A Story To Tell Your Friends

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towriteloveonherarms

i can keep a secret

if you can keep me guessing

the flavour of your lips

is enough to keep me pressing

currently listening cause this is “see you later,” I’m not into goodbyes
Behind These Masks We Renegade Create your own Friend Test here	Monday, October 29, 2007, 10:25 PM but if I looked back now, I’d probably give it all away Like, finally, I GOT A NEW LAPTOP. The old one, which is under warranty, was exchanged for it's laggyness and it's gay ass inability to find network coverage. it's the same weird ulu brand though. Ouh well. PROBLEM A: solved! Here's PROBLEM B: I need to re-install EVERYTHING, like SCIENTIFIC NOTEBOOK, iTUNES, music, photos, music, Microsoft Office, music and music. SIGH He's got a strong point to make. I got nothing to say to you already. http://assjedi.deviantart.com/journal/ Jin Wen has got this crazy talent of making me laugh till my stomach hurts, till I sit on the floor, breathless, till I fart and till I pee. HE'S SO GROSS CAN. Omg, you got no idea what the hell is going through his mind. He's grotesque! He blew bubbles with his saliva. OMG. YOU SICK SHIT. JM wont be the same without Jin Wen when he's gone. =( Idol #3 CARAH FAYE SHE'S SO COOL!! SHE'S GOT A MOHAWK!!! with wide eyes you tremble Sunday, October 28, 2007, 1:10 AM and she said, she said, "Why don't you just drop dead?" Someone said he'd never read this blog anymore. YET ANOTHER CONTRADICTION. "We'll ignore immature adults." "He's deprived of love." "We just have to get used to the fact that he'll never take a liking to any of us in relationships." "I see why he wants to protect, but with his attitude, he can't go far." The fire is dying and yet you keep adding fuel. It's just suicidal. Saturday, October 27, 2007, 7:52 AM i'm guilty but flawless My scrambled mind cannot take this any longer. Too many things at a go. Yeah, I don't take pressure well. I'm on freak mode cause nothing's like it was before. I wished it was though. Maybe it's just a shock. suddenly I have to know what Final Fantasy is about and but he's so kind Friday, October 26, 2007, 12:56 AM true love comes once in a lifetime; just once Before It's Too Late Lyrics It's such an irony that the word "attention" is actually used. Cause it's pretty dogmatic to say that a person would be ever-seeking attention so to speak. There is a reason to why people get attention. It's either they caused it themselves OR others decided to bitch. For fuck, I try to keep a low profile of things. LIKE BLOODY SHIT, I don't even have to display a thing so prominently for people to find out. Attention, what a word. Tell me which dumb fuck don't like attention? I walk into class late and everyone turns and stares. FUCK, THAT'S ATTTENTION? Chef Daniel says that my perfume makes heads turns, THAT'S ATTENTION? I'm prettier than you, THAT'S ATTENION? I'll bloody define what's attention; It's to be drowned in self-pity. Cause I did say sorry and I had Azmi as witness. You cannot possibly imagine how terrified I am of you and your lips. you're my habit Wednesday, October 24, 2007, 6:02 AM Where I'm tossing and tortured till dawn by you, visions of you, then you're gone I'm awake! It's six and I'm awake! I WON'T BE LATE FOR SCHOOL TODAY!!! =)) Jin Wen satisfied my cravings for tang yuan. Thank youu =)) YOU ARE THE BESTEST. You know what is it that I hate about you? You can't keep your trap shut. Like seriously, that gap should be glued. I don't see the need for everyone to know what happened btwn me and him! FUCKELS! Don't I deserve a bit of privacy!! AND CB! you told everything. Omg, Don't that guy deserve any sympathy at all???!! MOTHERFUCKER! THIS ISN'T THE KIND OF THING THAT YOU CAN GO AROUND YACKING TO OTHERS ABOUT. OMG!!! I think, after this, I swear, I never at all regretted defending him when I was arguing with you, but I wished I hadn't defended you when I was arguing with him. You thought I was only taking his side? Damn it, you never were in my shoes. www.myspace.com/saintjuliet Add me!! Cause I hate friendster already. Could you and your swollen ego fit into my master plan for failure? Monday, October 22, 2007, 9:01 PM that most definitely I will be attracted to you Saturday Raya-ed with While waiting for me Got bored on the bus At Tan's house And there: I don't know how my business became everybody's business. Sickening. and you to me are as dead as fallen leaves Friday, October 19, 2007, 1:10 AM awake and unafraid I'm zoned out. I just got back from work and I have school later. I got a few assignments to finish but I'm not afraid