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Monday, December 31, 2007, 3:30 AM
 For one, I've messed up my blog template. I'm quite happy with this one though. Nuffnang Ads are confusing lahh. I'm chosen to host their ads, of which I cannot seems to see in my blog. I don't know how it works. It won't hurt lah. If works, then I might just have some cash posted via mail. If someone has commitment issues, and he's bold enough to admit it, then I don't see why he should be deemed a jerk. Maybe kissing other girls would deemed him as one, at least, he's man enough to admit his errors. He doesn't owe anyone else an explanation but Azi. End of discussion. I think, commitment scares the shit out of me. To be obliged and tied down to a relationship, where emotions are to be dealt with, really scares me. I'm not saying this because of the few rough patches that I ran across of late, no. It's the time, and the chaos. My mind and body is not ready for that whirlwind of excitement and parallelism. It's insane. Not that flings and one night stands are the rule of play here, but I just don't see myself getting wrapped up and staying that way. Even with the most perfect guy I see in my eyes, I will get utterly terrified at the whole idea of till death do us part. But of course, I do believe in love and destiny. yes, I love the idea of long walks along the beach, the stupid fairytale kisses with the full moon ablaze, those longing gazes. I guess it's a matter of time. I never wanted to say this You never wanted to stay I put my faith in you, so much faith And then you just threw it away You threw it away You were finished long before We had even seen the start Why don't you stand up, be a man about it? Fight with your bare hands about it now I guess some things are better left unspoken before we see any more bridges broken. There's a lot in my mind when we first left off, however when I saw that everyone was fine, I shrugged it off. it's better to forgive now and just let it go.There is no point in dwelling into to things that are better off left alone. Like, how long can we stay at truce? Anyway, I'm sleepy and I've got no idea where the hell I'll be spending NY's at. Think of the crowd and all that squishing and squeezing and sweating! Argh. It's over rated. However, the last few moments of a significant change of a year with a bunch of friends doesn't seem that bad at all. Only problem is that I'll be at work during the countdown itself. Probably I will have to rush off to meet Dinesh and gang for another lepak session at Clarke Quay or I'll go find Jovan and gang if they are going out, the possibilities of which is quite the minimum. Like I said, it's over rated. I mean, it's only fireworks. How much of a change can fireworks be throughout the ages? Ok, i do admit the fireworks that time during National Day was spectacular, but isn't once quite enough? Ouh well, we'll just see. I think I'm becoming a pedophile, in a sense that I actually wished that a guy who is one year younger than me to be of my age or older. Lol. Seriously, this guy is one of a kind. He's got this heart of gold that I so wish to dig out. Yes, yes, yes. Age does not matter and all that, but, do remember this, I am after all superficial. OMG, IT'S THE 31ST ALREADY. Dear lord, forgive me for I have sinned. But I have to say something, about today's event in JM's private room. It was an all Christian gathering for Thanksgiving cum the celebration of this old guy's birthday. In that four hour event, I saw three of the seven deadly sins committed. Pride, gluttony and greed. I need not elaborate as I'll spare the horrible details that I've observed.
Take the Seven Deadly Sins Quiz You scored as Pride
 ok, i'm convinced. I've bitched a little too much. I'm off now. Saturday, December 29, 2007, 2:40 AM
 Why must everything get personal? Since the start, I already knew there was personal judgment clouding everything you see, hear and feel. I'm speechless. And itchy. AND I don't think how I look affects that, thank you very much, Yunus. -_- I'm in a crisis and your jokes do not help. I do not have "Fuck me" written across my face. =_=\ Thanks ar Hadi, I'm addicted to Eyes Set To Kill because of you.  Had fun with Dinesh, Ghaz, Vinnie boy and Kooraf(hahahahha- inside joke) a few nights before. Thanks guys, you guys made me feel better after that whole fiasco of what nots. Funny stuff happened at work but I really cannot remember what. Also, I really cannot remember(I must be going senile) the Chinese guy, who looks like a Korean singer, name(Can I just call him hot stuff?). Like, bloody hell, I talk to him every time I work there. Yet, I don't ever bother to ask him name. It's either that, or I completely forget. I need a code name for him, so it would be easier to remember his name. A kiss without a hug is like a flower without the fragrance Thursday, December 27, 2007, 10:54 AM
