A Story To Tell Your Friends

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towriteloveonherarms

i can keep a secret

if you can keep me guessing

the flavour of your lips

is enough to keep me pressing

currently listening cause this is “see you later,” I’m not into goodbyes
Behind These Masks We Renegade Create your own Friend Test here	Saturday, June 30, 2007, 1:39 AM 'What kind of boys do you like?' Pretty boys who aren't gay. ALEX(the cutie in the middle) IS SO CUTE!!! OMG. HE IS SO CUTE. faints All Time Low is officially my favourite band after Paramore. Ryan Ross and Bradon Urie from PATD are still top favourites. I still love Pete Wentz from Fall Out Boy Friday, June 29, 2007, 2:05 PM I have packed my bags. Goodbye to all that I love. I'll be gone but I'll hold on to these memories. See you around, but definitely not here. Not sure if I'll be able to update this blog after this cause like I said, I won't be here. Where I stay will be so far away. But I'll miss you still. Thursday, June 28, 2007, 2:20 PM TRANSFORMERS IS A FREAKING AWESOME MOVIE!!! I MEAN IT. FOUR STARS!! Graphics were superb and it is funny I swear. Other than that, I have to thanks Nelson for being the idiot he is for not knowing it's the 28 today, when the screening for Fantastic Four was 27. hahah. =) Bumped into Yuen Tuck and Jeremy too. The day cannot possibly go any better. =) Xiang Qiang is super funny!!!! So is Penny. Hahaha. Inside joke. You are dearly missed Saturday, June 23, 2007, 10:13 PM Let's play a game to kill time 1. Open your library (iTunes, Winamp, Media Player, iPod, etc) 2. Put it on shuffle 3. Press Play 4. For every question, type the song that's playing 5. When you go to a new question, press the next button 6. Don't lie Opening Credits: Let There Be Love – Oasis -_- Waking Up: Taste The Poison – Story Of the Year how freaking convenient First Day of School: Fun Fun Fun - McFly and Busted omg no Falling in Love: The Levy – First To Last lmao Getting it on: Poetically Pathetic – Amber Pacific Fight Song: This Calling – All That Remains Breaking Up: Falling Away - Crossfade Prom: Emergency - Paramore HELL YEAH! Life: Breaking Me Down - Soil Mental Breakdown: Stuck On You – Paramore cover really, I'm not cheating Driving: She Cries – Rufio Flashback: The Remembrance Ballad – Atreyu trust me, it's not supposed to be so coincidental Wedding: As You're Falling Down – Escape the Fate why not man?? Birth of child: Escape Artists Never Die- Funeral For a Friend Final Battle: Our Time Is Now – Story Of The Year iTunes can't get any cooler Death Scene: The Grim Goodbye – The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus freaky Funeral Song: Enjoy the Silence – It Dies Today Damn, precise Had Magnum training after so long. Damn it felt good. Elevator stunt.Had Nelson and ZhiLiang as my bases so I wasn't that scared for I had developed a trust in both of them.=) I think I did ok. Not perfect though. Ouh well. Totally not digging campus run. urgh. ouh. There is a super duper cutie from Di Tanjong, a restaurant (i think) from Singapore Swimming Club. He is damn cute. Vietnamese Chinese. God help me. He's adorable with his big big eyes. Omg. And and and he goes to Temasek Poly. In Engineering too. Wah.. I like. I have nothing else to blog about. Except that I pon S&W and CATS again. , 8:11 PM Turn back ths sands of time, wishing I'd disappear Back in Punggol Town, like, it's about time!! I miss this place. My bed. this place does bring back much memories, sweet and bitter, it's home. Though I feel like running away to a place only we know, there is no place like home. I have work tomorrow until 12am. I'm tired and sad. Can't say that I'll not miss my cousins though. I always needed time on my own I never thought I'd need you there when I cried And the days feel like years when I'm alone And the bed where you lie is made up on your side When you walk away I count the steps that you take Do you see how much I need you right now? When you're gone The pieces of my heart are missing you When you're gone The face I came to know is missing too When you're gone All the words I need to hear to always get me through the day And make it OK I miss you I've never felt this way before Everything that I do Reminds me of you And the clothes you left they lie on the floor And they smell just like you I love the things that you do When you walk away I count the steps that you take Do you see how much I need you right now? When you're gone The pieces of my heart are missing you When you're gone The face I came