying near MeeToh school. until, 3? 4? so ya, ring me up, cause i'll still be wide awake. =D i'm sorry that i was being a hard head. i know you were just trying to look out for me. i love you. and i just need you now. you wont understand. you're all i have if they decide to split.... Sunday, July 23, 2006, 10:32 PM
GOOD MORNING.I'm feeling ultra chirpy today.I just woke up feeling on top of the world.It's nice to wake up feeling like this. I mean, if you were to put a potted plant in front of me now, i would laugh at it, i swear. =)If only i could wake up feeling like this every day. an excrept from a friend's blog: The day at the park he rolled over n kissed mie, again and again, gently n sweetly. I touched his hair n kissed him back. It seem like the most natural thing in the world.But, i never thought how good all this would feel and how impossible to stop all this. Evritymhe touched mie, it felt like some sort of soft, hot glow.When he starts touching mie all over, i would stop him. But these tym round, i didnt care. I didnt stop him. I didnt want him to quit. I wanted to stay where we are forever, with him. I never realised how wonderful this cud be.He only acted like as if he cared. After doing it, we never talked much about anything. We never looked each other in the face.For a few weekz. He was closer to mie. Inside mie to b exact. n now. He wanted to leave. Just lyk dat.Once i had a lot of pride n dignity. But now, itz all gone, non-existent. It went down d toilet, right along wif my virginity. --- Guys never lose anything in a relationship. But girls, sigh. let's not even go into virginity, how about just pride and dignity. I mean, when a girl allows the little s.o.b to take off her clothes and touch her, it's not just for her pleasure or even their pleasure. She thinks that he has taken the relationship into the next level. she now trusts him. TRusTs him. trust him that he'd never leave her. Trust him that the relationship is not JUST a relationship anymore, but a commitment. Like a religion or faith. true, sex doesnt mean love and love doesnt mean sex. so why have sex? to show the level on how much you love a person? not really. if it's like that, 80% of the population in singapore would screwing right now. and honestly, would you be just friends with a guy who you ever had sex with? this qns of course is only for the girls. obviously, the answer is no. You cant just be casual friends and pretend that the little jerk had never seen your naked body, right. PAKAI OTAK. USE YOUR BRAIN.and from here on, i have nothing to say because this argumentative writing has gone too emotional, which means, i will fail. ok, anti-climax, but wth. just wanna express my point of view. i mean some boys are so naive.. to change someone is like asking them to commit suicide. it's asking them to be someone they're not. i'm sorry i've asked you to change. i guess i had forgotten it's the way you are is also the way you loved me. i dont care how many tears i've cried. all i care about is how many times you've smiled. i love you, always has, and always will. , 7:39 AM
I'm bloody bored. Found this gorgeous photo of THE NVSS NCC. lol. lmao  even a moron knows who i find the hottest tan mohd faiz la Razin's hot. So is jiasheng. =) , 3:07 AM
Friday was emo hair day. Reason for such was that I didnt sleep at all the previous night. Hung out near Faiz's to study for my physics. I was like uber mad at my mum that day. Ok, it was more of sad.I was like crying when i was walking to his place. She was nagging none stop about blah blah. And she just ticked me off by saying sth about me going ite and yadayada. she said i've been slacking and blah blah. Come home late and all. shit face. i had np. it's not like i went out idling. It'd be fine if she had nagged at me on a day where i was not so fucked up because i'll manage to switch off. BUT NO!! She fucked me up on a fucked up day. so i was fucking fucked up thanks to her. But after studying and talking to Tan, I felt better. Just a bit better. I wasn't crying at least. I made sure i wasn't still crying when he came down. He doesn't like to see me cry. it was sweet enough for him to come down at like such an eartly hour anyway. I didnt force him down ok!! Anyway, this is how emo hair was like: emo hair without hairband  emo hair with hairband  how i manage to emo up my hair? straightener la but it's such an hassle to emo it up everyday. plus, i dont wanna destroy my already destroyed hair. Mr Rashidin approached me that day. He asked me what was wrong. And i was like, huh? He claimed that i've been looking very messed up. And Jannatun Naem could casually pipe in saying that it's my emo hair. However, Mr Rashidin said it wasn't about the attire but the person. He said sth like body