cause IT'S HALFWAY THROUGH! Jia you, Siti, this is only the first week! Persevere! Good results = MAGNUM TRAINING. I'll be a chiongster. Yeah. I walked away. I'll look back but I doubt I'll turn back. You disappointed me in so many ways. I miss you, yes, I do. Love you I do, hate you, I'll try. Thanks for everything, boy. You were my joy but you are a pain. You're just a boy with too many chances. Had lunch with Tan that day at Sakae. I think I got fat from all that. No, wait, I AM FAT. Sigh. Then Tan and Jan went to get their gaming gadgets for CS, which I find ridiculously unnecessary. Ok, im tired. and im lazy to blog. tata ppl. I love you Tuesday, October 16, 2007, 1:15 AM paper cuts from letters explaining how to fall in love Monday blues Sigh First day of school Sigh Late for an hour and sat down in class beside Cockroach (SIGH) for a mere twenty five minutes and school ended Hiyoh That means I sat on the train for nearly two hours for a twenty five minute scope of what the new IS module would like WOW Realised that I am not in G class anymore =( I have menses Sigh and it hurts... I swear, I miss cheer leading. =((( It's close to paradise I hope my mentor dies. He chucked me into some ulu H class where all the noobies I don't know are in. CB. I hate you. HAHHAHAA. I am envious of Khai from HSCS. He can sing. LIKE BLOODY WELL HE CAN SING. I'm not worthy. SIGH. So how's your Hari Raya been? Mine tad awful, how about yours? My sister and mum argued the night before the very awaited day over my sister's horrendously bleached hair. No offence, but it's pretty bad, but i have a feeling she's gonna add some colour to it-I hope it's not green cause I bloody made up my mind that I'm gonna dye my hair black again and have green streaks. Then I also argued with Yunus and that made Hari Raya pretty pointless actually. So I screwed the idea of Hari Raya-ing and decided to just go to work on that day. WHICH TOTALLY IS MUCH BETTER THAN MEETING MY AUNTIES FROM MY MOTHER'S SIDE. They are holy. And I hate holy pious shit ppl who don't know how to cherish life as it is. Meet them also for what sia. They are reluctant to give any money away anyway. GOD, I SHOULD BE STABBED. ahhahaha. REALLY. sigh. Don't you just hate festive seasons? I feel like being the Grim for once. I've got new love in AUTOMATIC LOVE LETTER'S Juliet Simms. GOD, that awesome raspy voice... So original. So orgasmic. Juliet.... But Hayley, you know I'm still your very first few 100,000th fan before 2007 right? =) Rasied is letting me work at JM for dinners along with my favourite super part timer, Jin Wen. I'll be more super than you SAMUEL ONG JIN WEN. Ok, I can't. Cause I can't cook. cries. The both of us made a pact that neither of us will work if the other isn't there. Haha. He gets motivated with me around while I get aggitated to do better than him when he's around. He's sweet, I can swear to that. Don't ask why cause I haven't found the answer yet I'll just sit and pretend that we'll sort it out I'll keep on believing that my power isn't lost yet I'll keep on saying that I miss you cause it's what my heart says this drama sat shot gun Saturday, October 13, 2007, 3:37 AM I'm really happy today. Not because I'm going to visit my grandfather later, but because ONG JIN WEN SAMUEL talked to me about all the problems I'm facing. THANK YOU Jin Wen. You're so awesome. And our conversation was pretty metaphoric. God, I cannot thank him enough. =))) The whole night during dinner, he kept saying to me this: Love yourself. And he does it when I'm wiping cutlery, clearing tables; the most random timing.; which got me totally confused. He's seriously fucking random. I totally love him. =D "You're a nice girl, but you love hurting yourself." "Huh? what you mean?" "You don't love yourself." "BUT I DO. I love myself a bit too much to the point that I think I'm selfish." "It's not selfish. It's stubborn and you're at a disadvantage." "I don't get it. But you say it's loving myself. OK, see these french fries. You are hungry, but I'm selfish, I won't give you. You are the hungry one, I don't see why I'm at a disadvantage, you are." "I know I'm at the losing end, but what about you? What do you gain by keeping the french fries when you are not hungry?" "I am getting the idea but not there yet." "OK, you say the drink not nice, but you still drink. You know the drink will poison you. Why you do it?" "Cause I thirsty." "But you got other choices. Why must you still drink it when you know of the poison?" And the conversation slowly expanded to name coding the people involved to MacDonald's, KFC, Burger King. Jin Wen is so fucking