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Saturday, September 30, 2006, 5:10 PM
 Supposedly THE event of the year not to be missed!!! A fund-raising event for the dancers. Do come and support your friends who will be performing. Rusydi's crew are gonna hit the stage with some sort of dance item. Razin's band will be playing a few songs, one being Your Guardian Angel =D Click on the poster for a larger view. I MISS RAZIN SO MUCH. gtg. will be staying really hard later. Labels: random thoughts Friday, September 29, 2006, 11:50 PM
~We are prisoners to Time I am hot and pretty!!! Getting really big-headed over here. I think my head swelled up so big that it'd weigh 258768kg!!! Sorry, i did not declare that im pretty and hot alright?? Im not that thick skinned, thank you very much. Five guesses who. =D Life is so unpredictable. No. Perish that thought. 4e2 is unpredictable. Wendy asked me if wear tampons across the class. Dont ask me what possessed her to ask me such an unconventional question in the middle of lesson, within ear reach of everyone, but it was nonetheless amusing. For a good millisecond, i froze, wondering if i was in the right place, being asked by the person who i thought was wendy. basically, the entire class' attention diverted to yours truly. with a dozen pair of eyes being directed on me, i felt obligated to answer that question, with blatant frankness, "No. " I remember Nicolette piping in to my rescue, "It's normal, i think. Swimmers wear it all the time." "I find it gross. Like, why would anyone want to shove in sth foreign into their..." and i stopped there, realising that everyone had clung on to every word i had said, and were bursting out laughing. I was really thinking aloud. Didnt realise that i was saying it out. damn it. But it is true. Why would you wanna stick sth up there. it's pretty erotic, if you really think of it. How do you even use a tampon? Mr lee taishen bullied me into pulling down the white projector screen. I tried ok. I jumped. to my disdain. and everyone just laughed at me. mr lee had the cheek to pull it down himself(i will remind you that he is about 1.8m tall). He laughed at me! -_- god hates me, i swear. I bet you guys had gotten back your results for bio. For annoying ppl like Razin and Megat who both got their a1 and a2 respectively, congrats. Nicolette, dont be disheartened by your grades. It wont matter if you dont get into a JC for the first three months, what matters is getting to a JC for the next 2 years. at least you improved from a failing grade to a pass. keep on trying and keep on fighting. Razin is my superhero. =D superman?batman?spiderman?he choose. From now on, i need you to protect me and be there for me. For some reason, im a trouble-magnet, i'm vulnerable and weak. I'm just scared. Labels: school Thursday, September 28, 2006, 6:28 PM
Ever felt every bit of happiness got sucked out of you dry and you suddenly feel that the whole world has gone cold and grey? I dont know why, maybe it's PMS, but i am feeling this way after a super nice and long chat with my friend. It was a nice conversation, i felt but, it was a difficult one. I love nicolette. it has been a while since i've talked to her. Must be the exams. i dont quite like talking to her during the exams period because her paranoia is contagious!!!! But babe, i still love you, heaps. i do hope all your hardwork pays off and you'd get kicked into that JC you want for the first month. I failed history!!! jofjswhuowhfgsbhgkv. I HATE HISTORY. on a much brighter note, i got a B3 for physics. 3rd highest in class =D pretty bummed about it though cause i put in zero effort for the essays and the mcq. Sinteck!! work harder ok? you can get tat a1!!! im sure you can!! I hate this feeling. It's as though someone is squeezing my fallopian tubes. and my legs feel wobbly. yes ppl, it's THAT time of the month again for yours truly but trust me, i'm hating every bit of it. argh! no mood la!! I feel that you have yet to trust me completely. i remember the way you make feel when i was with you i remember the smile that always brought me back to you Labels: emo , 1:03 AM
Wow. I'm tired. Very tired!!!! tired, but happy. Prelims are over!! And I have begun to mug. Drowned myself in the boredom of Social Studies just now. It was boring reading chapter one of the sec4 textbook. Grrsss. But, i got it!! So tad happy about it. I hate humanities!!! Ok. This entry is already starting to sound like a typical minah/ah lian's so i shall not elaborate further on how much i suck at it. =) My room is in an utter mess. It's looked as if a tornado of some kind had just rampaged through it. It's so messy that you'd call a pig sty your home. I wanna barf seeing how disgusting i can get. But the area where i sleep(the bed), i managed to keep it neat. Basically, i dont know how to start cleaning up my room cause my entire study table is a dumping ground for tons and tons of unarranged, and crumpled books. If you entered my room and ignored the pink bedsheets and the tons of accessories, you'd mistaken it for a guy's room. It's a freakin dump. One of the reasons to why i do not study at home. tsktsk. Something tells me that i should start clearing my room and arrange my worksheets proper, but i'm just too lazy to do so. I feel like throwing everything out and just zap whatever i want to study from ppl. however, that is a huge no. my room needs a make over real bad. Currently i need help with notes as mine had gone amiss in one of the piles of junk in my room.