language. And i was thinking,"Does my feelings inside reflect on what i act outside?" Ok, maybe i was tired. but other than that.. nothing. ok, maybe i like to emo a lot but so does the entire world. ok, so i guess i must look less tired or i'll end up looking as if i've just lost my mum or sth. lol i was wondering why he had called me out in the first place. i thought he was going to personally scold me for not bringing my worksheet as he had just scolded Leon for not bringing his. in fact, i havent been doing any of his work. shoot. the dude's biased towards some of us. and i better not take advantage of that. i better be good. i mean, the dude tries to care. he bothers. even if it was quite biased. and by the end of this paragraph Faiz will have the words "teacher-student affair or pedophile " muttered under his breath. check this out http://202.157.174.100/20060721-Cosfest2/Player.html my dearest cousin Azmi is on this video. haha one pathetic shot of Assjedi. i hope pass physics. =) Saturday, July 22, 2006, 1:40 PM
JEREMY ONG WAI KIAT OF 4E2' 2006 FROM NORTH VISTA SECONDARY SCHOOL WILL BE SCREWED BY THE GIRLS WHO READS THIS ENTRY i'm utterly happy for that =)  Wendy's blog has something somewhat the same as this, only that hers was on women. vvericly.blogspot.com
2) I don't eat chicken but i eat processed chicken eg. chicken patties and chicken nuggets 3) I don't like wearing g-strings because it gets into my asscrack 5) I'm a retard 4) I've got a fetish for mechanical pencils; I'll buy a new one even if it's not cracked(whenever it falls, i mean) 6) I won't wash my hair if it looks nice when I get out of bed 7) My ipod has the strangest array of music. 50% of it is of the Rock genre, 3% of pop, reggae and rnb, 40% of Emo, Blues, Punk and Indie and 7% is metal. Friday, July 21, 2006, 4:23 AM
I think i should do what's right. It's become so clear. It has been that clear since day one. But i now, i'm sure. I dont wanna doubt it anymore. I think, Superman and I should just remain friends. I can't cheat his feelings anymore. I must come clean. I can't stand it any longer. My heart is not for you. I'm sorry that i cant unlove him. ---------------------- DELIRIOUS =) argued with my mum just now. I was fumed so i left the bloody house and went over to Faiz's to study my physics. He came down an hour later to accompany me and of course, try to cheer me up. =D and blah blah blah blah hahahaha. and he made me promise that i apologize to my mum. lol melting........ i love you tan
missing you by 1st Ladi Thursday, July 20, 2006, 9:43 PM
this song rocked me to bed in tears last night. I'm not supppose to cry. I'm supposed to smile and be happy. But how am i to do that? There's nothing to smile about nor is there much to be happy about. To go on with life with such a heavy heart is just tiring. , 6:43 PM
mysongsunsung.blogspot.com's hundredth post =) nothing impressive or inspring on this post though Just wanna thank everyone who had made an impact in my life. An impact so huge that if you were to leave, you'll leave a ginormous crater in my heart. NICOLETTE NG ZI NING. Friends of my four years in secondary school yet you have no idea how to say out my full name. =) I totally adore you still. thanks for all the laughs and crazyness. You're my sunshine. SARAN!!! You're such an annoyer, you know that? But nonetheless, I love your company. You know how to make everyone's frown turn upside down. SINTECK AND YENGJIE. the uber gays!!! I love the both of you despite you guys are such irritants =p MICHELLE, i seriously admire you for your courage and your loving personality. You are so understanding and nice that i look like satan just by sitting beside you. CHERYL!!!! RACHEL GOH!!! BECCA!!! I love you all =))) ONG LIFEN!! WENDY!!!! I LOVE WENDY!! TAN!!! I LOVE TAN. I LOVE TAN. AND EVERYONE WHO READS THIS DARN BLOG, I LOVE YOU. =) , 12:03 AM
~written on in the pages is your name doodled on my stationery is your name engraved on my heart is your name inscribed in this mind is you ok. i'm insane. i've chucked my brain out somewhere. mr aw nearly made me cry. he was utterly disappointed with me failing both my mathes. grrr hating this sort of teachers who have hopes for you and you only disappoint them. too lazy to delete the previous post because i scared my stupid com hang again. I wanna watch The Lake House!! Movie junkies, message me if you're interested =) because i wanna pay for my ticket for once =D Wendy made fun of me because of the thing my shuaige gave me. haha. PINKed. weeeeee... ok this is a retarded post and if i could only stop the car and hold onto you, and never let go (and never let go) i'll never let go (i'll never let go) Wednesday, July 19, 2006, 6:44 AM