hilarious. Thanks Jin Wen. Though you squeezed my cheeks until I cannot feel them and I swear, you could have burst my zit, you're still a great friend. I'm so lucky to have you. Really. =D And thank you for understanding that I cannot possibly rush my decision. You're so super. I fall to my knees, remembering the Sundays that we used to have together We'd watch movies at home, eat popcorn and candyfloss I'd hide behind the pillows while you hide behind me That's how memories goes Anger is the path to the dark side I'm currently down with flu and i'm so in love with Alex Gaskarth. He is so cute and has the most amazing vocals. He's hairy too. LMAO. i'll fight and defend Tuesday, October 09, 2007, 8:02 AM blow the flames we can't tame I asked Jan and Faiz to come over my place to help me paint my room while I ASSISTED. lmao. thanks guys, I owe you big time, ya? And Faiz, I hope you die for making my black shirt white. =D There is still something about you I can never quite figure out. Whatever that thing is, it makes me love you like I loved you. Applause, applause. So this is how you see things. He's below the usual intellect of the average Singaporean. He's slow, low IQ, and does weird things. But let me tell you this. He has yet to hurt me, emotionally or physically. YES, i said yet. Let me make my own decision. Good or bad, it's mine, and knowing that it's mine, what's there to regret. Don't push it. YOU JUST DON'T LIKE HIM CAUSE HE IRRITATES YOU. YOU JUST FIND IT INSULTING TO HAVE SOMEONE LIKE HIM A PART OF MY LIFE CAUSE YOU THINK I DESERVE SOMEONE BETTER. So what? really, so what? If I end it with him, IT'S BASED ON MY OWN JUDGEMENT, MY OWN REASONS, MY OWN ACCORD. I listen to your advice. I listen, don't mean that I agree to whatever it is you are saying. WHY THE FUCK MUST EVERYONE LISTEN TO YOU? Cause what you think is right is not necessarily the same as what others think. You have the right to pass judgements in my life, but you have no right to tell me what the fuck to do. He doesn't hurt me. He treats me fine. NOT PERFECT, but fine. And he fights for me- not literally a fight but get the picture lah. If I end it with him, you're going to laugh and prance around like a prat, saying, "I told you so"? Really, has this become an ego thing of who's right and who is wrong? LIKE WTF. If this guy is really a mistake, then fine, I'll move on, NOT YOU! YOU'LL STILL BE STUCK THERE, THINKING OF WHAT'S HER FACE AND HER FLAWS AND ALL THAT SHE'S DONE TO YOU DESPITE WHAT YOU'VE DONE FOR HER. YOU'RE THE ONE WHO KEEPS GOING AROUND IN CIRCLES. AT LEAST I MOVED ON. SHAFIQ GOT CHICKENPOX!!!!!!!!!! LAUGH EVERYONE!!!! YES, YOU TOO, SHAREENA. LAUGH AT THAT BROTHER OF YOURS YOU LAUGHED AT YOU. Aw, Shafiq, I remembered someone saying that he is IMMUNE* to it?* I'm going to shop at Topshop for that really cute top and jacket. They're so rad. Maybe I'd get more stuff if I've got the cash. I do need a bag though. And it's pretty urgent. sigh. regret the words we swore we meant Monday, October 08, 2007, 5:10 AM undress to impress My heart is bursting inside. I don't wish to lie cause I simply can't. If I do this, what would it make of me? Someone who is influenced so easily by what others say? Or make me a better person for listening to logic and sense.Sometimes, they don't work. If logic and sense gets me, I'd go back to what I feel is right; my comfort zone of 4 years. I'd go back to Mr Quite Perfect whom my mother adores, whom my brother likes, to whom my best friends gayly loves; the quite perfect picture of what it was like years ago. If I do this, I'll never forgive myself. For I've taken away someone's heart. For I've lost someone who I clearly adore for being so childish, so petty, so sweet and so caring. yes, I can find all that someone else, someone YOU claim is right for me. I give advices, but I rarely push it. I rarely disrespect. Thanks for pushing away cause it feels good that I didn't decide to leave YOU for a relationship like this. Thanks for insulting by saying, "You think someone educated cannot give you something better." YOU'D GO THAT FAR. HE'S IN ITE, HE'S STUPID, HE'S A LOSER, HE'S NO GOOD. you can touch on the tangibles, but you had to touch on that fact. not everyone can be of the same caliber as you. Not everyone can understand things as easily as YOU and me. Why do you do this? CAUSE YOU JUST DON'T LIKE HIM. Saturday, October 06, 2007, 6:59 PM there's a fine line between love and hate and I don't mind To Tan Mohd Faiz, Hey dearest , what ever had happened, HAPPENED. So don't start that low self esteem nonsense cause YOU ARE BY FAR THE SMARTEST AND THE FUNNIEST GUY I KNOW. Just