There. So, if you are reading this. pls help me =) thank you very much. Ok. Results for emaths was horrible. i managed to clinch a 50% which is bad. And my mother tongue was such a heartwrencher cause i lost to hidayaha and fau by 0.5% making me only 2nd best in the whole entire cohort (yes, i got my freaking a1 if that's what you're wondering) but i'm not satisfied since i could have tied with them if not for a silly spelling mistake in the "Make a sentence" section. Perv la. Razin lost to me by 0.3%, which got him third and Megat grabbed a 76.0%, losing to razin by 0.2%. yes. that is how tough competition is in this small group of retakers. Really, we never expected to resit this mothertongue exam. I was disappointed like hell. You had no idea how it felt losing to mats and minahs. Just because 4e2 are not accustomed to talking feverishly in malay, we had to retake it. If you are offended or anything, i really dont care, but i'm like sorry la, cause i dont feel very nice today. In one of those moods where i feel like dissing everyone and anyone because of how much sinteck had irritated me. wanted to spill out profinities at his face but i held back because i was fasting. Bloody hell la, NEVER IRRITATE SOMEONE FASTING. SERIOUSLY, NEVER DO THAT. WE ARE HUNGRY AND BORED TO OUR WIT'S END AND YOU DECIDE TO IRRITATE US. I love my parents so much. though they sometimes make me feel so effed up, i still love them for being so nice to me when i need them to be. Haha. Ok, i think there is something very very important for me to do after o's and that is to learn conversational chinese. I think it's an advatage if one can speak chinese in this country. At least, the more basic stuff. for now, i can understand scraps of it but i cant speak it. YET. it's a must to understand other languages i think.At the zoo, the staff there are all multilingual. I got dumbfounded when that malay woman was rapidly conversing in japanese to that japanese tourist without batting an eyelid. JAW DROPS. I NEED AN A1 FOR ENGLISH DESPRATELY!! HOW???!!! Seems impossible. grrrrsss. -Razin, i love you ~i'm a liar if i am to declare that you are erased from my mind. but screw you. Labels: irritations Wednesday, September 27, 2006, 12:35 AM
NC16 Mature content. ok, not really. but, i'd make your hair stand on end. DERANGED RETARD: everitin abt u is beautiful MESSED UP LUNATIC: awww DERANGED RETARD: it came frm de bottom of mi heart...dats not so deep rite...cuz ur heart is onli de size of ur fist MESSED UP LUNATIC: thanks ar DERANGED RETARD: i mean it MESSED UP LUNATIC: you just said something so romantic and made it not romantic MESSED UP LUNATIC: hahahahhahahahha DERANGED RETARD: lol... DERANGED RETARD: sry la MESSED UP LUNATIC: i dont mind MESSED UP LUNATIC: it's so funny MESSED UP LUNATIC: lmao DERANGED RETARD: lol Savin Me by Nickelback
~dont save me, cause you'd hurt yourself trying to catch me from crashing to the ground Tuesday, September 26, 2006, 2:28 PM
Dont ask!! i dont even know what happened myself. Hah. and to think of it, that was done by a 7year old. i bet anything, ahmad started it.  Ok, last paper done!! man, and tomorrow is back to school.!! Dang it. not to mention all our results. jitters. I really really miss hanging out with the girls. Everyone was so busy with exams and stuff. And now, i cant go out and eat lunch with them because of fasting. Sheesh. Cant seem to do much because of this holy month. Argh. and the agony of finding my baju kurung. Grrrsss. I hate to find it. Not only do i not like to wear them- every year being utterly tempted to just wear jeans and a shirt- it's extremely hard to get my size. But i'd enjoy shopping for the shoes though. a fetish. Shoes!!! =DBtw, our house is newly furnished!! Haha. Kinda excited for the things to arrive. Cant wait, cant wait!! ~ i really miss you!!! Labels: emo Monday, September 25, 2006, 10:21 PM
Hello world. As usual, instead of diligently studying for my very last paper tomorrow, here i am, defiantly blogging my daily thoughts and ramblings. I dont know how to react. I was dumbfounded, really. $3000 left there in the backseat of my dad's taxi and no has called in to claim it. And it was found on the first day of this holy month. Dad said it's a gift from God. I said it's a test from God. See the huge difference. Wait, unless this thing has yet to register in your minds yet, MY DAD FOUND 3000 SMACKEROONIES AT THE BACKSEAT OF HIS TAXI. Let's wait and see. If we do get to keep the money, i will remind my dad not to pay zakat last minute again. Happens every year. I was late for school again. And because of that, i have to report at 710 to the I really miss Razin. Because of exams and ramadhan, we cant hang out often. And let me remind you that today is only the second day of fasting!!! "i love the way you talk and the way you smile, and everything else that you do seems perfect" SO SWEET... I'm enraptured by that msn nick. Hide me, I'm turning red. Speaking of red. I bought a red adidas sling bag. it's like the one Jessica(e5) has. I thought of getting black, but since she has that one, i'd rather not ruin her style. I also gotten a top and pants and two belts. Most of them i got them online. Ouh ya. I bought my grad nite dresses!! Both are white. One for the Grad nite the other for UCC. The dresses are semi formal i guess. I'm not sure. And i have yet to buy my billabong wallet. Dang. Nvm. My mum has a credit card for a reason. tata. I'm off to study for paper 1!! ~i'll ignore you forever if i have to. i cant allow a single ignition of my love for you to rekindle in my heart. to me, you are dead. rest in peace. Sunday, September 24, 2006, 3:47 AM
argh. i feel tad awful. i forgot to tell marican my blog url. i thought i did!!!! klsdfjwutyishfsf. i went down the links from the first to the last. sdfhusefhyuisdghfkjsdhf. idiiooottt. ARGH!! I AM SO HIGH WITH COUNTING CROWS ACCIDENTALLY IN LOVE!! i used to listen to it every morning while going to school. but now, since i lent my mp4 to Shafiq, i cant. That song is really a great way to start your morning la! it really perks up your day. Right now, it's on repeat mode on the itunes. i think i'm mad!! It's a happy song! =D So she said what's the problem baby What's the problem I don't know Well maybe I'm in love (love) Think about it every time I think about it Can't stop thinking 'bout it How much longer will it take to cure this Just to cure it cause I can't ignore it if it's love (love) Makes me wanna turn around and face me but I don't know nothing 'bout love Come on, come on Turn a little faster Come on, come on The world will follow after Come on, come on Cause everybody's after love So I said I'm a snowball running Running down into the spring that's coming all this love Melting under blue skies Belting out sunlight Shimmering love Well baby I surrender To the strawberry ice cream Never ever end of all this love Well I didn't mean to do it But there's no escaping your love These lines of lightning Mean we're never alone, Never alone, no, no Come on, Come on Move a little closer Come on, Come on I want to hear you whisper Come on, Come on Settle down inside my love Come on, come on Jump a little higher Come on, come on If you feel a little lighter Come on, come on We were once Upon a time in love We're accidentally in love Accidentally in love (x7) Accidentally I'm In Love, I'm in Love, I'm in Love, I'm in Love, I'm in Love, I'm in Love, Accidentally (X 2) Come on, come on Spin a little tighter Come on, come on And the world's a little brighter Come on, come on Just get yourself inside her Love ...I'm in love Saturday, September 23, 2006, 11:18 PM
