A Story To Tell Your Friends

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towriteloveonherarms

i can keep a secret

if you can keep me guessing

the flavour of your lips

is enough to keep me pressing

currently listening cause this is “see you later,” I’m not into goodbyes
Behind These Masks We Renegade Create your own Friend Test here	Wednesday, February 28, 2007, 1:14 AM Staring into oblivion currently. I feel sad somehow. And I dont know why. However there are a few things that I know that bothers me. Wait, I wont say bothered, because maybe I don't find it of worth to be bothered with. Or maybe my perception is totally wrong and I should be stabbed a few million times for not bothering. So what is a friend to you people? You qualify a person to be your good friend because: the person is funnehneh the person is filthy rich and can buy tons of gifts the person is clever/brilliant blablabla you idolise him/her/it you guys can talk a lot and gossip here and there So if a person like me, who say, isnt any of the above, I wont be worthy of a friend, is that it? I dont even know wtf is it I'm saying. 3rd generation of leaders? RSAF? My mum wants me to go there. I was like totally stumped. PPFT?! Tuesday, February 27, 2007, 8:47 AM In my much younger and more innocent days, I recalled asking my mum that I would like to wear the tudung only to have myself being scolded. She said that I shouldnt. I still wonder why. She wears it. But she wont let me. I know I wont be wanting to wear it anytime too soon. Cause I will absolutely die. I wont wear it unless I've become what is worthy to be called a Muslim. Hahaha. that will be like in (counts fingers and toes)...... That many years to come. Insyaallah(is that how you spell it? HAHHAHA) I just find it absolutely dead wrong to wear it and then totally disrespecting it at the same time. Like, I see girls wearing it and smooching their boyfriends on escalators shamelessly. LIke, bloody fuck. Watch yourself. I also see some having it on gossipping and running around, acting everything that is totally frowned upon. To me, if you want to tarnish, let it be your own name and not of your religion/family/blablabla. Avoid streotypes. Wearing the tudung is not a commitment like work or a chore like those with minah brains and non-muslims think. It's a mark of respect for one's self. hahah. come to think of it, i think I know my mummy dont let me wear. HAhaah. argh. I miss the world. I've officially cooped myself up at home for the past three days and I have a feeling I will crack if I dont see ppl who dont live under this very roof here. I hope to see Faiz today. He'll be back from his 1554684 nights and 78788 days camp this very afternoon. I MISS RUZANNA SO BAD. I'll so lick her silly when I get the chance to see her!! OMG I AM SO SO SAD!! I JUST FOUND OUT THAT I WAS SHORTLISTED FOR THE DAE FOR MASS COMM!! BUT I DIDNT HAVE MY PORTFORLIO READY!!! I DIDNT EVEN KNOW I HAD GOTTEN IT. OMG. I'M SO SAD. DEPRESSED. KILL ME. I SO WANT TO CRY. Monday, February 26, 2007, 5:37 AM For starters, I've turned nocturnal. Hahaha. Oh god this is bad. I sleep at like 8am and knock out all the way till six. Woah. Omg. This is like so bad!!!!! Faiz has gone once again to CampFest to dont know do what gay ass thing. OK, IT'S SO NOT GAY ASS but wth. I'm rubbish. Being nocturnal however, is pretty dope, in a sense that I wont feel that sleepy when I wake up. And work only seems to start at like 4pm til like what 10 or 1am or 4am with some super awesome pay. Hahaha. SO life is pretty much great huh? No, not really. I realise that money really does make the goddamn world go round. To get money you must use money. Sigh. Oh. I'm super hungry. Roar. I hate dieting. But wtf, must la. BECAUSE FAIZ TAN XIAO LANG CALLED ME FAT! Friday, February 23, 2007, 4:47 AM COUSIN YUNUS AND ME! THANKS FOR THE SAKAE SUSHI TREAT. Thursday, February 22, 2007, 4:33 AM Even heroes cry. , 12:12 AM This Circle Just a thought that I cant seem to shake. Am I just overdoing it? Why am I allowing my dreams to consume me? I guess because they ever came true. I know that I'm never alone whenever I feel heavy inside. It must be the naivity of us teenagers of always letting our emotions get in our way. In the end, we only have ourselves to fend for. And i cry. and i take pills. and i become suicidal. and nobody cares. Tonight I lie awake feeling empty Monday, February 19, 2007, 4:32 AM 300th Post I must