to know is missing too And when you're gone The words I need to hear to always get me through the day And make it OK I miss you We were made for each other Out here forever I know we were Yeah Yeah All I ever wanted was for you to know Everything I do I give my heart and soul I can hardly breathe I need to feel you here with me Yeah When you're gone The pieces of my heart are missing you When you're gone The face I came to know is missing too When you're gone The words I need to hear will always get me through the day And make it OK I miss you Friday, June 22, 2007, 3:39 PM Should I write myself out of the history books, and mark a place in time for every chance you took, Don't get me wrong I know you've got your life in place, I've yet to take the hint, Some day I'm sure I'll get the picture, and stop waiting up... I dunch lykk projects. lol I have this split personality going on these days. Like if I feel very kiddish or upset, and I just need to be babied, I'll type like a twit. Ouh you know those people who type lyk diishh,"Euu ok lerr mahh??" Twits. I digress. As I was rambling, I don't like projects. One, they require teamwork. Two, they are boring. Three, projects have heavy weightage in our assessments. And four, i just don't like projects. AND, my Powerpoint slide can't seem to be sent to ANY of my team mates. Fuck, i think and i know, it's the Office Impress.org programme they can't read. fuck. i think i need to redo it. shucks. I'm finally learning to appreciate home-cooked meals after so long. I love the smell of freshly cooked rice now. Rice with lots and lots of chilli. Yums. But then again, Ramly burgers are still da bomb. I never can seem to not love Ramlys.... Drools. there is nothing interesting in this blog anymore. ok wait, maybe there is!! is this physically possible for Singapore? Let's remind ourselves of the possibilities of a de javu . Hello, remember Nicole Highway?? Tuesday, June 19, 2007, 11:53 PM A picture speaks a thousand words. and one of the few words is boredom. Cyanide & Happiness @ Explosm.net The Loves Of My Life Credits to mrazmi our photographer THIS IS MARQUS AND HADZ. He is damn cute right?? , 4:08 AM HEY LOVE Hey love, I miss you today like I did on every other day. The topic of you never cease to slip out my tongue whether good or bad. They can tell I miss you too cause I look sad. Hey love, you don't you know how much I need you? Every song I sing, every thing I do, reminds me of you. Even the radio had a caller named after you saying stuff about armpit hair. I was doing front stretch when that happened and I smiled. Cause you'd say things like that too. See how much you can make me smile. I need to see your smile and I dream about you every passing night. Hey love, it's so hard to say what i feel cause love, you know you feel the same why. Hey love, we're taking on the impossible. But love, you don't know what I'm going through right now. I just wished you were here. Hey love, I'm crying right now. And I don't know why. Maybe my heart of stone hurts so bad. Hey love, your dollar you folded into a heart for me is still in my wallet. your picture still hangs on my wall. Hey love, don't cry. Cause I love you. MAGNUM TRAINING Was torture in the making. I'm a weak fuck. And I feel so down about it. My arm no power. =(( I feel really lousy. I'm such a loser. Brighter side, my stretching improved and so did my handstands. and im tired and craving for strawberries. Sunday, June 17, 2007, 1:14 AM " Basu(Nepalese from Palms) is interested in Hamidah, knowing that tomorrow is his last day at SSC. The girl at Palms I have been eyeing already has a fiance, is 21 years old and I still do not know her name. WHY ???? We have a new Banquet Captain, Chin. Denise is only 19???? A flautist too!!!! Small world for band members and she graduated from RJC. Alright, I admit she is cute. = P Aunt Cha is in Singapore!!!! My best friend is a horny bastard and I swear to that. Yes, I am slightly jealous of Hamidah, and I swear to that. Though she may attract alot of guys, it does not make me more inferior to her really. Simply because I can stand up on my own. HEH."