I'm stupified. My bro asked me the most outragous question. Reason #08875 on why my bro is too smart for his own sake. Ahmad: Kak Ida, can I ask you something? Me: OK, sure. What? Ahmad: Do you love me more or do you love Razin more? Me: *stares at him with utter disbelief for a good ten seconds, wondering if he really had asked me what i thought he had asked me, before laughing my ass off* Ahmad: *giggles annoyingly* Ok, I love my brother. He's annoyingly cute. It's so adorable. Like, how many normal 7 year olds would ask tht question?I think he feels left out. AWWWW. Like as if 16hours of his presence in this house with him aint that enough? I didnt know how to answer his question. It's so funny. WTH!!! He had very cycnical smile on his face when he asked that question. Cynical smile in a very very innocent voice. I SLAP YOU THEN YOU KNOW!! so annoying. But nah, it's cute. Pls dont ask me how my brother got that idea. Anyway, i watched this muay thai match with Razin today, i mean ytd. Retard, we didnt get to see his brother getting kicked around. how sad, i think we missed it. The guys there are like totally gorgeous la. Not those short bulky ones, the tall and lean ones. Kauz. Can look until nose bleed sia. Their bodies are tad hot. Ok, they are boxers after all. Razin is annoying!! THIS WAS THE PRINT ON HIS SHIRT.  How prerogative of a second glance. It's like me having a tank top printed,"I'M HOT; stop looking at me" on the chest. I've been pondering on what Marican had wrote about me on my testimonial. The part where she doesnt understand on why there are ppl out there who doesnt like me when she claims that i'm nice and all that. Well, the truth is, i'm no angel. Maybe my past mistakes cant be altered or taken back and rumours starts going on. Well, i give no two hoots about tht now, cause i know, i'm not like that anymore, or should i say, much? trying to be sensible here. If a lot of ppl dont like you, obviously, there is something wrong with you. Not half of the population can suddenly have brain tumour and have malicious thoughts of you. So i kinda tried figuring things out. I'm just glad that Marican didnt really listen much and tried gettin to know me.love ya truckloads. Anyway, i think it's great to have your own mind and not let others influence get the better of you. It's like how i heard such tad awful things about my darling Wendy. and when i got to know her better, she's nothing like what they say she was. maybe she has changed for the better. but honestly, i dont care of her past and what she had done. all i care is the person who she is today and i love that person i see. i'm glad and proud to say that Wendy Phua Wenting, is a friend of mine. She's not like what you ppl say. At all. she's sweet, docile and so very innocent, and if you ppl dont like that, pls, i insist that you do,FCUK OFF. And Azhar, your testi was very very nice. Thank you!! It's not those kind where you write for the sake of writing. thanks for the effort. effing touched!! Just a sneak peak of the UCC concert!! Razin's band consisting of Faiz, razin and prem, will be playing a few songs. three of which are Smells like Teen Spirit by Nirvana, The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus' Guardian Angel and Creep by Radiohead. I heard that Razin's gonna be singing all three songs. lmao about it currently. in fact, if any of the other two were to sing, i'd die laughing. not to be insulting or looking down on them la, but i've known them for so long, and imagining them singing is so tad funny. and, it's not easy to play an instrument and sing at the same time. wish them the best and not mess up. after listening to the songs that they'd be performing, they need that luck cause i find the vocals very hard. and finally!! today is the first day of ramadhan!! fasting month!! bottomline, no maksiat!! meaning: no porn no sex no ejaculation no smoking no drinking no touching of the opposite sex no gossipping no diggin of nose good luck and may the Force be with you.
HE LOVES ME!!! =D
i saw a lot of HELLO KITTY merchandise and i wonder what's so cute about a cat with no mouth. so i tried this. What do you make of a girl with no mouth?speechless and pls, no pun intended. ~god has a reason for letting things happen. usually, it's a test of your faith in him or he has other plans for you. god doesnt let things happen just for fun, he is afterall all-knowing and wise. Friday, September 22, 2006, 7:30 PM
SEJA IS COOL. I'm told to say that to all you ppl by my 17-year-old-trapped-in-a-20-year-old-body-cousin. Here's an idea on what SEJA actually is. Physics was easy. Damnit!! Only the twenty mark essay question was tough. It's not like i've never seen the questions before, it's i never tried to attempt it!! Grrrss.. History! laughter man! i was so engrossed studying physics that i kinda ditched history. it went fine though. bought this adidas tank top online. I thought it was authentic la. Until it came and i counted that it only had 2 stripes instead of the usual three. Ripper! And it's small. Well, small when i first saw it; thinking, "shit, how to fit?". turns out, I CAN WEAR IT. like, yay for siti. ok. sorry for the very very very very very bad choice of grammer and sentence structure today. Just not in the"english" mood. Nicolette!!! The chinese guy you told me about? The one who prowls for young malay girls for sex? I think he found me on wholivesnearyou.com. He's sick. very very very sick. well, that excuse-for-a-human-being said utterly sick and things about the female anatomy and what he wants to do to mine. i hate this. AND HE LIVES NEAR OUR SCHOOL!! He kept saying on and on that he wants to find me after school. i love you. i just wonder if you love me as much as i do. Labels: irritations Thursday, September 21, 2006, 6:43 PM
PEOPLE!! I WANT A DENIM JACKET!! IF YOU GUYS HAVE ONE, AND YOU'RE WILLING TO SELL IT, PLS LET ME KNOW!! TAG =D OMG!! i got an online message from this PERV him: do you want to earn fast $$? no xxx me: huh? *utterly oblivious* errrm.. ok.. what sort of job? him: but you must be open minded... me: im open minded but pls. no escorting... him: no lah. it involves heavy petting and kissing me: ermm. no thanks. i'm not like that. my guy wont like that. Number one. May i ask you to define the meaning of being 'open minded'? Does being open minded mean that you are easy, slutty and wanton? Do tell, cause i really dont like the idea of being open minded anymore. i really dont wanna be open minded from now on. hurry, ask me if i'm open minded!! i'll tell you, FUCK NO!! i'll be as demure and hermit if being open minded makes me a whore. Darlz, sorry for just now. dont feel guilty aites? love ya, loads too. Labels: irritations , 3:46 PM
I think my brain is dead. Amaths was such a laugh. I was laughing my ass off because i had no clue on how to do the paper. It was easy though- if it was hard, i'd be sleeping throughout the paper. I was doing it la, despite being very tempted to just write my name and hand in a single sheet of paper. Did some studying at Nv library alone. I wouldnt have been so alone and emoed there for over 3 hours if Te YengJie had told me that he was studying too. Retarded guy was too studying alone at the science block. Btw, i really do not like that female security guard. It's as if i killed her mum; she glares at me as if my existance is such a menace to her. COME AND GET ME!! I'M RIGHT HERE, YOU FUGLY MONSTER! I nearly died of shock today. I went inside my kitchen, turn 90degrees, only to find my fridge gone!! could have died!! I THOUGHT SOMEONE HAD STOLEN IT!!! until i remembered that the new fridge is coming in today. i must be dumb. why would anyone want to break into a house to steal a fridge? like, why not the tv? someone kill me. i'm unworthy of this world. Went out with Marican yesterday. I love that chick.  ok. unglam photograph, but who cares?? i love her, truckloads. spent hours talking about life, food, food, life and school.RAZIN!!! Thanks for accompanying me yesterday though you had two papers to sit for. love you like THIS *brings index and thumb close together* much. lmao. ok, you know that's a joke right, darlz? Razin =D iloverazinbigtime i dont wanna lose you, ever Labels: irritations Wednesday, September 20, 2006, 3:34 AM