say that my diet regime has finally taken effect! Don't mean to crude, but I just absolutely must tell you people that I shit at least three times a day; no kidding. My tummy is no longer bloated 24/7. Ouh yes, and I no longer suffer from dizzy spells, stiff shoulders and back pains. For one, maybe it's because I haven't done anything physically demanding or I've been having like at least 10 hours of sleep. Now that I'm a healthier person inside, I must get rid of my shagged and waried look somehow. And eyebags. Ok, I sleep that much and still have eyebags? God, you must be kidding me!! Back acne has also become less severe and now I finally have more confidence to wear my tank tops! Though it's still visibly fugly, with medication, it'd be fine, I hope. I have a feeling bathing in icy cold water helps a lot. However, my hair. I hate my hair. It's dry and itching my neck. I need treatment man. And that means more cash. Urgh. I'm hoping drinking loads of water would help. I invested a lot on shampoos, you know, but none of them seem to work. It's like totally daylight robbery. Any suggestions? Anyway, I plan to be more organized this year so I bought myself a pretty stripey organizer. So far, I have yet to do a thing that I wrote it. Boo. Especially the exercise regime that I planned. I want nice shapely legs!!! For one, I'm too lazy to go down to the gym downstairs(yes it's just downstairs- shoot me people) FaizBebeh, would you please make sure I exercise? Be my trainer uhs. =)) I'm really cashed strapped. And I hate being broke! Like bloody hell! I have yet to buy myself a pair of nice heels tau. And to think I'll be going to poly this year!!! I need clothes too!! I wouldnt want to be caught dead in the same set of clothing every week. Like people will go, "You notice something? Siti wears that same shirt with that same pants every Tuesday. And she wears a jacket every Friday. I bet it's to cover up the same clothes that she wore on Monday!" Ok, I'm being overly paranoid. Slap yourself silly girl! On a more serious note, I've realised that it's easier to be hated than to be liked. Just by the way one talks, walks, etc people conclude and deduce things abt others. This is not only talking abt strangers, but friends as well. I admit, I do have a huge problem with other's sensitivity. I always take it as if ppl would understand me right there and then; for both friends and strangers. Took me a while to have it kicking in. Like, after I reread my chats with Azhar(since our chats are more in-depth) I realise that I'm quite, should I say, an outburst? I notice that yes, I'm quite rude. Hahah. Yay, I admit it. I'm rude. I kinda say whatever I feel like without really thinking it over. I kind of forgot that I'm actually talking to an entity with feelings! Omg. I hate myself. I feel like I'm a missunderstood hooligan of some sort. And really, I feel bad. People also dont like the CAPS during chats. I dont know why but I'm scolded countless times by FaizBebeh which always resorts me to say, "FINE! NB! SLAP ME!" before I block him from my chats. With friends especially, I tend to get too comfortable, if you know what I mean. I say stuff thinking they'd be fine with it. And yes, some ppl, are not fine it. But they just keep quiet and allow it to consume them later on. Which I find god tad wrong. Like bloody hell, say it if I hurt you la. However, I must be thankful to dear God that I have understanding ppl like NADIAH, and thickskinned ppl like RACHEL GOH who would shoot me back in the most absurd way, leaving me tickled with laughter. And of course, I am most thankful to be biologically related to the chayayas. I mean, I can swear and diss them only to have them dissing me back, having ourselves laughing on the floor later. I love you ppl. Anyway, tag me if I have ever hurt you in any humanely possible way. AND YES, I'M SORRY TO HAVE HURT YOU. Leave your real name though. I really miss Siti Nadiah Lim Shu Wen. Saturday, February 17, 2007, 8:03 PM Let's be frank. I really miss working at IKEA. Ok my new business partners are nice but I miss the drama. I know. Stab me for being such an oxymoron, but really,I do miss complaining. I recall always complaining to almost every John, Dick and Harry that I don't like Aunty Marni, and Aunty SokLing (was that her name? AKA Uncle Eric's wife) cause Aunty Marni is just fucking weird(the woman's Indonesian Chinese) and Aunty SokLing likes to report our