~put the barrel to my head while i pull the trigger at yours "stop talking about him. Not a day goes by without you mentioning his name," he snapped. Flushing, utterly embarrassed, i mummered, "Sorry, i hadnt realised..." "It's always him. I bet you never even mention me in front of you friends," he cut in coldly. "Well, he wouldn't mind!" I replied,"He listens, he always listens." "If you like him so much, why not just go with back with him!"he muttered, infuriated. I bit my lip. "Ask me no such questions and i'll tell you no lies,"I smirked in my head,"The truth will only hurt you." "Let's drop this, ok? I'm sorry,"he said, loooking very tired. "Yeah, drop it,"I snorted. "I love you, you know that?"he said softly. "Ya, i know,"i said, looking anywhere but at him. i hate myself. I think i should spare this guy out of his misery. and slip into the abyss of depression again. i think, i'm thinking too much of the promise i made to my kacheng(haha, promise made to my ass). i'll stop being humane! this dishonesty is bringing me down. i have no idea how boys can cheat on their gfs without feeling at least bit of remorse. wait, those arent guys, they're called Male Chauvunist Pigs. on a ligther note, Np training ytd was quite nice. =) it's not very often that i say it's nice, you know. i guess it's because i prefer marching drills than stationary ones. and i slpt early ytd. =) i think it was nine thirty. i was reading a book, P.S I Love You until i fell asleep. lols Kau!! the book was nice la. and because i was so tired, i didnt do any homework nor did i manage to grab a bite. Feeling super famished. i pon PE ytd, because i forgot to bring my shirt. i feel bad. like i'm some sort of hooligan, skipping classes. argh. i'm exaggerating. it's only PE!! i'm like super innocent at other times. but i wasnt alone! i dragged Wendy into pon-ning with me. haha. i'm bad. hahaha. ok. i'm not THAT bad. kau got enrichment later. english enrichment. sigh. what time does it start again? right. 9.00am. not nine thirty. Please let me rattle on on how much i love Lacuna Coil. I'm so gay over their lead singer. yes, female lead, i mean. she's so hot. arghh.. i wanna be like her. or at least like Paramore's lead, who'se just as hot. I seriously love bands with female leads. maybe i'm turning sexist. I hate Angels and Airwaves. Blow up their homes, i hate them for no good reason. ok, the reason is that their songs are not very nice. i wouldnt even bother listening to them if my friend hadnt asked me to dl it. my friend needs to be saved. Lacuna Coil Heaven's A Lie Oh no, here it is again I need to know when I will fall in decay Something wrong with every plan of my life I didn't really notice that you've been here Dolefully desired Destiny of a lie Set me free your heaven's a lie set me free with your love set me free (repeat 2x) Oh no, here it is again I need to know why did I choose to betray you Something wrong with all the plans of my life I didn't realize that you've been here Dolefully desired Destiny of a lie Set me free your heaven's a lie set me free with your love set me free Set me free your heaven's a lie set me free with your love set me free Dolefully desired Set me free your heaven's a lie set me free with your love set me free (repeat 3x) this love has nailed me to my coffin Monday, July 17, 2006, 10:56 PM
this post is for a friend a long time friend whom i just gotten to know closer recently. strange. after all these years we've been within talking range, we've never had a decent conversation until MSN. i guess it's the barrier of being a guy and a girl. weird, huh? Just wanna let you know, i enjoy having conversations with you. though it seemed rather short and it usually ends quite abruptly, i still enjoyed it. Just want you to stay strong. I'm sure you'd be able to handle just about anything with the gift God gave you. You told me to never doubt God, but here you are having thoughts of quitting school. Have faith. He gave you the strength to pursue your dreams and it is just within reach, dont turn back. Cause if you do, i would too. Because if you'd feel that you wanna quit to help your mum, I'd wanna quit because i think it's pointless to carry in without having an ambition. It's aimless and pointless. Hope you understand my point of view. I wont even let my NT friend quit school, what makes you think, i'll let you, of all ppl. You're probably the last person whom i wanna see go down. You're the hope of bringing glory to our race which is facing the hancurism of the mattism and minahism. I wanna see your name in the papers and i wanna see your parents smile in that pic. I wanna see someone as worthy as you achieve something you've been working so hard for. and that is success. dont give up, dont break down but if you do, you'd still have me and your other friends to turn to.