God sent us angels to guide us in life. these angels are whom we call friends. The world seems so much brighter, the grass lusher and greener, the air fresher and i swear to god, the toothpaste tastes mintier. I thank you ppl for being my friends. =D life would be different without awesome peeps like you. I think i'm losing myself. I think i'm disappearing before my eyes. Metaphorically. not the literal, i'm disappearing because i'm losing weight. yes, i do wonder off in a daydream, wishing i can control time. It'd be cool, i can set when i want the exams to be and other stuff.... Let's not dwindle into my very very ridiculous and fat hope-ish thoughts. Btw, i think i'm losing weight despite not having a diet. I think i'm as flat as a washboard. grrss. but my arms are thinner and my thighs are very small; so yay for siti Haha. talking to some random guy about guitars (sth i have no knowledge of) sinks me back to reality. Darling, play me Dealova again, will you? =D Btw, fasting month is coming!! jadi bile nak puaskan nafsu, puas-puas memotek by this Saturday. kalau tak, kena tunggu satu bulan or selepas magrhib. ish ish ish. i cant be bothered to translate since it wont be funny anymore are you sure THEY taught you your ABCs?  feeling random  THREE CHEERS FOR LOVE??? ok, it's retarded  Razin might be playing this song for the UCC. i'm not sure if they seriously want to play it, cause it's gayly nice. your guardian angel by the red jumpsuit apparatus When I see your smile Tears run down my face I can't replace And now that I'm stronger I've figured out How this world turns cold and breaks through my soul And I know I'll find deep inside me I can be the one I will never let you fall I'll stand up with you forever I'll be there for you through it all Even if saving you sends me to heaven It's ok. It's ok. It's ok. Seasons are changing And waves are crashing And stars are falling all for us Days grow longer and nights grow shorter I can show you I'll be the one I will never let you fall I'll stand up with you forever I'll be there for you through it all Even if saving you sends me to heaven Cuz you're my, you're my, my true love, my whole heart Please don't throw that away Cuz I'm here for you Please don't walk away, Please tell me you'll stay, stay Use me as you will Pull my strings just for a thrill And I know I'll be ok Though my skies are turning gray I will never let you fall I'll stand up with you forever I'll be there for you through it all Even if saving you sends me to heaven >> >>>> you guys better not ruin one of my favourite songs ar!! i'll come up on stage and break your electric guitar, bass and drums if you do!!!! thanks for being my guardian angel  Labels: love, lyrics, random thoughts Tuesday, September 19, 2006, 3:18 PM
cause you're so so so sweet. Oh man. Never thought would i'd ever be enamored with you. =D i am extremely euphoric!! ecstatic!!! and downright exultant!! =DDDDD
     i look fugly in this pic, but it's the baby that you all care about rigth? well, that's 1/2 of the twins, IKRAM and that's twin no.2, IKSAN. ouh, the dudette is my cousin, Atie- just fyi i know that photo is in the flash thingy. i trust noone is crazy enough to steal my picture because i think i look very nice in this one here.Marican posted this. i think it's uber sweet. "I know I still love you from deep down. The moments we spend were priceless, when you kissed me hard, you make me forget the world and I strongly believe that somewhere in your mind, soul there lies me. You resist, said a million "No's", trying to forget me when you know at night you're still thinking of me, like such I am facing flashbacks, playing like a filmstrip. Why don't you just confess? You still want me and I still want you. I'm Girl, you're such a doll. Any girl or guy can see that you are such a nice person. Stay strong. I know it's hard not to reminisce on those moments, but you just have to try. i know, i still do have weird flashbacks and get emo over them. but sighs woman, what's done is done. you cant turn back time even though such wishful thinkings do occur to me. someone better is out there, or right in front of you. you just havent realised that. because i know, i did. =D DARLING, I MISS YOU ALREADY Labels: love Monday, September 18, 2006, 6:02 PM
Very very very very very very very very smitten. Argh!!! I love you, need i say more?  Azmi is terrible with directions!! and so are his friends. YOU SHOULD HAVE JUST LISTENED TO THE SHORT GUY!! Nice show, but it could have been more emotive. it didnt reach me emotionally, unlike how Theater Kami's did. But i liked it because unlike the black box productions stuff, this is quite short and straight to the point. the lines, errr, cheesy. i didnt get restless; ok, maybe because we were quite late. the cheesy quotes that Azmi and his friends came up with or should i say, the WORST PICK UP LINE EVER!!: I seem to have lost my number, can i have yours? Labels: love, random thoughts , 12:24 AM
FORGET ABOUT THE PREVIOUS POST!! YOU HAVE CLEARED MY DOUBTS ALTOGETHER!! I LOVE YOU TOO Rereading our conversation, i was laughing and smiling. It's veri sweet la. "So, is that you telling me or what he told you?" "That's what i'm telling you." it's spastic can. i mean if you know the entire conversation, you'd think it's funny and utterly disturbing. God, i'm such a smitten kitten right now. If i had any less melanin, i'd be uber red. Nicolette, we were so tad wrong!!! THANKS FOR EVERYTHING!! =DBTW AZMI!!! YAZID IS SUPER SHORT. ELFIAN. hahaha. he deserves that for coming up with one of my other million pet names, Hamidala. and here i was all along thinking you did it!! You have proven to me once again that your annoyance is boundless and utterly contagious. Btw, yazid's really good. acting i mean. other than that, he's short. Labels: love Sunday, September 17, 2006, 9:19 PM
Cant get rid of this feeling that i think i love you. maybe i dont want to get rid of it. maybe i do want it. yes, i do have doubts about this. not for my sake, but your sake. You peeps remember this guy, Rasul aka Spuerman? He ever pulled in a kiss, i tried kissing back, only to find tears rolling down my face. Yes, that's how bad of a state tht i was in. I want to realise things before it's too late. Do i need a kiss just to be sure of my feelings for you? How would i know that you have really filled up this space in my heart. For now, i do think that i really really really really like you. i dont wanna play with your feelings, because i trully care for you. i really do. you made me smile, laugh and best of all, you filled my stomach with fluttering butterflies. i surrender to fate Labels: emo Saturday, September 16, 2006, 4:15 AM
Chemistry was unusually easy. It's scary tht i think it's easy since i only did the FYS and not much of studying. Calm and composed i was doing the exam. Messed up one or two. Not confident in a few of my answers. Screw crystalisation, which was totally uncalled for. I hope dont do so well because i dont want to get too confident thinking that I'll definately score in Chem for o levels. COMBINED SCIENCE (PHY-CHEM), i vow to get a1 for that, i swear to feaking god. Physics, you better watch out!! i'll kick ass. it's because of you i get a b4 for my comb sci!! Chemistry, I LOVE YOU. ouh yeah, I love you too. Labels: love Friday, September 15, 2006, 5:26 AM
Lalalallaa. =D I'M SO HAPPY!!! Feeling very random. In a good way. =DDDDD Post o levels activities.