behind these masks we renegade  Jammed with Wanlo and Fahmi after a really last minute phone call yesterday. I swear, I had so much fun. =) They are so good, that I don't wish to jam with them ever again because I feel ashamed lah. They are beyond my league. SERIOUSLY. They are LEGENDARY.     Fairuz =) Got me thinking, why the fuck I ruin my chances with him? OMG I'M SO LOSER. Ouh, never. After jamming, we headed to collect my pay and then to Fairuz's place where he had a mini jamming studio equipped with guitars and an electric drum set which he bought for 2k. Omg. The sacrifices for passion. Omg, I'm quite in love. Heh. Fast forward, left the motley crew to meet up with Jovan and gang. Sheesha-ed. I think I'm going crazy. Pfft. I was so tired, i slept throughout the night. Feels good. Yeah.  I think I have to live with the fact that it was a two day thing and there is no use hanging on to the telephone, hoping it would be your name across the screen. :( gently swaying with our bodies, fall down Tuesday, December 25, 2007, 10:09 PM
 Why do men get a pat on the back when they sleep wiht 12 girls, and a girl gets called a slut? It's just how things are in life. The year is about to come to an end and once again, alone in long bus rides had me wondering to how things have changed. The older I become, the less I know, the more confused I get. God gave me a conscious. With that I feel guilt and depressed to what the fuck I've become. I'm not horribly terrible in a sense where I just go around to get laid or waste my life away with drugs, gangsters and what nots. I do have certain moral values that I sometimes fail to comply. I fail to practice what I preach. And for that I feel used and just fucking horrible. Maybe Chin was right after all. I do somewhat in a way lack of love. I'm just vulnerable to affections and such. I crave for attention as if I lack of it. It isn't enough to be liked by many for tangible qualities and character. I need more than just that. Cause, hey, there's a million other girls who do possess those qualities, however, I would like to be one who is just different and unique. I'm just the girl next door, who probably makes a few heads turn, once in a while and just forgotten the very next day. I'm just a pretty accessory that they have for a while and it's,"Moving along..." After they a kiss or two, a laugh and a few, they leave. Just like that. Pretty doll gets handed to next boy. I do have feelings. Yeah. I do. Apparently. Rebounds and rebounded. Some life I have. The question is why I do it? I don't know. Maybe I just like to be treated special. Even with someone who I don't have deep affections for, I still like to be treated that way. Admit it, who doesn't like the flattery of attention? Maybe there is only one person to blame. And because of him, I swore to not to end up like her. Someone who is everything unlike him. However, the more know, the more they seem like him. And the more torn apart I become. Maybe, many people know the story already. And they think I need sympathy from it all. They know they can't love me as much I need them too, but, they do it anyway and I just fall for them anyway. I cannot help it, cause I crave it so bad. Seems desperate. But wtf, how can I be deemed desperate with a few at the tail? Shit, I sound like I'm bragging. Sigh, I should be cockslapped by now. The social butterfly that I am. I get along with anyone who doesn't annoy the fuck out of me. Relatively big social circle, yet I stick to a few at times of need. I just choose not to open up. Because, I don't see the need to. Sigh. It's the quality that matters. =) Superman's back from Malaysia. =) He brought me gum. Gum as in the chewy stuff. I love goodies no matter how small they are. But not keychains. I don't know why, but I don't see the use of a keychain. And I'm having these awfully bad stomach aches. It has to be the Canadian Pizzas just now. argh. I think my body is getting sick of this annual ritual of Canadian Pizza take outs every Christmas. Or maybe it's Starbucks coffee. Argh. Coffee. Feels like PMS. Ässjedi Mräzmi - Sitting on a cornflake, waiting for the van to come said: chayaya Ässjedi Mräzmi - Sitting on a cornflake, waiting for the van to come said: hungry Ässjedi Mräzmi - Sitting on a cornflake, waiting for the van to come said: how? Ässjedi Mräzmi - Sitting on a cornflake, waiting for the van to come said: cook for me . said: im in punggol twn Ässjedi Mräzmi - Sitting on a cornflake, waiting for the van to come said: so? Ässjedi Mräzmi - Sitting on a cornflake, waiting for the van to come said: singapore is so small . said: im not that free Ässjedi Mräzmi - Sitting on a cornflake, waiting for the van to come said: you can walk here what Ässjedi Mräzmi - Sitting on a cornflake, waiting for the van to come said: HAHAHAHA -_- I hate you so bad, Azmi. But I've got no choice but to love you.   