so you know, at least you tried, and I'm very proud of you already. Two rights cant make up for a wrong. Sometimes, it's just too late to mend anything. I want you to stay strong cause you are not a nobody. Your conscience is clear cause you know that fucked up project wasn't justified. You know Jan, Premnath and me will always have your back. you know people are simply concerned for you and you are pretending that nothing at all is happening. I'm just so tired mentally and physically. Tired of telling people I'm fine. Tired of telling people that I'm sorry I can't be there. Tired of defending someone whom the world seems to be against. I'm not him, he's not me. Maybe I was foolish to think that people would overlook his flaws like I did. Maybe not many people are forgiving. Or, I was foolish enough to think that his flaws will not affect me in any way. I don't know how they found out about that tiny fact about him THAT fast, but I'm not surprised that people are starting to ask me if I took any. Like, no people. I DON'T DO NO SHIT. It's just strange that people of different worlds could actually collide. That impact causes change. I know some changes are hard and some can't be changed at all but he is trying. If I can believe, why can't you? I've received my SMACKERS! Omg. It smells so good. Simply orgasmic, really. I just bought two more Smackers online!!! Online shopping is hands down, the best way AND the only way to shop without moving your legs. Just click and anticipate the arrival of your item at your doorstep. Saves time and energy. GOD, I MUST BE THE LAZIEST SHIT ON EARTH. I'M ENVIOUS OF TEENS IN UNIFORMS. PERIOD. I wish I can wear my NV school uniform again. Too many memories of good and bad wearing that uniform. So live like you mean it Love til you feel it It's all that we need in our lives So stand on the edge with me Hold back your fear and see Nothing is real til it's gone Your heart in my hands Boyfriend bought me flip-flops out of randomness when he went to town that day. =) How thoughtful. He must have been a genius for only about two seconds to have figured out my size cause it fits perfectly. hah! Working at JM is seriously NOT fun anymore. No more drama. SIGH. Hang in there Siti, just another week and it will be over!! Wednesday, October 03, 2007, 11:43 PM smile, it confuses people My boyfriend would be the first person that I wanna kill if killing was not a crime. He woke me up this morning at 7am when I had work at 11am! Trust me, I have got no idea what could have possessed him to wake up at that hour. Obviously, I refused. I groaned, mumbled and tried to get back to sleep. Being the really thoughtful person that he is, he hugged me so tightly that I couldn't breathe. Struggled, struggled, struggled. He gave up after a few minutes and decided that pain was no gain. So, he thought of irritating me by playing psychedelic music. It worked. After a few minutes that is. Sigh. There is a difference between being a liar and being manipulative. A liar, is While being manipulative is being like Gerbert. A liar lies to get avoid trouble and to get what they want. A manipulative person lies to get what they want for their own advantage. lied to get back her god damn necklace back by winding a cock-and-bull story that the necklace belonged to her grandmother and she gave it to Wan as a gift since it was really special to her. That is lying. Gerbert lied by telling Marie that Michael has a gf back in the Phillipines so that Gerbert can get a chance with Michael. SEE THE DIFFERENCE NOW? No? Lying makes you a liar but being manipulative ruins someone else's life. called me a bitch so I will now bitch. IS A POSER CAUSE SHE LIKES PARAMORE AND A7X JUST BECAUSE HER EX BOYFRIEND LIKES THE TWO BANDS. SHE IS POSER CAUSE PARAMORE EXISTED WAY BEFORE THIS YEAR AND POSERS LIKE HER AND ONLY HER WOULD SUDDENLY COME A LIKING FOR PARAMORE. SHE IS A POSER CAUSE SHE JUST HAS THAT "I'M A POSER" FACE. Like, LOOK AT HER!!! She is so poser with that big-big eye and chubby cheeks riff raff face. So, if you see scream "poser" in her face. LOL You're my lovely vampire I'm tired. I miss my friends, I miss Magnum Force, I miss having a life. Sigh. Digging this song right now. I miss you bf.		saintjuliet sitihamidah mail me: CHEERDANCEFLY@GMAIL.COM 010590		theparade alya azmi hadzah yunus jan wendy liyana michael clarence nadiah khairul anshar towkoon hakim harlis pamela sohvil ashley koh beforetoday + Siti/Hammy/Chitty/Cheetszxxz/Santi/Hamster has mov... + whatever. bleargh. I sincerely wish, for the sa... + Meet my cousin's new born baby! 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