OK. Very pumped up for the o's. i have not started on revision. but i'm pretty excited on getting it over and done with. It's like the happiest thought ever. craps. you make me blush. Wednesday, September 13, 2006, 8:21 PM
 This is especially for my DEAREST AND MOST DARLING, NICOLETTE. Girl, it's ok. I dont feel that we've ever drifted apart because you have your life and i have mine. Dont you ever feel that we drifted away because that is quite insulting to me. =D There are others who need you more on certain days and you tend to them first. it's alright. because i know that eventually, you'd come to me when i need you. And that's why you have not neglected your duties as a best friend. dont you ever fill your utterly princessy and innocent brains with such horrible thoughts of the person you are not. I LOVE YOU =D-you're really 'wow', you know that; thanks super guy =D How am i not to be anorexic? like look at them!! awfully fat free!!! Like, the pressure!! And looking at them awesome in the NPCC uniform further increase the jealousy. This is probably one of the very last times I that I'll be blogging. I'm going to cut down on surfing and idling(hopefully). that is unless i got uber bored of course. Probably, thrice a week. Honestly, i dont want to study anymore. Just gotta force it down. I cant give up totally as my mum had brought me my laptop. Which means that i'm obligated to do well. Or at least, well enough to make her happy. She's easily satisfied, fortunately. Hady and Jon will make it to top 2. If not, i'll give away my cat. Wait, i dont have a cat. Apple has annoyingly released a newer and more sleeker range of iPOD Nanos. They are slightly more like the minis. Just smaller. Man, it does look nice. But, my sis commented that the original Nano, which i have now, is much more chic. dont tell me you like me because noone else is like me. This is because everyone is unique and special in their own way. But do tell me that you like me because I'm special and unique to you "Wow, you are really something. You're so unique. Not like other malay girls online." That ladies and gentleman, is the new and very tacky pick-up line guys are constantly telling me. At first, it seems utterly flattering, until i used brain, thinking- DUH. to me, you can only say that to someone once you really know the person. This guy i talked to one the net, unbashedly claims that he knows every single one of his friendster contacts(This is because i told him that he has ego issues.) So, i in return shamelessly said that he is a motherfucking liar. =D Ouh, and he is utterly annoying. It's like, his parents dont love him enough to give him a proper name, so he calls himself, Firz. Or Amad. When he could have just told me that his name is Ahmad. Like, what is fucking wrong with you ppl? You despise the name given ever so lovingly given to you by your parents? Unless you are called Panties or Dick, maybe then you should think of giving yourself a nicer name. I know, i'm being annoying and tad arrogant. looking back.... WAIT, YOU SAY THAT THERE IS NOT ANYTHING TO LOOK BACK AT SINCE NOTHING WAS EVER REAL!!! YOU SON OF A BITCH!! Tuesday, September 12, 2006, 4:32 AM
OK, so that day when i hung out with Razin after ditching Saturday's concert, we talked loads of shite. Many were very funny. This was the conversation that i had with him when he sent me home. I find it effing funny. i was so daft. I seriously wonder if i had brought my brain out of the house before going out. Razin: look. the moon. nice sia. pretty. Me: yeah, it's savvy. Razin: if you look properly, you'd see a rabbit on the moon. Me: (quizzled as what he said sounded very familiar) You mean the craters? Razin: yup. the deeper ones forms a rabbit. Me: (extremely excited) OH, that's how they derive to that nursery rhyme. Razin: cow (gives me that,"YOU MUST BE KIDDING ME" look) Me: (totally ignoring what he had said; in a singsong)the rabbit jumped over the moon Razin: the COW jumped over the moon. you are ridiculous. (highly amused at my obliviousness) as i laughed, i knew that i had to go check up on my nursery rhymes; proving once again that i have a deprived childhood; before i ridicule myself in front of others. WARNING: DO NOT MAKE A BIG HUHA. CONFESSION #1 Let's put this in the most civilised and as morally right as possible; my sister is a bitch and i'm a hypocrite. I've been thinking a lot. Too much actually. Read my previous posts from the beginning rite to the end. What have i become? God has foresaken me. From the almost docile person that i was, i've become weak and futile. I wallowed in self pity and did all sorts of shite to further depress my into grief. Melancholy fills this incompetent soul. now i get it when they say,"stop doing this to yourself". At first, i felt that what i did was natural instinct. Human beings are stupid and I, being one of them, am stupid. I did loads of shite when my world came crashing down on me. instead of being tough when the going gets tough, i got weak and fell behind as the tough got going. Pills to so-called cure the pain. Drank to wash away the hurt. and damn, i used ppl to fill me up inside; while kissing, i started crying, knowing that i have no feelings for that s.o.b. Smoke, in hopes that i die faster as i finish 1 pack a day. I'm a mess. I know i am. And i need help. I have become the very thing that i hate. And so help came. I am a pig, so nicolette, there is no need to tell me that. Wendy, for you and our friendship, i'll try to stop smoking. Razin, no need to feel guilty casue most probably you felt that you had no right to stop me. You guys have been such darls. And i really love you guys. Now that i see who i become, th image in the mirror disgusts me. If you ppl decide to boycott me because of this shite, pls do. that shows how immature you are. I hope my morale has not sunk in anyway, if it did, forgive me. sorry to have disappointed many. I'm not savvy anymore. I MUST STOP USING "SAVVY"!!! Grrrrssss. Arggh. Meow. My English utterly garbage!! After looking and reading my past entries, not many were up to par. It's horribible =D And i seriously think that NONE of the people living in my under this roof actually knows the meaning of hygiene. this is because every single one of my family member uses my favourite WINNIE THE POOH TOWEL. It's either they are oblivious with the fact that THAT IS MY TOWEL or they have an affinity with my very soft and cute towel. When i mean by EVERYONE, I DO EFFING MEAN EVERYONE. MY MUM, MY DAD, MY BRO, MY SIS, MY OTHER SIS and yours truly. I find it as daft as hell that they cant use their own towels. Like, my sis has this very pretty Ariel the mermaid towel, and my mum and dad can have their stolen hotel towels. WHY MY WINNIE THE POOH towel!!!! Must i contract a highly contagious skin deformaty before you stop using my towel. Like, since when is hygiene an option? Buy me towels. loads and loads of towel for christmas. if possible, have it imprinted; PROPERTY OF SITIHAMIDAH <3> i wanna hit restart Monday, September 11, 2006, 4:04 AM
Rule #1 Oriental delights should never never never never mix with its western counterpart!! I tried cheese prata with muchrooms. I like cheeese. I like prata. I like mushrooms. But i certainly do not like cheese prata with mushrooms. It tasted effing bad. weird. Mum brought me out shopping on Sunday, which was a few hours back, to Junction8. Our first stop was at Best Denki where she happily bought herself a fridge and she ever so willingly, bought me a laptop. Yes, the woman bought me an effing laptop. I am still digesting this bit of information down as i apparently seem to be utterly unfazed. Sanity is asking me to jump for jubilation, but for some reason, i dont feel like doing that. In fact, i feel like i'm hollow inside, like an empty container. Honestly, i hadnt expected her to buy me that there and then. I think something had seriously possessed her. I mean, i remarked on how cool  VAIO was the night before. seriously did not expect her to buy me a laptop. She got me Compaq instead of VAIO since stupid Best Denki had no VAIO lappys. I tried to push my luck by asking for a Sony cybershot. humph. never swallow more than you can chew. She snapped at me saying that a camera isnt that important. Sigh. the agony and disappointment. After that, we wondered around and bought ourselves clothes. I shamelessly took a top and a pair shorts off the racks while she looked around for her stuff. I know, stab me for being so utterly horrible to my mum. Despite all these luxury and showers of gifts and love, i still feel down. Urgh. retail therapy works no more. Unbelievably, i find shopping utterly boring. I still crave for things, but once i have them, i just have them, you know? i dont feel anything after getting material goods that i want. argh. I tried studying a few hours back. boy, was it awful. nothing went in. i cant believe i got them after not lighting one for over one and a half years. Sunday, September 10, 2006, 5:31 AM
Ok, maybe i'm too sensitive. ignore the previous post. cant be bothered to delete it since it took me hours to type it down. GUYS FROM NORTH VISTA ARE OFFICIALLY THE SWEETEST AND ARE THE MOST GRACIOUS =D whoever or whatever had taught them real good on how to treat girls. and i'm one of those very very lucky girls to meet with these guys.