Which Flower are You?  You are a Carnation:You are friendly, energetic, cheerful, and bubbly. You love being around people. Outgoing and talkative, you rarely meet a stranger. Others feel at ease around you because of your playful nature.Symbolism: In Victorian times carnations were given to show fascination with another. They also symbolize friendship and whimsicalness. Take this quiz!  Quizilla | Join | Make A Quiz | More Quizzes | Grab Code i miss you lahh His curse is the poison on her lips , 5:59 AM
[PICTURES ADDED] congratulations, I hate you  You have officially ruined my awfully good mood from the previous night by spamming my phone with messages that keep beeping over and over again. Ok, fine, there are others, but the rest were Xmas wishes, not the psycho,"Where are you?" "Are you ok?" "I woke up from a nightmare" "What's up with you and Ghaz." Fcuk. I was asleep. I GOT HOME BEFORE TWELVE MIND YOU. I slept at 1230am Xmas itself. I am fine. I am alive. I am breathing. I got home in one piece. I got home, untouched, unhurt and not raped. And it's only a nightmare. And I'm still here. And you got me annoyed. And fuck who are you to question me who I choose to send me home. And your stalker tendencies are getting on my nerves. And there is nothing between me and Ghazali. And Vinod is my pretend boyfriend. And your paranoia should be kept aside for someone else. And I'm interested in someone else. And which is why you must get the idea by now And you shouldn't hang on. And forgetting me should be your New Year's Resolution And I really feel like punching someone because of all you said Because again you are making me feel that I must be obligated to choose you in the end. I really need a hug right now. From Superman or XXX, preferably. Tsk, I'm so annoyed. Argh. I am going to hate Xmas morning from today on. Tsk. Okay, here's the reason to why SO AND SO got so paranoid abt my whereabouts. Well, for one, I out with Prevenya, Vinod, Ghaz, Farook and Dinesh after jamming. Talked and chilled by the Riverside where the guys had drinks. Pre and I didn't of course. I don't feel like getting tipsy or even drinking. Dinesh got pretty high but he's still quite sober. Farook was tipsy. Vinnie boy was quite fine. Ghaz is the only one perfectly sober. Dinesh made a scene and caused a few ppl to be annoyed.  XMAS EVE  GIRL NEXT DOOR  PARTY LIKE A ROCKSTAR Fast forward, I had fun. And because I had fun, I know, God must do sth to balance out the quantum theory of life as I am after all JINXED, which is why SO AND SO got paranoid and left me weird messages at five am. CCB. I WAS SLEEPING. AND I WAS HAPPY. tsk. tsktsktsk. I need a hug. From Superman or xxx, preferably. Damn it, I'm going off to sleep. CCB. come what may Monday, December 24, 2007, 9:34 AM
 If I could take back just one thing from you, it'd be how I gazed into your eyes. Cause that's how and when I fell like a fool for you. tsk. Superman's probably one of the sweetest guys around. Ivan deemed him special. I think he's really, well, I don't know. He's awesome lah. We only know each other recently and, BLEAH. It's probably flattering for some, but it's happening way too many times. I seriously think that I'm a magnet for catastrophe sometimes. Again and again, the extremities. I'm not ready for any of this. I'm just recovering from the so called stampede of testosterone. She said,"It's not easy being beautiful huh?" I shrugged. I'm not that beautiful. Beautiful's a strong word. It's an extremity too. I feel like there is a missing part of my life. If it was here, then everything would be perfect and I wouldn't be looking for it. However, I think I'm never meant to find that missing piece. Because life isn't meant to be perfect. that missing Rosetta. NEW CLOTHES!! EVERYTHING UNDER $35!! www.qque-sera.blogspot.com www.qque-sera.blogspot.com www.qque-sera.blogspot.com www.qque-sera.blogspot.com www.qque-sera.blogspot.com TAINTED ROSETTE will be jamming today. Face Down, Seize the Day, Bat Country But I think you're as lazy as white paint on the wall Sunday, December 23, 2007, 7:29 AM