- YUNUS Yunus dearest, don't get me wrong but there is nothing at all to be jealous about for I don't like the attention.It's the wrong attention. And trust me, you wouldnt want to live in these shoes. You don't wanna feel the pain I feel. You don't wanna cry like I cried. I know you lived through worst days then me but it's never the same. 17 june: I worked for like 11 and a half bleeding hours after like only 4 hours of sleep. I'm damn fucking shagged. I signed in and out from Jackson Miller to Banquet. it's so -_-. Oh well, it's ok. At least, I know the ppl in both places. It was Father's Day. I didnt go my Grandfather's place for the big gathering. I feel kind of bad about it but I wanted to work. I did think about it though. But I promised Shah. Anyway, it was not my day, literally. Though there has never been a complain about me, nor there was any then(none that I know of), I swear, I didnt do my best. To me, I totally messed up. The maintenance guys(that huge tall malay guy and this new tall huge malay guy. lol. i so didnt bother to know their names) disturbed me. I'm so annoyed. Getting my attention in the most freaky way. It really freaks me out. Like, I swear, I can cry if they disturb me. Maybe I'm emotional or something, but I seriously have this paranoid thinking that I'll be raped one day. Why must you ppl disturb me? I really don't like. Some other girls might like the attention but not me. If you want to just get to know me, don't be so cheeky. Don't say ridiculous things. Just be nice. And most importantly, natural. Why try so hard?? I didnt how to hold the Champagne bottle. Like wth, I know how to pour it but I don't know how to hold it. Slap me silly, somebody. And I cut my hand while cleaning up the store in Banquet. My cut wasn't as devastatingly deep like PeiTing's though, thankfully. Hers bled like so much that they had to add Iodine and had it all bandaged. However, on the brighter side, Adrian Pang came to eat at Jackson Miller. Lol. I admire him for he is articulate. The accent is nice. It's so not fake like sOmE pEoPLe I kNoW. i swear to god, SSC has really nice managers and captains. both BQT and JM. i'm happy working there. =) ok, maybe i'm not so happy. only with that security guard. wah, SHE IS ANNOYING. rahh!!! Anyway, my aunt bought me another Swatch Watch. =)) I'm a happy piece of crap. I'm contemplating. Cause i hate myself. i miss you Friday, June 15, 2007, 7:11 PM We're gonna start a revolution from our beds I love 4E2 06 so very much. =)) the chalet was a blast in my eyes. I kissed Wendy and Stephanie in the lips. I smacked Rachel in the ass. I lie my head against Zhen's breasts. Basically, everyone was horny. HAHHAHA We were hot and dry. LOL Sang along to my favourite songs as usual with Shafiq and Jan around strumming the guitars. Whatever. I let lose. Drank until I couldnt drink no more. Tiger is yucks. And all the drinking got me to a bad throat in the morning. Then I got caught in the rain. And now, I have fever. hurray. RAHH. I miss my NP friends now. Hahaha. I miss Mario's smell, Sharanya's weird antics and Vicente's super cute comments. SEE. VICENTE, I DO TALK ABOUT YOU. ROFL Tonight I lie awake, feeling empty Wednesday, June 13, 2007, 8:08 PM I've not been home for like days. I can't remember the last time I slept there. If I'm not at someone's place, I'd be outside, slacking away til the early mornings. I feel not at home at home. Now, salvaged at my cousin's place, I'm really waried out from the night life. I sound as if I'm partying my life away at clubs and pubs but, trust me, not now. Not yet. LOL. I like simple things. Like the endless sky and shining stars. Ouh, I like kitty cats and bunny rabbits. Hamsters too. I like Shrek ears today. And I like Disney Princesses almost every other day. I like hugs instead of kisses. And I like the smell of almost every boy after they showered. I like watching scary shows though I hide my eyes behind my fingers throughout. I like fighting games of ninja girls and warrior boys though I always lose. I prefer slippers to heels. I like wearing shorts to skirts and I don't know why. and, I wish I was prettier than her. You are the only one in my heart and head. Am I that to you? Tuesday, June 12, 2007, 7:11 AM I lose myself when I see you in front of me. i love you. baby don't go, stay close I have a new love in my life and her name is Gnod Iem. Hahhaha. DONG MEI. Fifi messed about with her name and made her name sound Thai. Hahha. She's like super funny la. She's got this innocent little girl thingy going on in her 18 year old body. Gym was fun. I lifted weights and faiz simply downright thought that it was just plain wrong for girls to do so. He had this totally freaked out look in his face at the thought of me with biceps. I'm already freaking out at that too. But hey, a cheerleader gotta do what a cheerleader gotta do. I seriously cannot wait to do more stunts. But I'm totally not looking for to any of the PT this