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Sorry about the previous post. I had to put my emo thoughts into emo words =) gosh i'm lame. [why are you highlighting again?] Later, Mother Tongue Listening Comprehension will commence. wish me luck =) I'm hungry. I'm craving for red meat. Yes, the evil meat. How long has it been since i last ate red meat? Months ago. i think. i cant remember. havent had a beef burger or a decent slab of sirloin for ages. Damn. I want!!!! grrr. temptations. [seriously, are you more spastic than me? so stop with the highlights] FUNNY QUOTES FORM SOUTHPARK mind you, it's southpark, not me =)
i know. wth , 12:04 PM
I slept late last night. Mainly, i was thinking, in deep thought of what i had promised my cousin. A promise i find too heavy to hold on to. Before i knew it, tears started flowing down my cheeks. Silenty, i cried. I hate myself. I'm doing something so wrong. I've never cheated anyone of their feelings before. And now that i am, pangs of guilt attacked my head in the form of raging pulses racing on my temples. I felt horrid. The guy was showering me with whatever he's got, but I was always in my own distant thoughts, asking myself, "What am i doing?" I'm like making use of him and I didnt want that. I kept on crying, thinking of the evil that has taken over me. He looked into my eyes, took a deep breath and uttered the three words that i'm not ready to accept. I stared back at him, trying to smile (in other words, i was giving him that act cute face; i know!! so anti-climax!!). He laughed. I remembered heaving a sigh of relief. However, at the same time, i wondered if he was telling the truth. I feel so trapped. I hate myself. why cant i just be a bitch and say, "I love you too," even though i dont mean it? I guess it's because i'm just.. well.. too sincere. i dont say or do things that i dont mean. As i was crying, a familiar tune was playing on my ipod. It was the acoustic version of that song. Without the drums and basses, the song was awfully emo. Tears trickled down so slowly like beads of pearls. How am i to keep to that promise? It was for my own good. But like my cousin said, "What's yours is yours to keep. If it was meant to be it'd come back." Do you believe in destiny? Sunday, July 16, 2006, 1:45 AM
Ok. I'll stop being insane. =) PIRATES OF THE CARRIBEAN was so very very very very nice. it got a 2.5 rating from 8Days, but since 8Days' gay and i absolutely love pirates, this movie was stupendous. I love the eccentricity of Captain Jack Sparrow. I just love the weirdest ppl, dont I? tan mohd faiz gave me a pink silicon cover for my nano. Thank you, you're such a sweetheart. [seriously, how can i not love you? once again, if any of you can see this, you clearly have nothing better to do but highlight my post] I think, i'll be studying tomorrow. Probably, physics or emaths =) i hope Mr Sandman dont attack me again. =) tiring week but needless to say, it was a nice one. ending my post with a resolution, if you believe in such things anyway. TARGET
FRIENDS ARE FOREVER =) Saturday, July 15, 2006, 4:15 PM
Please, please forgive me, But I won’t be home again. Maybe someday you’ll have woke up, And, barely conscious, you’ll say to no one: "isn’t something missing? " You won’t cry for my absence, I know - You forgot me long ago. Am I that unimportant...? Am I so insignificant...? Isn’t something missing? Isn’t someone missing me? [chorus] Even though I’d be sacrificed, You won’t try for me, not now. Though I’d die to know you love me, I’m all alone. Isn’t someone missing me? Please, please forgive me, But I won’t be home again. I know what you do to yourself, Shudder deep and cry out: "isn’t something missing? Isn’t someone missing me? " [chorus] And if I bleed, I’ll bleed, Knowing you don’t care. And if I sleep just to dream of you And wake without you there, Isn’t something missing? Isn’t something... [chorus] , 3:35 PM
I think Yeng Jie is right. I'm ugly. After scrutinizing myself for the past few hours, i've come to realise this.I'm mortifyingly ugly. I'm not symmetrical in anyway. I'm short. I'm fat. My hair dry and withered. I have eye bags. I've got a lot of scars on my face. My nose is big. My teeth are yellow. I have lines on my neck. I'm infected with pimples. I'm monsterous. I felt so ugly that i asked to leave school early. Ugly ppl shouldnt stay out. They must hide. I'm fat and ugly and i'm clumsy. I cant even count to five in malay. fat, ugly and stupid I mean it makes sense. Look at Shaun. he's fat and ugly and ppl dont seem to like him so it adds up to why ppl dont like me. it's because i'm ugly. or i'm just uglier than her. maybe i shouldnt go out today. i'm so ugly that even if i wore a mask outside, it'd be an insult to the mask. I'm an insult to my own eyes. i'm so ugly. maybe you think i have issues with confidence but that's not the me you know, right? i mean, since when have i been this low self-esteemed? but, i dont, i think. i'm stating facts and the fact is: I'm ugly Friday, July 14, 2006, 9:43 PM
GUESS WHAT I HAD FOR RECESS TODAY according to razin i had SAYUR LAUK NASI instead of nasi lauk sayur because the aunty gave me a heap of veggies from far, it looked like i was eating veggie noodles. lol EXHAUSTED ok, not physically. but more of mentally. i've been sleeping in class a lot lately. and i feel very bad for falling sick. i know it's not my fault but it could have been prevented. but i have been doing so much. i'm feeling a lot of pressure lately. mainly, from myself. i seriously wanna do well for my sciences. but shit la now i have distraction and that's NDP. cant believe i'm part of the GOH contingent again. this is like my 2nd year as GOH no that i dont like NDP i love it i just hate it cause it's tiring ok. tomorrow's biology MCQ. pray i'd do well i need to lose weight. argh Thursday, July 13, 2006, 5:05 PM