 Shopping DAY 2 Planning sucks. I like being spontaneous still. Yesterday's supposedly two plans failed. Plan 1 was to go out shopping with my mother in the afternoon which followed by Plan 2, which is to catch a movie with Ariffin. However, both surprisingly had the same excuse for bailing out on me, which was to replace someone at work. THERE'S A CONSPIRACY, I'M TELLING YOU. The aliens are at work. Since both failed, I used my other lifelines. Best guy friend Jannatun and best girlfriend Nadiah. Made plans with Nadiah for some retail therapy and plans with Jan to lepak after his medical check up. During the time span shopping with Nadiah, my other friend, Ghazali, was supposed to tag along. However, his cousin got into this freak accident. -_- Yes, I'M JINXED. Okay, nevermind about that. Anyway, since Ghaz couldn't tag along, and Nadiah had to leave to meet some primary school mates, I couldn't contact Jan as his hp was confiscated, I thought I would leave home early. Jan freaked me out lah. I have yet to pass him some stuff . He's supposed to meet me even before I left my house lah. Noone picked up the house phone either. Turns out, I tried calling all the ppl who probably would be with Jan, other than his gf, and they too have problems contacting him. DUDE, YOU WERE SO MIA MAN. It's creepy. BACK TO THE MAIN STORY. So I thought I would be going home early after shopping, until it reoccurred to me that my bandmate, Halim, had just finished work. Conveniently, it was at town. Funny thing, when I called him, he was directly across the road from where I was calling him.  Mad Hatters  She's got eyes set to kill THREE PAIRS OF SHOES IN A DAY!  STILETTOES;I wanted to get used to wearing four inched heels. These shoes, KILL.  Sandals.  MY FAVOURITE; Mary-Janes! favourite T-shirt of the year  At Marina Square's McDonald's, we waited ages for Halim's friends, Shafiq, Monster and Saiful to reach there. Bumped into a few friends there too. Hafiz from NVSS and holler back at you; yes, I no longer feel needed. Doesn't mean that she did it to you, you had to do it to me. I'm just as vulnerable as you are. Tainted Rosette has created a webpage. Do check it out once in a while for videos, recordings, etc. www.artsplatform.ning.com/taintedrosette DO JOIN IF YOU HAVE A BAND, DANCE GROUP, ETC ETC. AND DON'T FORGET TO ADD US. WWW.ARTSPLATFORM.NING.COM/TAINTEDROSETTE  HAHAHAHA. OMG THIS IS VERY COOL. VERY VERY VERY COOL! The butterflies. The blushing. I miss you lahhhhh tsk. stop it seh, Siti. :( it's funny to me how you turned into such a joke Saturday, December 22, 2007, 1:14 AM
Neither do I lack of love and sex nor am I emo. Here's a smilie to prove it :) zzz Friday, December 21, 2007, 6:17 AM
You can never get him out of your head  Random thoughts The closest thing to porn I've ever watched is probably the American Pie series and Southpark I rarely mention about my dad in my blog, but really, I do have one I play neopets, Pokemon, Warcraft, and Sid Meier's Pirate Game when I'm bored (do please introduce me to real games that I can play online to lose some steam?) I like it when it rains especially that musky smell of petrichor I've got four happy songs (great songs to perk up to): Accidentally In Love by Counting Crows, Beautiful Love by The Afters, Cinta by Flop Poppy, Absolutely by Nine Days Typical day at work. On Don Me: Don, can I go eat. D: Wtf!! Me: I haven't eat yet leh. How? D: -pauses- I haven't fuck you yet leh. How? Me: -_- On Chin C: Your face tells me that you lack of love and sex. Me: I don't do sex. -_- C: That's why I said that. Me: I never had sex. -_- C: Exactly to why I say that. A few minutes later. C: Your face tells me that you lack of love and sex. Me: Okayyyy. C: But, you don't worry. Even if the whole world don't want you, you still have Chin. Me: -_- Another few minutes later, I dropped the dessert bowl. C: Ah, see lah. I told you, if you need anyone, just come to me. Me: -_- Chin: I will be able to help you emotionally. Don walks in. C: Don too will be able to help you emotionally. He can help you physically as well. Me: =_= C: But financially, you can always go to SSC. Me: +__+ On Krishnan K: Correct or not, Hamidah? Me: Huh? What thing? K: Big body useless if got small cock. Me: WTF. -_- I realised that the moment work starts , no matter rain or shine, the topic will be the same. Sex, cock, and tits. -_- I guess it's the dominantly male environment. Thank God, that I grew up with guys as my best friends which makes me pretty immune to it. Ouh yes, Myra, the new staff in JM says that I look like a lesbian. Dear god. -_- I choked on my words lah. And when I asked Shafiq and Faiz about whether I look like one their replies were so similar with that hesitant,"Well, you do kinda......" AGAIN, FOR FAZLI A.K.A Freaky Z  Popular rapper wants more than just being a name within the Hiphop scene. Freaky Z releases his first full length album weirdly titled 'Fymps' and asks his listeners to make up whatever they want with the letters F,Y,M,P,S. One idea is "Funny Young Musician Promoting Singapore" while others can simply get vulgar! Fazli Nasser, his real name, can't help it, coming from a family background that's far