CHECK THIS OUT it's some random guy who actually has brains on friendster!! what a gem. this is what he wrote on his profile on the About me List: I had a Friendster account once. I got sick of it. I realized it the day a classmate of mine came and sat beside me in the schools computer lab and said HAHA, youve only got *insert value in hundreds range* contacts, LOSER! He/She//IT then proceeded to add a person he/she/IT deemed attractive. He/She/IT then realized that that person was already added as a friend. He/She/IT had not a single clue who the hell that person even was and chose to proceed with adding more desperate fools, gaining a perverse satisfaction from these conquests I then proceeded to reflect. How many of these lil shits do I even KNOW? Hell, I am aware of their existence but I do really KNOW them? Not many I realized. And I realized that every day there would someone out there adding me just for the sole purpose of making those numbers just increase by one. I suppose I could have walked down their path, blissfully ignorant of the fact that these guys did not give a fuck about who I was, and like them, bolstered my insecure psyche and frail ego. I could have lied to myself that maybe the more people I added, the more popular I became. I chose not to and I choose not to. The people who are added to me on Friendster are those I really consider my friends. Those who arent on my Friendster list, lighten up. Maybe I just dont know you that well. And those who guys who think that just because you talk to me every day, that would automatically make you my friend, well try harder. Sometimes I consider those guys I havent seen for years my friends. So dont lie to me, or rather, dont lie to yourselves. I dont need any AMK ReMo Boi adding me or PlAyGalxxx. And most of all I dont need aNyOnE wHo TyPeS lIkE tHiS iN mY fRiEnDsTer list. And if you think who the fuck is this guy that I need to befriend him, back at you pal. I think you think I give a fuck about what you think and this is what he wrote on his To meet list: I already had more contacts than I needed. I dont need some slut with ego issues adding me just to make her feel better about herself as she sees those numbers jump. Friendster is not exactly a competition, dumbass. Maybe you are wondering, if this guy is being such a prick about Friendster, why create an account? I dont know. Maybe I am just bored. Maybe this is a big finger to all the posers out there. That would be a great huh, a Friendster account with the sole purpose of being a bitch. No. I have met many great and wonderful people on Friendster. Many of them have become close friends whom I treasure. Most of the time the rest are sluts. So yeah, before you click that button think about what you are about to do. You are putting yourself on the line, you just might face rejection. Or you might not even give two squirts of piss. So go ahead send me a message. Add me. Talk to me. Befriend me. Dont collect me. And wake up and smell the piss... OMG!!! HE'S UTTERLY AMAZING!!! HAIL WHOEVER THE FUCK HE IS. OUH WAIT =D dan dhamaraks!! THANKS FOR TRYING TO CHEER ME UP! YOU'RE A GREAT GUY , 2:30 AM
 Yeah, I went to the band fund raising concert. Jannatun Naem was supposed to come along, bailed us out the very last minute. Ok, so the dude's sick. And that left just me and Razin going to the concert. We nearly or could have died of extreme boredom. Ok, we are not that into these classical stuff, we just wanted to support them. How i got involved, is pretty weird because, i ddnt know there was such a thing in the first place. Anyways, we ditched the place after the intermission. Said our hi's and bye's to Zhen and Shafiq who were emceeing, and faris who ushered us in. I bet they totally understand that we arent that into these sort of thing. Shafiq and Zhen did a great job for that 1 hour that we were there. Cheerios to the band and the Alumni because a lot of effort must have been put up. Congrats. I hope they had a successful concert, because we have no idea. =D the beauty of a woman is not in the clothes she wears, the figure that she carries, or the way she combs her hair. The beauty of a woman must be seen in her eyes, because that is the doorway to her heart - the place where love resides I wrote this song. Kinda messy. The tune is as usual, Michelle Branch-y and Vanessa Carlton-y And as usual, it's for YOU Song title:LOST IN YOUR EYES Not a day passes by without you on my mind I just want to run away and hide you wont need to see the tears i cried Oh no.......... I just cant let you go.......... Please say it isnt so Dont rip this heart out and let it bleed without you by i feel so weak My Life, Dont tear my world apart Baby, dont leave Your voice is my air, the soothing comfort of the wind Your touch ceases this soul of all the pain within Oh baby, dont go.. Oh baby, dont go.... Under the stars i pray... that one day... that one day... I'm lost in your eyes... Please say it isnt so Dont rip this heart out and let it bleed without you by i feel so weak My Life, Dont tear my world apart Baby, dont leave Your voice is my air, the soothing comfort of the wind Your touch ceases this soul of all the pain within Oh no..... I'm just so just so Lost in your eyes... In your eyes. -bleurgh. i know. it needs a whole load of brushing up and touch ups. I am terribly upset. I'm just in tears right now. Maybe i'm just ultra sensitive. Boyfriends are a headache and heartache. But you! Of all ppl. I trust you. I care. I look up to you. And you... You made me like everyone else. You said I'm like the rest. You said that i'm just using you. You said I'm just like one of them, whoever they are. You sank my heart so deep. I'm that insignificant. I cant recall what i did to be of deserving to be placed in the ranks with the rest of them. I'm speechless. Treachery. Betrayal. Maybe you just had a bad day. And you felt that i too must have a bad one. I must be an awful person. my cousin hates me. even prem hates me just because i tagged "emo" like as if i delibrately want to aggitate ppl. i cant think anymore. i just cant. just because you guys had a rough day you dont have to take it out on me. you seriously need not take it out on me. i have my rough days but i dont remember saying crude things like "fuck off" or anything with the word 'fuck' even if my msn nick is at an aggitated state, i dont recall saying anything to anyone who annoy me. i hate myself for bothering too much for bothering for ppl who dont bother about me. fuck these tears. just fuck these tears. and to think i am trying to be a better person only aggitates everyone. i'm sorry. just so fucking sorry that i bothered. ILOVEYOUILOVEYOUILOVEYOUILOVEYOUILOVEYOU. INEEDYOU. YOUAREMYWHOLELIFE PLSDONTTHROWTHATAWAY >>> losing all sanity >>> losing all hope >>> losing all faith >>> i raise the white flag Saturday, September 09, 2006, 2:38 AM