MY SOULMATE~fated to meet, destined to be together if not this lifetime, maybe the next whenever it comes to talking bad about someone, i can somehow hiss on and on about it in one huge paragraph. this is one of those times, unfortunately. it's been happening for quite sometime now and i had complained about it occasionally.basically, i am beginning to like, go cold with her. honestly, i dont really acknowledge her everytime we meet. not that i dont want to, i just dont. it's weird. she doesnt either. maybe we've developed a mutual understanding that we dont click. and even in group works, i tend to have this very bad feeling towards her. i feel irritated. i find her comments and suggestions stupid. i find her utterly bimbotic. sorry, bimbo minus the pretty part. to me, she's brainless. it's not true that she's not smart, but i still think she's brainless. actually, i just dont like her very minah-ish thinking. AND THE WAY SHE TALKS, kau!!!! shut up. she always have that very 'rude' tone. like, she's talking sense but i'm not when i'm the one with the sense and she's stating the obvious.get me? no? and sometimes, i flare up with her, because she tends to take credit for my ideas. she's super insensitive. she's one of those ppl who talks without using their head. suka suka. i also think that she sagrigates us with her other friends. ok, fine, you are closer with the others but you cant just cancel out our appointment if you have sth up with them. you're selfish. so god damn selfish. ppl like us, made an effort to make that day free for your sake, but you bailed on us because you feel like hanging out with your other friends. After this o levels, yes, the four of us planned to go out, but i can bet my ass, you'd bail out. You always bail us out. You walk by me everyday and say hello. Everyday you take time out to listen to me. You talk to me, smile at me, laugh with me, and have fun with me. Well, I talk, smile and laugh too, but inside I'm hurting. Deep down it hurts to be with you because I love you and you are only a friend. Wednesday, July 12, 2006, 6:45 PM
it's like seeing you through a glass [whoever is able to see this, you're a genius! i love you TMF.] i'm falling sick. argh!! not now. i have NDP and biology test coming up. argh!!! anyway, i seriously hate having menses. grrrr. yes, cramps. BLOODY CRAP (no pun intended) but seriously, who gets major cramps every single month? only me. mum insisted me into taking those super HUGE pills to make my immune system and everything weird in my body stronger. it's ok to take em' but i tend to forget la. the pills are like huge. plus the two pills my mum asked me to take, i also take vitamins so that i dont really need to eat. like at least i have sth nourishing me with vitamins, right?? and i'm not taking laxatives or any diet pills. it's ok right??? English course was like pure fun =) that woman makes it very fun. i love english. hohoho. I'm broke =( Tuesday, July 11, 2006, 9:39 PM
I've decided to change back the background song to my favourite one. UNTIL THE DAY I DIE. I'm the other songs were nice but still, there's not much sentimental value to it. LOLS SeNTImeNTAL. Since when do i use such words?? I would have said,'emotional attachment' but the word 'emotional' makes ppl think that i'm a drama queen or sth. FUCTARDS. We're back doing NDP this year. Yes, GOH. I really missed Np. lol. The unity of the whole shit. haha. I want to be the markers. I mean, i've done the GOH at sec 2. Supporting contigent in sec 3, so basically, i want something new and fresh. I LOVE ZIDANE. A HERO!!! he was defending his pride, ok? I mean that Italian bitch called Zidane, "son of a terrorist whore" just because Zidane's muslim. and he also said sth racist in italian to Zidane. but unfortunately, Zidane understood italian since he was a former Juventus player. so, it wasnt a disgraceful exit of his career to me. he went on head strong (no pun intended) to his believes. gonna watch PIRATES OF THE CARIBBEAN on Saturday. JOHNNY DEPP IS SO HOT!! HOT HOT HOT HOT. SIZZLING HOT. HOT HOT HOT HOT HOT HOT. Cant wait because i've been wanting to watch it for so very very long. pls, i love pirates. i mean, i find pirates to be uber cool. i dont know why. it must be the way they live. hohoohohhooho. i'm mad. i wanna drop amaths. sigh. i just have no hope. i'm like super useless or sth. and my physics. IT'S SHIT. just crap, faeces, waste I'M GIVING UP ~ and there she goes Monday, July 10, 2006, 11:49 PM
 argh!!! i have pimples in my back. ewwwwwwww. now, i'm deformed. shit. i cant wear my spag straps unless i want to show off my disgusting spots for now. sigh. currently taking pills and cleansing my back to get rid of the acne. i must seem extremely vain to you well, that's because i am! the phototaking session just now was such a bummer. NICOLETTE AND TAY SUYIN DIDNT TURN UP!! HOW COULD YOU DO THIS!!! OUR LAST PHOTOGRAPH TOGETHER!! OK, i'm exaggerating, but still, how could you? for the candid pic, i was les enough to kiss Becca. lols i mean, my right was madeline and my left was her. if wendy or rach was beside i would gladly have kissed them. lol but i think i blinked. hohohohoho I LOVE MYSELF.