from typical. Funny man, Freaky Z, channels his frustration of being expelled from school, jumping from job to job, even being diagnosed with cancer to humourous jingles; a whopping 21 tracks in his album released on the 23rd December 2007 at the PlayDen, Arts House. The album release party will feature his friends such as Peepshow, Xstatix, Rauzan, Public Eyez, Psykes, Sleeq and more, in skits unseen before at other Hiphop events, and of course, his tumour-to-humour antics, energetic nonsensical stand-up comedy-like stance. Date: 23rd December 2007, Sunday Time: 3pm sharp Venue: Playden, The Arts House Admission: $10 inclusive of 1 copy of FreakyZ's 'Fymps' Hope to see you there! Holla atcha boy!!! Peace! :) Do check out www.myspace.com/freakyz The cool air. The sea breeze and trees. The puddles of water. When you carried me and kissed. And that was it. hammers fall on all the pieces Wednesday, December 19, 2007, 1:53 AM
you trained these lips when they were champs  Hello to the serene republic out there. I just realised that tomorrow's Hari Raya Haji and I'll be working on that very morning. I missed Hari Raya Puasa, now, I'll be missing this too. God, I'm sorry, but I'm really not in the mood to see my relatives somehow. It must be the shame of doing what I did and I'm sure my mother will spread the news to my aunts pretty soon. OMG. The ultimate ray of hope (they call me that. GOD!) died on them. Shit. I'm such a shitface. Bleah. However, I'll think of this in the most positive way possible and that is the fact that I'm the shaper/potter/whatever of my own future- which is right now a sure blur as I'm really at lost of what to do right now. The responsibilities are just overbearing somehow. But I'll make it, if I believe that I could. I remember Jane saying that I'm determined to do whatever I want to right. And that I'll totally beat myself up if I don't get it right. I'll get this right. I will. I miss jamming with Tainted Rosette. God, that name is so sexy. HAHAHA. =) TAINTED ROSETTE. We'll jam soon, I promise. As long as everyone wants to, this band will not die. And Halim, our rhythm guitarist, HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY! LAPANBELAS PERRRR!!! Tainted Rosette will be jamming Flyleaf's FULLY ALIVE soon!! Wait world. We will rise. Flyleaf's got a vocalist worth to be reckoned with. Went shopping just now at Orchard Road with my mother, sister and her boyfriend. I mean, it was my sister's idea after knowing her vulnerabilities at this point. She's in that really naggy mood. When I meant 'she', I meant my sister. The boyfriend and I kept exchanging looks. The "Is she high?" look. Really. I think she's PMS-ing or something. All I know what to do was just to stay away. I really stayed away. Did my own thang. Ignored the snide remarks she makes on her boyfriend. If I were the boyfriend, I wouldn't give that vacant expression anymore. I'll get mad. Amirul Hakim, has this incapability of getting mad. -_- Fast forward to the very end, each of us girls, had a GUESS bag each. My sister got a GUESS wallet just to balance the scale of the price of my bag, to the price of hers. -_- Satisfied. Yes. Quite. However, it's still quite a bummer that I didn't get my shoes. AND I FORGOT ABOUT MY BRACELET LAHH. They were there. Hanging. I touched it. It touched me. The metal on my fingertips. I FORGOT. BLOODY HELL. I could have had it. CCB.BLEAHHHH. Stupid stupid stupid. Ouh my god, we were too busy shopping to even bother about the decorations in the streets. Damn.  Mother and me doing the hamster face  Just me doing the hamster face  Hakim doing the "I'm forced to pose for this" face  "We were never arguing before this was taken" face I love the smell of Khairul Ariffin. ouh god, I'm such a stalker. then we would soon forget your name Tuesday, December 18, 2007, 12:29 PM
So Hady Mirza won Asian Idol. I'm shocked because he wasn't the most vocally powerful there but he's got the package. Nonetheless, I'm happy that a Singaporean won, even if it's based on silly Asian teenagers voting for his uber cute looks. HE'S CUTE LAHH. I want to bring him home sometimes.  Malaysian host Kui Jien had to say after Jacklyn Victor and Hadi Mirza's performance, “Singapore and Malaysia in perfect harmony. Something you don’t get to see very often.”