GALA DINNER @ VISTA WAS A HUGE SUCCESS!!! For me that is =) My objective there was accomplished and that was to have tons of fun. I'm totally in love with
and the list can go on forever. Basically, all who are mentioned and those who sat at table 55 =D Have a million pictures here. Some are totally unglam. I'm just not that photogenic la! Basically, after the Gala dinner, the girls let loose at Jasmine's place. Man, she gorgeous. But Sam was really way hotter. Anyway, we danced a little, truth-or-dared a little, got high a little. Basically everything but just a little. =D Nicolette got wasted. Ok, not really. But she cant really tell what she's saying half the time. And her face was uber red. Had fun but there was only one spoiller. and that is .................................... .................... ........................... ............................ .......................... ...................................... ................................. ................... .................................... ................................................ HEELS!! URGH I SWEAR HEELS ARE THE WRONGLY SPELT VERSION OF HELL ///////////// WARNING MANY MANY PHOTOS ////// I LOOK BAD IN Knock yourselves out.  NICOLETTE AND TSY ME AND THE VERY HANDSOME LING JI CAI SARAN AND THE VERY EXASPERATED IVAN NOOO... THE LIGHT.... MELTING... ONE OF RAZIN'S VERY RARE SMILES..and damn, my eyes doing magic on me again MEGAT!! SHIT, THERE'S A RAINDROP STAIN ON MY TOP!! SUHAILAH!!! that's it, it's official, i have mad eyes. mad eye siti STEPH!!! AND MY PIMPLE =D EEYIN AND EILEEN BEST FRIENDS OF THE YEAR JEREMY AND SARAN it was supposed to be just me and weisiong. but some others decided to spice up the photograph. =D The very suave Derek with A GIRL JUST ME ACTING ALL INNOCENT AND SOME RANDOM GUYS =)before we leave....      the after party!!!!  lmao DANCING WITH THE PIMP  THIS IS BEFORE THE DRINKS ARRIVED  we were gazing into each others' eyes.... oh god... no..  NO, WE WERENT DRUNK YET. GIRLS AT PLAY. TSK. naughty    i have weird friends THEY FREAKIN FRENCH KISSED, THOSE DRUNKED ASSES. ok lol. they werent drunk. a dare. the last shot. do we look wasted?i learnt sth today:
RANDOM THING OF THE DAY:
Thursday, September 07, 2006, 5:30 AM
Mengapa kami bertemu jika kami ditakdirkan untuk berpisah?  Sorry for the less-than-substantial entries lately. My thoughts are basically haywire right now. I'm a mess. Anyway, I went to JB a few days back for some shopping!!     Ok, the food you see, was our dinner at Swensens =D Ok, the pic of me and ahmad there is quite unglam, but what the hell right? I have thoughts of just quitting school. It's stupid but i have those thoughts still. I've been thinking a lot lately. Mostly it's about what i want to do in life. I realise i have no goal. No ambition. OK, i do have an ambition, and that's to be a musician. duh, sing. but that's not a real job, is it? What i do know is that i dont want the life that my parents have. and that's a life of debts. I know all your parents have debts, but really, the feeling of having debts on your shoulder is.. well... it's not nice. My parents and relatives have the common Asian mentality for their most promising niece-to be a doctor or a lawyer of some kind. But it doesnt interest me. being the free spirited person i am, i prefer to gamble; you know, start a business of some kind. however, doing business is risky. and close friends know that i'm utterly guillible. Artist: Trapt Song title: Stories I found a line and then it grew I found myself still thinking of you I felt so empty and now I'm fine But still it's burning, when will you be mine? [Chorus:] Too much of the same stories in our lives I think it's time for change, don't you? Too much of the same stories in our lives (I think it's time for us to walk away from here) Stories in our lives, we keep them all inside [x2] Look at me still in your mind Our memories so intertwined Well you broke through and found your way And so did I no need to stay The same old picture, tried and true Been through there, let's look for something new Too much of the same stories in our lives I think it's time for change, don't you? Too much of the same stories in our lives (I think it's time for us to walk away from here) [Chorus] Do you remember lying on the beach so late at night Do you remember running through the sprinklers that night Do you remember all the songs that I have wrote for you, All the songs that I have wrote for you (For you) I remember,the way you made me feel when I was with you I remember,the smile that always brought me back to you That look in your eyes, I never thought that this could be untrue [x2] Too much of the same stories in our lives I think it's time for change, don't you? Too much of the same stories in our lives (I think it's time for us to walk away from here) (Untrue Do do da da do do da da do do da da do do da da do yeah yeah yeah) [Chorus] Let's mourn for the recent lost of Steve Irwin, famously known as the Crocodile Hunter. The irony is that he died getting stabbed in the heart by a stingray. Honestly, who would have thought that he would be dead because of a stingray? Compared to the vicious crocdiles that he wrestles and kisses, the ray seems utterly harmless. I honestly felt that he was quite immortal. Like, how many ppl would be able to wrestle and hug crocodiles for a living? Steve Irwin was a quirky character. i remember getting quite pissed needing to wait for Croc Files to end just to watch my favourite show. Yeah, i'm not a fan of his show but no doubt i do admire him. He's weird la! And i believe that what makes him memorable. He's one of a kind. He died doing something he loves and that's pretty savvy, if you know what i mean. Rest In Peace. in my eyes, you are special in my eyes, you are perfect in my eyes, you are amazing i love you -eternal rain; life is meaningless and pointless Wednesday, September 06, 2006, 6:37 PM