time. Cause I have a feeling it will be hell on earth. You know, I think life is seriously taking every last bit of innocence that I have. Period. I'm encountering gays (real ones), transvestites, and even drug dealers. It's like as if I went down the wrong side of the street to knockturn alley. Ok, let's make it very clear, I don't really find gays and trans THAT wrong cause it's the way they choose to lead their life like how I choose to lead mine, but I suppose I'm not used to it yet. It freaks me out still for some reason. I mean, I don't know why gays freak me out more than lesbians do. Maybe I'm prejudice or sth. But trans, really freak me out. I mean, they are sad ppl being stuck in a body they don't want (but then again, who doesn't encounter that?) but having not much of a choice but to stick to it. I'm so not missing tutorials and lectures that's for sure. =D I love my holidays. Period. You're so beautiful baby. i love you Sunday, June 10, 2007, 8:25 PM THERE IS A SICK PERVERTED OLD CHEE KO PEK ON FRIENDSTER WHO TO DATE HAS TRIED ASKING A FRIEND REQUEST FOR THE SEVENTH TIME. HE IS DISGUSTING, OLD, MALAY AND UGLY. HE SHOULD BE CAUTERIZED IN HIS PEE HOLE FOR BEING SUCH A SICK ASSHOLE. http://www.friendster.com/user.php?uid=39630418 GIRLS OR ANYTHING WITH PUSSIES AND BOOBS, PRETTY, UGLY OR FAT, PLEASE BLOCK THIS MOTHERFUCKER BEFORE YOU GET DISTURBINGLY ANNOYED. I get it. Being old and tech savvy is really an accomplishment, but don't use it to satisfy your old sagging balls and wrinkled dick. And this sick for a fool even has a picture of him in an imam gear a.k.a religious i think not man. CB. If you want something to satisfy your temptations, Geylang is always an option. Do go on leering at little girls like the freaking pedophile that you are. Not only do you tarnish the reputation of all Malay men around the peninsula, you also tainted the the name of Islam for that picture. FUCK OFF FUCK OFF. Like, people in their golden years are already running to the temples of God to wash away sins of youth, but here you are lecherous praying on teens like me. GO TO HELL MOTHERFUCKER. ------ Hung out with JAN, SHAFIQ AND SINTECK. The melodies of the guitar took me away to another place and that place reminds me of you. We sang our hearts out to Broken by Secondhand Serenade and Guardian Angel by The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus. love love love the song. So shiok. and fun!! I simply cannot wait for 4e2 06 class chalet. it will be a bomb with them people!!! , 4:03 AM editted my status is officially, complicated You're so beautiful in a way that I can't take my eyes off of you. I can fall asleep in your eyes, staring deeply into them. Here you lay, on my sofa, playing your PSP as I'm typing this down. I can't get enough of you and your lips. God, I miss you already though you're here. I love you Tan. Saturday, June 09, 2007, 3:23 PM like i said before, I don't believe in heroes anymore. Depression strikes. Strange that it struck post exams instead prior to it. To be brave or to be strong? I never liked to be me. I breakdown way too many times- not because im psycho, but because im just tired of fighting to do the things I love. I'm fighting so hard to stay, a place for my education that I forget that education is not about the money to get here, but learning. I worked every time I'm free, hoping it'd be enough for my pocket money and books. I'm seventeen, I shan't be a cunt to ask my parents for money. Let them give what they have to my siblings. But it's not enough. I'm told about sacrifice, again and again. They now tell me that I must sacrifice my passion, my Magnum force. But my decision is clear, I will strive. So no, i wont give up my passion. Not for all the money in the world will I quit Magnum. I know that I'm going through more than the average teen. I cried my heart out. I just wanna be babied right now. Can I lose all my responsibilities just for one day? Even heroes fall down sometimes. Friday, June 08, 2007, 4:39 PM omg! zul is like super cute now with his new emo hair. And he supposed said that he wants to look fierce and not cute. hahaha. He'll always be our cute bubbly Zul =) Your perfume lingers still, keeping me awake at night. How I everyday wish you're with me every single night. Orion's belt reminds me of you. I suppose I'll wait for that day to come where you'd be here and make things right. OMG. EXAMS ARE OVER! THIS MEANS MORE MAGNUM AND MORE SHOPPING. God, I've been waiting for this day since the start of term. I AM FAT =( Thursday, June 07, 2007, 