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ME: look at my arm. got red red after playing volley just now doing recess. MEGAT: eh. mcm kena rotan aje. YES PPL. my bruises i got from playing volley just now looked like cane marks. i'm abused by the ball. haha but it was a fun day. so engrossed playin volley that i was too lazy to even eat. lols actually, it's more of i dun feel like eating. i wanna save money for these stuff:  the o.d.m watch!! nice right?? hundred plus. MUST HAVE!  a 3G handphone?? ouh pls, just get me a new phone at least! i dont care if it's not 3G. got camera and bluetooth will do. BUDGET: $250i also need new slippers. NOT THESE LA. though  quite cute. hahah.BUDGET: $25 and of course, i'll want to stock up on my accessories. =))) you can never have  too many accessories right girlfriends??BUDGET: $25   so anyone wanna head to Tampines with me, because that's where all the nice cheap accessories are. And they have xcraft there, where i can get those black brown leathery looking thingy for the wrists. Call aites??!!!Sunday, July 09, 2006, 11:22 PM
I have a major question for everyone of you! DO I LOOK ANY LESS MALAY TO ANYONE OF YOU? seriously!! tag your answer!! the chinese thinks i'm chinese while the malays think i'm eurasian. I feel very out of place. I'm neither that or that but THAT. You get me? Ok, maybe my eyes are quite sepet ar. But eurasian?!! His parentS complimented that i look extremely cute. omfg. one, for my uniqueness and two, for my weird coloured skin. I HAVE WERID COLOURED SKIN??? pretty delirious about the whole thing actually. haha. it's like a good first impression. it's so weird. HIS ENTIRE FAMILY WERE SINGING PRAISES ABOUT ME. HIS MUM HIS DAD HIS BRO OMG!! how big can my head get? it's like indeflatable now. most probably i'll have to drag my head on the floor to school tomorrow. lols i got so pissed with my dad ytd that i cleaned my room!!! you could lick my floor if you want. it's quite clean. basically, i dont like my dad's super lazy attitude. he has yet to nail down any screws in my room for my frames! he also has yet to fix the water heater and the aircon. it's been over a year!!! like bloody hell. OUH YA, DEAREST COUSINS!! PLS REPORT THIS NONCHALANCE TO YOUR PARENTS!! i feel neglected. hahaha arghhhh!! flattery is abusive!! , 3:23 AM
Rasul has a way of making worries far away. His cycnical jokes and happy-go-lucky attitude makes you warm inside. I could have cried laughing my ass off because of his simple wit. Weird. I have never liked simplicity because i found it plain and mundane. You cant say that he's innocent because he's super mischievous. Like, how do really describe a 16 year old boy who actually DRAGGED me infront of a toy store? I know. Usually, it's the other way round!!! He practically oggled at the Godzilla and Ultraman figurine. Trust me, by now, i was laughing so hard that i almost couldnt stand. Ok, DEPRIVED CHILDHOOD. His mom told me before that he actually fought with his 6 year old cousin over his action figurine. I made fun of the blushing fag for the whole day. HAHAAHHAHAHAHA. Later, after he was done oggling at his toys, we went for a cable car ride. The dude asked the aunty for a discount and she actually gave us one!!! omg!! he has charm!! He's afraid of heights, i think. He clinged on to his bench everytime the cabin shook. Saw Sentosa from above. The view was spectacular! We didnt go there la. It was pretty late, plus, i didnt want to. I dont know why i said that i didnt wanna go because i've always wanted to sigthsee. We talked about a lot of stuff especially about, ahem, you know who la. He kinda understood what i'm going through and said that he still wanna try me anyway. I'm just, dumbfounded by this guy. LIke, bloody hell, he's pretty good looking yet he wants me???? and i think that's the problem. GOOD LOOKING GUY=417687378 GIRLS AFTER HIM. his reason for liking me: *You were willing to teach me in my studies. You are not after my money because you always offer to pay. You even refuse to take my offer of going shopping; all expenseson me. Are you human, if you are, you're the purest kind I've ever met. You're not like no other." *all these are translated and summarised KAU. how sweet was that? -the guy's afraid of dogs, cockroaches and the famous one. awww. and he's still claiming that he's superman. so cute can. Friday, July 07, 2006, 5:02 PM