wrongdoings to Uncle Eric. Like Aunty Marni, I swear to GOd, I have no bloody clue of what the fuck she is talking abt. She grunts some weird things and gives that very face that complacent look. But she did have her funny moments. Like the time Munirah asked abt her other aunty friend and Marni said "blahblahblah MATI MATI." Hysterical. I laughed so hard that I could have cried. And ooohhh, I miss Uncle Lawrence. Like he is so damn nice la. And I miss Fazli too. I read that he has a new job though? Is it? And come to think of it, I miss the IKEA food. I mean, I miss nicking the leftovers (unglam, ouh well) and all the great ppl there. Goodness, I even miss gossipping. Ouh god, that is a bad thing. Like, gossip wasnt a trend in my grp of girls. MAKE IT NOT A TREND!! Anyway, went back to NV for the concert. Tht concert so creeped me out bad. Goosepimples! My hair practically stood on end as I watched all the dancing and singing. Like, I wished that I had gone deaf and blind. Even Malvin Lim went like,"Can you feel your hair standing on its ends?" Totally. Looked at the new and old crowd in the school. HAHA. Infested with potential Ahbengs and Ahlians, Mats and Minahs. Then it hit me. I AM NO LONGER THERE ANYMORE! SO WHO THE FUCK CARES! Am I supposed to be intimidated or sth? , 1:51 AM All We Know Is Falling Here again I sit, dabbing salt to the open wound Ashes fly into the wind as the flame slowly dies And so the hero will drown in his mortal fears of spite and hate While the heroin consumes my dreams Lamentations of you I cant take For you choose not to let me hear And soon my eyes bleed for all the tears that have run dry Slit my throat for I'd rather not speak and curse this heavy heart and let my chest cave in Nothing is sweeter than the blood soaking my shirt and nothing is sharper than the words you yet not speak And So It Falls Thursday, February 15, 2007, 1:59 AM Are we to thank Saint Valentine for marrying off ppl whose marriage was rejected by the church? So we shall and love prevails. At 1215am, 14/02, I received an sms from Faiz stating "Open your door." And so i did. Guess what I found at the doorstep. 9 Roses made of tissues =)) Scented with the essence of Faiz =)))) He wrote: Reasons to why you should be my Valentine I love you I love you I love you.. sheesh You're gonna enjoy the day (if not slap me) It's Xiao Lang afterall [I gave him the name Xiao Lang cause it's effing cute] 1715 hours, the same day. The boyfriend came to pick me up. And he brought me this LOOK AGAIN =)) And so the longest bus ride EVER began. Took 43 all the way to East Coast, my favourite hang out (too thoughtful hor?) to eat seafood. Camwhored for a while since we got effing bored. Saw this sign the really got Faiz whacked in the mind When we reached the NO SIGNBOARD SEAFOOD RESTAURANT (omg! the originality of minus zero) we were served by Chinonehs and Chinagers who had no inkling to what English is about. Orders taken, and the wait of 45 mins began. At last, the food =))) Meet NEMO SQUIDWARD AND MR KRABBS =)) TAN XIAO LANG! I LOVE YOU TO BITS AND PIECES. =))) THANK YOU. HOPE YOU PPL HAD FUN TOO. CHEERS. Anyway, I've submitted my JAE and DAE forms!!! JAE Choice of Courses Exam Sitting(s): 2006 1 - T45 DIPLOMA IN VETERINARY TECHNOLOGY (TEMASEK POLYTECHNIC) 2 - S72 BIOTECHNOLOGY (SINGAPORE POLYTECHNIC) 3 - S86 MEDIA AND COMMUNICATION (SINGAPORE POLYTECHNIC) 4 - S98 BIOMEDICAL SCIENCE (SINGAPORE POLYTECHNIC) 5 - T31 BIOMEDICAL SCIENCE/BIOTECHNOLOGY (TEMASEK POLYTECHNIC) 6 - N73 PHARMACY SCIENCE (NGEE ANN POLYTECHNIC) 7 - N59 BIOMEDICAL SCIENCE/BIOMEDICAL LABORATORY TECH (NGEE ANN POLYTECHNIC) 8 - N72 TOURISM & RESORT MANAGEMENT (NGEE ANN POLYTECHNIC) 9 - C67 HOSPITALITY & RESORT MANAGEMENT (NANYANG POLYTECHNIC) 10 - S55 TOURISM AND RESORT MANAGEMENT (SINGAPORE POLYTECHNIC) 11 - N66 EARLY CHILDHOOD EDUCATION (NGEE ANN POLYTECHNIC) 12 - S63 MARINE ENGINEERING (SINGAPORE POLYTECHNIC) Arghh. Totally regreting my last choice!!! Bleah! Can you like bloody imagine if I'm THAT unlucky to get into that??!!! Hoping for my first few choices of course so that I can be with Izzat, Yunus' friend (for the first choice) or my girlfriends (SP choices). I'll so hate myself if I fail to go to any of my options. =(( Why is biomedical such a popular choice!?? Not easy man. Sighs. I highlighted the whole book since I could go every course there with exceptions for Chinese Studies and Mass Comm. Sad eh? But of course the cut