8:08 PM You are making way too many promises. I'm not hopeful, cause I'm too smart for that. HE ASKED ME TO MARRY HIM. OMG. HE IS SO RETARDED. OMG. SLAP HIM!!! My mum Wants me to go back with faiz and I hate her for thinking that it's a way thing. She is so yayapapaya. RAHHHH!!! bimbos are really annoying. tsk. it's really cold out here Wednesday, June 06, 2007, 3:17 PM I'm a smitten kitten with the words you say. The words you say so sweetly and almost quite sincerely into my eyes. I almost could believe you when you said forever. You sounded so sure. And I'm so afraid. -I don't believe in heroes anymore Tuesday, June 05, 2007, 9:00 PM SITI NADIAH LIM SHU WEN, I WILL STRANGLE YOU ONCE I GET MY HANDS ON YOU. Firstly, you are having problems in so called liking your course, and now I read that you didn't turn up for your common tests! Omg. Why hadn't you called me? Why didn't you let me psycho your scrambled mind???? Omg Now i'm upset! RAHHH!!! You're just a pretty face darling. I know I just love you for your looks. I'm shallow, yes but I'll pass you up for that boy next door whose sense of humour is of my league anytime. Monday, June 04, 2007, 6:33 PM Weak and unafraid no more. However, I feel that it's not a good thing. Being brave is to be rash. Well, at least, that's what I think. To be strong is to be bold and being bold is something girls shouldn't be. I don't recognise the person I see when I look in the mirror. No more the one who cries and wipes her tears dry still in dismay. But one who cries, wipes her tears dry, angsty. I seek vengeance to who knows what and for what. I don't know. Maybe I'm being what I deemed others; A flirt. Or maybe I crave for attention. Or I just wanna be loved. But I suppose I forgot that love is a two way thing. I am loved but wtf, I'm not giving it back. Cause before I knew it, I realised what the change that you were saying about. But in a different prospect of course. I didn't change like how you said. I changed cause I choose to defy. I rebel what my heart wants. I choose desire. Not what I need. I'm choosing logic without much of a common sense. Contradicting eh? Can I just pick up the phone and to hear you speak? No. Cause you said that I can no longer come to you anymore. It's worse than losing you as a boyfriend. I don't know what to say or how to think. Explain to me why is it that my thoughts lead back to you at this time of bliss? I seriously miss you A transvestite likes My Mike(Mike refers to me as My Siti. ROFL) The transvestite's name is Ayu. HAHAHHAHA He's a pretty woman. HHAHHAHHA I really don't know if I'm able to cope my job at Jackson Miller with my Cheerleading and my studies. Omg, if I can, I deem myself as amazing. The results of the Common Test will determine it all. sighs. OUH and i'm not a typical malay, thankfully. I don't go sial,siol, siak, fuyoh, and cey at the end of my sentences. Yes, there is the typical Singlish here and there, but thankfully, I don't have the awful accent. Thanks to Sesame Street and all the other english shows that I ever watched. And I'm understood by foreigners because of my distinct accent. yay. BUT I'M NOT FILIPINO OR INDONESIAN. stupid yunus. to the ex Saturday, June 02, 2007, 11:40 PM NEED A PART-TIME JOB? FORTNIGHT PAY? ENJOY WORKING IN THE SERVICE SECTOR? FOOD AND BEVERAGE? Jackson Miller needs you! $7 per hour(before deduction of CPF) All you need is: Long white sleeved shirt Long black pants Black shoes Tag me if you're interested. and leave your contact too. Message me if you already have my number I need someone to fill in for me whenever I'm not free. And that's usually on Mondays, Wednesdays and Fridays. Meals are provided. I swear, the welfare there is excellent! , 1:29 AM All hail the queen, cause she controls the land and sea. They obey for fear of not having what they have. Sharanya is like so super funny!! I totally love that girl. She's like omg, spastic but fuck, I LIKE! Her sense of humour is like way beyond anything. Omg. She's funny!! She always have the weirdest things to say but shit, it's so freaky!!! i like her. omg i like her. omg omg omg. -_- I am sick of what is happening right now. How is it that I get caught in the middle of all this? At first it was ridiculous, now, it's simply absurd. Can I not have a say anymore cause I don't wanna be involved in this nonsense? I'll stay neutral. I don't wanna side anyone anymore cause this is just bullshit. Friday, June 01, 2007, 4:18 PM Watched POTC 3 with Nelson bebeh. Great show. 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