QUESTION: WHAT'S UP WITH EVERYONE CLAIMING TO BE SUPER HEROS? this is what i heard. prem and razin approached this cvss guy who was on attachment with our school and this is what these two morons said: prem: I'm SPONGEBOB. razin: And i'm ULTRAMAN. omfg! what' s with the whole superhero thing, anyway. ok, technically, spongebob is no superhero but, theoratically, a superhero is an idol or an adored character, so, ya. spongebob is prem's hero. -_-' i have a feeling these ppl had a very disturbing childhood. i totally feel for you. OMG. I so changed my mind about studies being freaky and all. The thing that totally brought me to freak mode was PEIQI. omg. she's like a super sad girl la. omg. she started crying after mr lee asked her to see the counsilor. i was like,"why are you crying???" I mean, it got me totally off guard. and she can defiantly tell me that she's not crying despite having fat tear drops rolling down her cheeks. i gave jeremy,whom was alos doing group work with her, the 'what i do?' look. i must admit,that it was the most quiet group project ever. i seriously wish she'd tell us or at least hanxing that gang her problems. i mean, no one else in class knows her. she cant just burst into tears and expects us to know what's going on. you dont want sympathy, then make us understand what's happening to you. i'm not sure if i should feel sad for her or shun her. she freaks me out. seriously. noone can be that sad in life. seriously, noone can. peiqi, pls tell your friends your problems. you can come to any of us anyway. we dont mind, i promise. AND THE REST OF YOU, try not to avoid her. acknowledge her EXISTANCE. i love the acoustic version of ALL songs. ok, maybe i'm pervert, but it sounds more soulful. LOVE LOVE LOVE. fall out boy's NOBODY LEAVES A BABY IN THE CORNER is one prime example. oh wait, CREDITS TO NAJIB for all the songs. =)) thank you very much much. =))))) , 2:35 AM
cant sleep it's like 2.30 am OMG. i was thinking-something that i shouldnt do because i 'll get super emo after i do so- about everything. not much of soul-searching, more of reflecting. every random thought that hits me i paised, laughed at myself; not because it's funny, more of, i'm a fucking no lifer; and i finally realised sth: LIFE'S A BIG JOKE. God up there is actually watching us for his entertainment. RASUL'S A BIG RETARD!!! THE BIGGEST REATRD EVER TO EXIST IN HUMAN HISTORY. pls, god, kill the little s.o.b before i do!! he kept singing the TOYS R US jinlge over and over again. the: i dont wanna grow up, i'm a toys r us kid. TIRED. Thursday, July 06, 2006, 10:09 PM
song stuck in my head "Face Down" by THE RED JUMPSUIT APPARATUS Hey girl, you know you drive me crazy one look puts the rhythm in my hand. Still I'll never understand why you hang around I see what's going down. Cover up with make up in the mirror tell yourself, it's never gonna happen again you cry alone and then he swears he loves you. Do you feel like a man when you push her around? Do you feel better now as she falls to the ground? Well I'll tell you my friend, one day this world's going to end as your lies crumble down, a new life she has found. A pebble in the water makes a ripple effect every action in this world will bear a consequence If you wade around forever you will surely drown I see what's going down. I see the way you go and say you're right again, say you're right again heed my lecture Do you feel like a man when you push her around? Do you feel better now as she falls to the ground? Well I'll tell you my friend, one day this world's going to end as your lies crumble down, a new life she has found. Face down in the dirt, she said, this doesn't hurt, she said, I finally had enough. [x2] One day she will tell you that she has had enough it's coming round again. Do you feel like a man when you push her around? Do you feel better now as she falls to the ground? Well I'll tell you my friend, one day this world's going to end as your lies crumble down, a new life she has found. [x2] Face down in the dirt, she said, this doesn't hurt, she said, I finally had enough. , 9:01 PM
I stood at one end of the bus while he sat at the other. I was bursting to tell so many things, but i doubted that he'd care. I mean, he didnt even bother to say hi, he just gave me a weak grimice. I dont know you anymore, do i? I have something to confess. I AM UBER TIRED. I'm so worn out. I went to school despite the awful phelgm stuck up my throat. I was so tired today. Slept in so many lessons. Not that i didnt care, I was just so tired. Every bit of my fast dividing cells, i swear, are fucking dead. I just got up from my suppposed to be, very short nap. Well, i was under some medication anyway. hmmm. i hope i will do my homework. i am just very tired and well, sick la!! I seriously love my 4e2 girls. every one of the little beautiful idiots are like super adorable (like me). RACHEL, NICOLETTE, MICHELLE, EEYIN, HOUJUN, YINGTONG, BECCA, WENDY, LIFEN, EEYIN, STEPHANIE and co. i feel so very fat that i almost cried. Like bloody hell, what you want from me?? i eat just veggies and fish with my rice every time. My plate would be brimming with veggies because i ask the aunty to put less rice. It's like i'm eating noodles of veggies, which is like suuper gross. only fruits for me for recess. or maybe just skip it altogether and play volley tmr? yeah, i should do that. maybe. "Do you have a eating problem?" "What makes you say that?" "You're... You're very the skinny la." "No." "trust me, you are." TURST YOU? should i? Trust is a very strong word. , 12:35 AM
I'm confused. I hate this mixed emotions that i'm getting from you. This love aint dying. ~you're everywhere to me, when i close my eyes, it's you i see I LOVE YOU, unfortunately.