off points in the websites were very off mine. How can you give me false hopes!! =(( bleah Tuesday, February 13, 2007, 9:31 PM My current love; Pete Wentz of Fall Out Boy. He's sexy. Really sexy. And the tattoos are just oh-so-cool. I met up with my dearest cousin Ella the other day to discuss my options for my tertiary education and she strongly told me to do what I liked best. And I couldnt ask for a much better advice. Thank you sweetie. We walked ard Vivo City and raided most of the shops there. I had most fun at Candy Empire. Haha. It's never too late =D Sunday, February 11, 2007, 1:27 AM Currently laughing my ass out. Look at what my very retarded girlfriend said sitihamidah ❤ IF YOU THOUGHT I'D BLEED THEN YOU WERE WRONG CAUSE I WONT STOP HOLDING says: are you home yet? sitihamidah ❤ IF YOU THOUGHT I'D BLEED THEN YOU WERE WRONG CAUSE I WONT STOP HOLDING says: haha sitihamidah ❤ IF YOU THOUGHT I'D BLEED THEN YOU WERE WRONG CAUSE I WONT STOP HOLDING says: im concerning sitihamidah ❤ IF YOU THOUGHT I'D BLEED THEN YOU WERE WRONG CAUSE I WONT STOP HOLDING says: HAHAHHA nicolette✞ says: HAHA nicolette✞ says: WOW sitihamidah ❤ IF YOU THOUGHT I'D BLEED THEN YOU WERE WRONG CAUSE I WONT STOP HOLDING says: but seriously nicolette✞ says: YEAH RAPED AND ROBBED nicolette✞ says: AND HOME nicolette✞ says: hahaha sitihamidah ❤ IF YOU THOUGHT I'D BLEED THEN YOU WERE WRONG CAUSE I WONT STOP HOLDING says: HAHAHAHA dying of laughter. i so didnt see that coming. lol I saw this on Mr Brown's blog From Shakira's Don't Bother "She's the greatest cock And she's fat free" wtf Saturday, February 10, 2007, 3:22 AM I'm satisfied with my results. I know that i deserve what i got and I'm honestly very happy about it. Mistakes cant be undone and I've realised what I did was stupid. right now is the crucial decision of the next stepping stone of my life. I'll think long and hard about it and most probably talk to Ella whom I've not seen for a long time about her life in MI and then decide on my choice. Ouh yeah. I'm pretty frustrated with Froggy for being blatantly insensitive about my dearest friend. Critisize and complain all you want, but would it really help? It was quite a big turn off really. My dearest Rachel and Wendy, "You're not alone, together we stand, I'll be by your side you'd know I'll take your hand When it gets cold and it feels like the end, there's no place to go, you know I'd fight and defend Keep holding on, cause I'm here for you Just stay strong, cause I'm here for you" -avril lavigne's keep holding on WE ARE ALL HERE FOR YOU WHEN YOU NEED ANY OF US, ALRITE?? SMILE, MY PRETTIES. THOSE TEARS ONLY RUINS THAT PRETTY FACE. LOVE YOU BOTH TO BITS. Friday, February 09, 2007, 1:27 AM spot me people!! I miss Tan. Thursday, February 08, 2007, 4:56 AM I'm blogging for the sake of blogging. Ok I think I am a funny girl PARAMORE!!!! Yeah. Finally I'm learning my favourite song of all time Emergency by Paramore. Though Rashid is giving me the easiest chords for the song, I still appreciate his willingness to let me learn it from scratch. And yeah, I totally improved since the last lessons. Not to mention that my fingers are totally ruined from all the pressing of the strings.. I guess effort does pay off. Oh yeah. Im a finally out of Ikea. Yeah ppl, no longer Miss Busser there. Hahha. YAYNESS. However it doesnt leave me totally jobless. HAhaha. =) I'm now working in the business sector. Im an entrepenuer ppl. Haha. And I m also going to work at some weird restaurant with my chayaya cousin Nurul and Yunus. Bettter pay too. Hahha. But I miss a lot ppl though. my pimp daddy Faisal, Abg Fahmi, Wan, Ainul, Ruzanna and Fazli. Oh well. Chengchengcheng!! O level results are coming. Whatever man. burn the wretched thing. And my lagtastic com has finally received some pure cleansing. Hahaha. It's 2000 times faster than before. WHAT THE HELL DO YOU EXACTLY SEE IN ME? I'm everything that you wouldnt want in a girl. So why me? Friday, February 02, 2007, 12:30 AM #%^%&!!!! DAMNED FUCKED UP CUSTOMER made a big hooha over not being able to place any orders as last orders are taken at 9.30pm. Damn bitch shouted at Rahim. I was like so pissed la. Who in fucking hell does she think she is to scream at my manager like that? Spits at her a few billion times That's sth god damn wrong in her brain. Ouh yeah. Thank you Royston Tan Wei Ming for the perfume and the necklace. 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