- http://bondevia.com/2007/12/17/asian-idol/ NOW THAT'S FUNNY! I mean, the irony of the host not knowing that that comment was suicidal for his career in both Malaysia and Singapore. Frat boy. I wish. I wish for a lot of things. If I had just one. I just wish that the very people that I depend on can actually depend on themselves. Then you'd ask, why can't I depend on myself? Because, I am just not strong enough. I know there are so many people who have much bigger things to face. And I don't know how they can live through it. It's either their ego or their will to carry on despite of hardship. Or they want no pity. If only God craved my heart out of stone, then maybe it wouldn't hurt. Jin Wen, you might think my life's just about the cliche "sex, blood and rock and roll," meaning to enjoy and be carefree, and that you think all I ever think about is boys and how to make them go insane. And honestly, I hate it when you think of me that way. I can't blame you I guess, that's how I portray it to you. And to many others just like you. And that's why I don't tell you many things, and that's why you get secondhand news. Yes, you're all that but you never trusted me enough. I doubt that you ever believed a word that ever came out of my mouth. On a lighter note, I think this is really funny =]   P.S HUA JIA MIN ROCKS. OMG JM, I love you so much and you rock so much for punching him like, many times. YOU ROCK SO MUCH. You have no idea how much you rock right now. I totally love your insanely retarded brain right now. I miss you lah pussy brain. And FABIAN FAB FAB FAB FABIAN!!! Please hurry back to SG will you?? I know you're like gone for like just one day, but it really tortures me to think that you might not be boy when you get back from Thailand. I'm fearless, not flawless. Monday, December 17, 2007, 1:08 AM
 My brother said: Silly Indians Hello, I'm tired out of my mind. Yet, I'm here on the computer, killing what little is left of my brain cells to blog for the sake of blowing of some steam. RAHHH!! I'll eat you all you Punjabis one day!! You exaggerated on the waiting time, you scolded my dearest Ba Yun, and you insulted my Captain and Supervisor. Who in the bloody world do you think you are? You maybe some big shot ass digging MF, but cut that throat, you'd bleed red, just like me. I WANT TO WATCH GOSSIP GIRL SO THAT I CAN SEE CHAD. Stupid writer's strike. Bloody Americans.  DAIWEI, I'M VERY SORRY LAHHHHHHHHHHH. Everybody stereotypes about everyone else. It's normal. Like Rouchen described all Malay boys wear tapered pants, wear mesh caps and walk like they own the world. And like how everyone else talks about how unreasonable Indians are. I mean, it's common lahhh. People make fun of things they don't understand. I'm not racist lahh. Cause I hate my own race at times. Why is that even without being in a relationship with you, I can seem to somehow hurt you? I think I should just stay away. If a tease would anger, then I'd rather not speak. I'M GOING TO PLAY POKEMON NOW. BYE BYE I LOVE YOU PPL. slay the silence Sunday, December 16, 2007, 4:41 AM
 It's gonna be another year passing us by with a blink of an eye. I'm sure glad the year's gonna be over, but I swear, it's probably the worst but the best year I ever had. 2007, what an amazing year and I cannot wait for the next. Thank you God, you've been amazing. You always were. You always given light at my darkest moments with God sent angels, whom I call friends. The BME clique, my best guys ever since Secondary School, my colleagues and bosses. I love you people lah. Had Mutton soup for supper and I had chicken nuggets for lunch- OMG CHICKEN. YECKS. Yuuckks. I hate mutton. They've got this foul stench even after they're cooked. It's a really weird smell that I simply cannot stand. So, instead of starving, I decided to just drink the soup with some rice. Though I must admit, the aftertaste is pretty weird. Some pescetarian (READ FOOLS, people who don't eat meat with exception of fish), I turn out to be.*snorts* FAQ Why pescetarism? Because I believe if you can't kill it, you can't eat it. As simple as that. I can't bear the sight of slaughter(whether it the Halal way or not), for I'm sensitive and compassionate (LOL), which is why I don't eat red meat. Ok, it's not that hard, but wtf, my family are monstrous carnivores, I can't tell them to not cook any meat for them- actually, my mum did agree to it until my sister couldn't stand the idea of having fish for lunch everyday. Bitch. HAHA JOKE. So now, our staple form of protein will depend the month, as my father would buy meat in bulk (WHO THE FUCK BUYS MEAT IN BULK!!) and we will need to wait until the entire stock of 2kg of whatever it is to be cooked. Anyway, there is also a lot of health benefits, like I definitely will not die of heart disease because lean meat like fish, don't contain much saturated fats. FATS. =0 Enough preaching =D And I shall not contradict myself anymore and make my life a hypocrisy. Jamming with the newly named Tainted Rosette was very awesome. After the session, everyone was asking, "So when's the next time we hang?" Face Down really got their fingers itchy and my feet jumping. We did good. Yes, we did good. =D I'm so happy that for once, all of us agreed and LOVED the choice of song. Phew. And I'm really happy that everyone did their part in learning the music. Seize the Day was pretty flawless as well except for the solo, I think. God, I'm so happy, thank you. =D where to get this shirt?  maybe you're mistaken for someone who cares Saturday, December 15, 2007, 7:55 AM