Wednesday, July 05, 2006, 10:22 AM
What's wrong? You havent replied to any of my messages Nor have you answered any of my calls. I wanted to how you did for your oral and i wanted to hear the sound of your voice. But i am holding back But you hadnt said a word to me. I dont understand. I just dont understand. What did i do or say? I still care for you and i dont want to lose you anymore because i already had lost so much of you. Is this a stint? whatever it is, it is hurting me. whatever it is, it's not fair. you said you never want to lose any ties with me you wanted FRIENDSHIP, all i see is BULLSHIT. Tuesday, July 04, 2006, 8:51 PM
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ignore my previous post. i was just rambling. i deleted it anyway. super tired. but i gotta just continue. I'm happy. yeah, i'm happy. i think.  i aim to look like her. she's awfully pretty. think can?i doubt so. she's so pretty and thin. Monday, July 03, 2006, 11:33 PM
for you, the forgotten MATCHBOOK ROMANCE "Tiger Lily" we drive tonight, and you are by my side. We're talking about our lives, like we've known each other forever. the time flies by, with the sound of your voice. its close to paradise, with the end surely near. and if i could only stop the car and hold onto you, and never let go (and never let go) i'll never let go (i'll never let go) as we round the corner to your house you turned to me and said, "i'll be going through withdrawal of you for this one night we have spent." and, i want to speak these words but i guess i'll just bite my tongue, and accept "someday, somehow" as the words that we'll hang from. and i (i..), i don't want to speak these words. 'cause i ('cause i..), i don't want to make things any worse. and i (i..), i don't want to speak these words. 'cause i, i don't want to make things any worse. why does tonight, have to end? why don't we hit restart, and pause it at our favorite parts. we'll skip the goodbyes. if i had it my way, i'd turn the car around and runaway, just you and i. and i (i..), i don't want to speak these words. 'cause i ('cause i..), i don't want to make things any worse. (any worse) and i (i..), i don't want to speak these words 'cause i, i don't want to make things and i, i don't want to make things any worse ~new song background pressure by paramore , 2:47 AM
~EVERY CUT YOU MAKE ON YOUR WRIST IS A STAB IN MY HEART the randomness of my ipod there's no specific genre in my ipod. cluster of songs thanks to all the weird ppl who gave the songs to me. new songs monsters by matchbook romance tiger lily by matchbook romance creatures by atreyu in the shadows by the rasmus i caught fire by the used here without you by three doors down on my own by the used unfaithful by rihanna nadya by khairil?? take it away by the used the taste of ink by the used tear you apart by unknown hahaha yup weird compilation Sunday, July 02, 2006, 4:57 PM
ok, i've calmed down already. hahaa should not give a damn, right?? anyway, dearest passerby, only people like you will bastard girls. and unfortunately, faiz's nothing like you. SUPERMAN RETURNS. an okay show. quite boring. i thought it'd be more intruiging. we could have watched Scary Movie 4 but Rasul is under age. let's all laugh at the 15++++ year old boy but i thought that Scary Movie 4 would be a lame shit ass show. it's just mockery of all the other blockbuster movies ever made, like brokeback mountian. i'm getting fat. i ate 3 meals ytd. lunch- fish ole at KFC dinner- fishball soup supper- mushroom pizza from 7eleven. today's lunch- macdonald's grilled chicken foldover ouh no!! i weigh a fucking 42kg. i'm so depressed right now. and people are saying i'm goth. i'm not ar. i just painted my nails black, it means i'm retarded, not goth. no, wait, i'm just random. ~why have you not been talking to me? i miss you , 4:44 PM
read my tagboard. i'm too pissed to even blog. faggot just one note to the tagger: thanks for rubbing it in Saturday, July 01, 2006, 10:58 AM
~some people hide their fears in a closet, i hide mine in my smile Razin should be banned from wearing his NCC uniform. he's super super hot in it can!!! exremely hot i was going on and on about how handsome he looks to eeyin. hahhaa i must calm down. hot. i love hot gays. not that i'm saying he's gay or anything but he claims that he is, i think. lmao o god. i fell asleep last night while studying. which meant that i only covered 7 chapters. out of the supposedly 16. i'm so frustrated because the paper was so easy. that's it, i'll be burning the midnight oil for the next nights once agian. been super hardworking lately. i dont know why. i'd do anything to get my mind off of him. Anything. watching Superman with haha, yes, Superman later. that retard, i wonder if he's going to wear that shirt again. ishit. what am i to wear? -hey janna, thanks for ytd. nice talking to you. |
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