Mrs Gibson confessed to us that she had set an easy paper(paper 2). I thought it wasnt easy, just mangable. However, I'm pretty outraged that she did. Ok, maybe people like Nicolette and Saran would have that as an advantage, but how about the others? The weaker ones? I find that she has got no right giving those ppl false hope of doing well in JC GP. what's the point of being able to get to a JC but not survive it? Teachers like Mr Rashidin scored an A1 for English but get a 4 in GP; doesnt that show you how demanding the paper is? This is the reason why i dont set out on a JC. I may be the better at the language, yet i dare not gamble my life on the possibilities of failing A levels. Think twice before even setting foot into a JC. it's not to discourage you guys, but it's to let you face the harsh cruel reality. DID YOU KNOW THAT YOUR CHICKEN RICE CONTAIN A FEW THOUSAND MORE FATS THAN THE COCONUT-TY NASI LEMAK!!!! AND DID YOU KNOW THAT SOURSOP JUICE IS EVIL; IT CONTAINS SO MUCH SUGAR COMPARED TO THE WATERMELON JUICE??!! I sound mad. It was 1am, i was on the swings at sengkang. Deep in my thouhgts, listening to my beloved NaNo, when a single tear trickled down my cheek. Soon, more tears rolled down. then, a shadow. I turned. I smiled. Sadness and grief were soon replaced with utter joy. He pushed me gently on the swing and told me not to cry anymore... And yeah, it's a true story =D lucky me. I LOVE YOU. without you, my heart is empty. I LOVE YOU AND ONLY YOU. Kiss me out of the bearded barly nightly beside the green green grass swing swing (swing swing) swing the spinning step you wear those shoes and i will wear that dress. ohhhh...... (chorus) kiss me beneath the milky twilight lead me out on the moonlit floor, lift your open hand strike up the band and make the fog lights dance silver moon sparkling. So, kiss me. Kiss me (kiss me) Down by the broken treehouse Swing me (swing me) upon it's hanging tire, Bring bring (bring bring) bring your flowerhat we'll take the trail marked on your father's map, ohhhhh (chorus) instrumental section OHHH....kiss me beneath the milky twilight lead me out on the moonlit floor, lift your open hand strike up the band and make the fog lights dance silver moon sparkling. So, kiss me. So, kiss me. So, kiss me. (lalala lalala) So, kiss me. Thank you (spoken) -you just you that's all i want Sunday, September 03, 2006, 3:41 AM
UBER CUTE PHOTOS!!! ....... I thought ZEEK was monstrous!!!  . . . . . . . . . .  I WAS DEAD WRONG!!! So i was watching this telemovie, when the old couple on tv started squabbling over whose fault it was. Woman: I'm sorry i ruined your life. Man: No, I'm sorry i ruined yours. Then, they started hugging. And that left me thinking, to why ppl are being utterly selfless taking the blame instead of pushing it to someone. I thought they were being gay and dumb, until i realise, i am as gay as dumb as them. Dad was in one of those moods again. Then again, he's always been that zoinked. Well, he was just sitting down, drinking his coffee, while i was just walking about the house, dazed and half drunk, when he suddenly said, "Ham, you are now called Tulangz(Bonez)." And yeah, he added the 'z' in the word himself. And that left me laughing at how 'in' my dad was. I mean the other time he casually pipe in,"What's up baby?" in that very nigger accent. Being Asian, i dont think it's embarrassing. I think it's cool. Haha. so anyways, after he said that, he chimed to my sister, Rahimah this,"Imah, why not you give some of your fats to your sister." And that left me grinning like a fool for a good two minutes, as it reminded me of my guy friends. I had a dream. and like azmi's it was about having a cat. In the dream, i was romancing with it. in other words, i was cuddling it and kissing it. and like in real life, i was calling it "Nunu". Haha. yeah, i already plan to name my unborn and most probably non-existant tabby cat. =D and ya, Razin said I'm very ridiculous. Which i am of course. But i think that what makes me rememberable(is there such a word). If you love someone, you would die for him/her. But would you live for him/her if he/she dies for you? Friday, September 01, 2006, 11:46 PM
 Hey!! they are releasing an album =D I think i'm going to get that album. You know, just to be guilt free for downloading songs illegally for the past few months =D At least I but albums, unlike some of you scum *grins mischievously* I just came back home from shopping. Yes, once again, i splurge all the hard-earned money my mum made on my indulgences. Instead of spending only $15 as i promised, I spent $30. On a pair of slippers. Yes, slippers. Not even shoes!! Slippers!! Kauz. I feel so bad. evil, in fact. notice that i buy a new apparel once a week. Like only last week, i spent $30 on two tops. And next 2 weeks, i want to get a new wallet for myself. The wallet i'm after is $59 bucks, billabong. I want it!! However, this time, I'm going to STARVE for that freaking wallet. Yes, i will save!! for once, i will save for sth that i want, instead of being utterly spoilt, pampered and disgusting , bugging my mother to buy me the item. She has already disappointed me by not buying a digicam like she had promised, which left me pouting for a few minutes. So, I wont disappoint myself; I'll get that freaking wallet =D Anyway, usually, i get the things i want by being annoying and whiny. Serious. I just give that bratty look, and she'd give in to me, as she feels guilty and obligated into fulfilling my wishes. That's the same look i gave her into buying me my beloved iPod Nano, which i affectionately named, Pixie(i dunno litterally call my iPod that, it's the name i gave it when the iTunes software asked me to name it) I mean, at least i treasure what she gives me la. I take great care in handlin my Nano, being utterly careful with every move i make, in case that movement would lead my Nano to crack or being split into 2. So far, i dropped it twice. My heart stopped for a good ten seconds. Thank god faiz had bought me the silicion cover earlier. Currently, I'm wondering why the Billabong wallet cost that much. Maybe it's the design. If i get it, I'd have no money to put in it. Get it? hahah. I want to watch THE LITTLE MAN. It's supposedly funny. i saw the trailer. I think it's going to be pretty exciting. Interesting facts: the boat used for private cruising, racing, or other noncommercial purposes is spelt as 'YACHT' instead of what i thought, 'YATCH'. I must be pretty stupid to not know this. Sigh, Sesame Street has failed to educate me. Ouh well. Currently, I'm pretty pissed with my brother for scoring 13.5/20 for mathematics. Isnt that utterly horrible? he should be stabbed. Wanted to whack him but i realise that i am in no position to do that as i havent been keeping track of his work lately. His english is getting horrible. Horrible to me: the use of "lah"s and "lor"s at the end of each sentence. i'm ok with the 'lah-ing' but i'm so disturbed with the lors. I think its distasteful to say that word at the end of a sentence. plus, i doubt that any of us use 'lor' at the end of a sentence. I asked him about it, and he said that it's because his peers are using it. Awww. It sounds utterly innocent. The peer pressure of a 7 year old. FAVOURITE TEACHER =D  FURBY!!!! - the skies seems endless, and so does this love for you |
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