This is evil. I swear to god, what I hate more than people who abuses people, are those who abuse animals. It's seriously inhumane. I hate it when I see guys kicking dogs- trust me, I'm terrified of dogs, but I see no reason to why they should be kicked- and kids yanking and burning the kitty's tail(I've seen a lot of that). And this: I teared watching this. I don't see why their skin can't be taken out after they are dead. Like, WTF, shoot it dead first at least. what did it ever do to suffer in those cruel hands. I love animals a lot- maybe except for those with less than or more than four legs- and seeing such brutality on these defenseless creatures is seriously mortifying. It's not save the cheerleader, save the world anymore. Which is why I'm playing Pokemon Fire Red at the moment. Very fun, yes. It's a uber cool remake of the first generation of Nintendo's Pokemon. My hard effort of three days. Yes, I've gotten all 8 badges in three days, which officially makes me a no lifer. But come on, it's fucking addictive. It totally beats me wasting my time waiting for videos to buffer. WENDY PHUA! SEE MY POKEMON! IN THREE DAYS LEH!! I'm a better Pokemon trainer than you. Or, a better no lifer =) I MISS YOU PHUA WENTING. =)) This montage I made for you. Or more of, to show off to you. =D  Official Band Name Named after yours truly due to recent events. Lol.    First jamming session later at three pm after the fiasco of exams and tests. the young and hopeless Friday, December 14, 2007, 4:06 AM
 Fatin, you gotta stop viewing my blog until you reach 17. really. Sometimes, I got myself wondering to why you're here? Haven't you had enough? I'm not pushing you away, but I just don't like the feeling of needing you at night. On nights like this. On nights where I'm bound to vulnerabilities of my thoughts. Sometimes, I just wish you weren't the one to be there for me. Cause you being here, just feels so wrong. Sometimes, you get me wanting to have you again for another try. But we've seen that die way too many times, haven't we? I think movie dates is so cliché. It's like if couples go on movies every time on their dates, it's obvious they have nothing else to talk about and that they kill time together with a movie. HAHAHA. *points* LOSER! But I'm being dead serious here. I mean, if it's a first date, then it's good idea. Cause, that's an icebreaker. Tell me I'm wrong, if you can. hehe. Which is why, I'll be going out with Zeek sometime soon. Miss you a lot buddy. I love this song. It's pretty old but I've been hitting it on replay for god knows what reason. The Afters, BEAUTIFUL LOVE SUGARCULT, PRETTY GIRL is awesome. =) Did I mention waiting for videos to buff is such a honker? Really, is my laptop THAT messed up that watching ONE Southpark episode would be such a pain? Yes, Southpark Fans, Southpark is season 11 is out. Watch free videos here or here The same old SP that we know and grown to love; totally pointless, totally M18, totally racist, and totally funny. Had a session with Faiz and Yunus, the most unlikely duo ever, over at my place. Talked loads of shit, laughed, talked, drank, piss, crapped. Absolute fun. No pun intended. Wished I had bestie Shafiq and Jan along. You people should have been there to liven up the mood and shake the whole neighbourhood to the ground. I'm tired. Cheerios everyone, I'll be pokemon-ing now. =)) break down these walls Wednesday, December 12, 2007, 3:16 AM
I've lost and broke most of my bracelets. I'm so depressed. Probably they're all at my aunt's place. I'm just too lazy to go all the way to the west to get my box of trinkets back. Tomorrow, if work ends early, I'll head to Vivo City or where ever with Faiz to window shop for bracelets and Faiz will be in search of a watch, which is such an irony cause after four years being with him, the Faiz we all know/knew, never once wore a watch for he is careless and ... HE JUST DOESN'T WEAR A WATCH. I fell in love with this Guess bracelet I saw at Tampines while window shopping with Royston and Nadiah for a present for Royston's girlfriend. It's so fucking hard to find bracelets that I actually like. I've searched ebay.com.sg, blogshops, and every possible retail store for a bracelet that looked alike the ones I've lost, but I got nothing. =( This Guess bracelet will be the start of my collection. SIGH. starting from scratch really sucks. Probably the best movie of the year. National Treasure 2: Book of Secrets Can't wait. So what's Singapore's National Treasure then?  =) I stole this from friendster. And no, Azhar, you're not the National Treasure, yet. Fiona Xie! Cause, she's the only actress who isn't too skinny, isn't too flat and isn't too... WELL, what the hell, she's just hot lahhhh. Okay, other than stating the very obvious of having really nothing better to do other than update my Friendster, Myspace, Blogger, checking my hotmail, gmail, yahoo mail, ebay and yahoo auctions, and watch all the videos of every sitcom show that I can think of, I really don't know what else to do for my very last few hours of absolute freedom before I go back to work with Sean at Novotel. And no, don't tell me to chat with perpetually unknown strangers on IRC or SKYPE cause I can safely tell you that all my MSN contacts are school mates, ex school mates, and co-workers. Speaking of work, it really reminds me on how much I HATE DONG MING. KNN CCB. DONG MING'S THE BIGGEST FUCKER. And I don't care if he comes across this or not cause he probably don't know how to read this anyway. I even doubt he's PC literate. MIC. CCB, Sunday's function, I did mention it was an Indian wedding, right? WELL, I DID HIS TABLES WHILE HE CONVENIENTLY WENT TO SLEEP. CCB. HE SLEEP, I DO HIS WORK, HE GET HIS PAY LAH. KNN. I HATE HIM SO MUCH. ITS REALLY NOT FAIR FOR THE LIKES OF ME LAH.KNN. I'M DOING HIS WORK! AND HE DIDNT EVEN HELP ME. I ASKED HIM FOR HELP WITH THE DISHES, HE JUST SHRUGGED ME OFF. CCB. WHO THE FUCK HE THINK HE IS??? PUKI TAIK. I HOPE HE GETS FIRED. I WANT HIM OUT. SERIOUS SHIT. I REALLY WANT HIM OUT. NOT ONLY DOES HE TALK LIKE AS IF HE'S GOT DOWN SYNDROME, HE ACTS LIKE A BIG FUCK. If i'm ever to work with him under the same section of the ballroom, i'll openly defy. I swear to that. wo xiang ni =) Tuesday, December 11, 2007, 11:02 PM
 The eye bags I'm currently bored out of my mind. However, I'm so effing glad that I'm at home in this freezingly cold weather. I can just snuggle into bed with my cosy comforter anytime. Ahh. If only all my off days are like today. :)  Anyway, XMAS IS COMING. Yeah, it's everyone's favourite time of the year. All the decorations and pretty lights that's gonna light up the town. Orchard is probably a must-go during this festive season. Yeah. SSC's decoration's ain't too shabby either. In fact, it's in full gear for the crazy occasion. I'll get the pictures next time. God, can you imagine all the crazy functions that they're gonna have there?? The parties, the masses, and all the other what nots there is. God. AND THE CROWD! Not to mention all the $$$$ I'll get for the work there. However, obviously, I won't wanna be working on the day. unless it's really important lahhh. Christmas also means presents. Sigh. But presents means an excuse to shop, right? heh. =) Got this from the Megat Man's myspace. Speaking myspace, can you ppl please get a myspace account? Ok, lol. ANNNDD, speaking of Megat, I really miss that guy. And yes, Megat, I do remember that I owe you that Harry Potter Book. Get your own Poll!  cold December nights Monday, December 10, 2007, 11:45 AM
NEW FOUND GLORY'S Kiss Me Add to My Profile | More Videos I don't like MICs who cannot speak proper English. It takes them like 10 seconds to react what you said only to get it wrong. However, Dai Wei is an exception for he kept telling the other MICs that I'm very beautiful. Omfg. So flattering. Today's event was an Indian wedding. The entire ballroom was filled with roses. REAL ROSES. It's really lovely. ANNDDDDD... Guests presented me with a stalk or two out of pure randomness. :) Envy me lah :) Okay, JOKE    I wish I was a punk rocker with flowers in my hair I need a new phone, seriously. I feel like tossing my phone out the window and watch it implode into puzzle pieces. My Samsung Z240 hangs when i really need to send messages, the battery heats up like crazy when I make calls, it shuts down and refuses to turn back on when I plug it into the computer. Ok, it's sleek and it's effing compact, but functionality wise, it should be burnt!  How can I not resist? I want a new flip phone lahhh. I got a fetish for them. Suggestions? MOTORAZR V3xx - Pink (Refurb)  * 1.3 MP camera with 8x zoom * AT&T Mobile Music Folder with MP3 player * Video recording, playback and streaming * AT&T Mobile Music, Music ID and streaming radio capable * Cellular Video - Get news, sports & more * Stereo Bluetooth® capable with next generation A2DP * High speed data access via the fast 3G network * Instant messaging - AOL®, Yahoo!®, & Windows Live Messenger® * Picture and Video Messaging - Send photos, video and more * Download Music Tone ringtones, graphics, and games * Create your own music playlists and smart playlists * Removable memory capacity for MicroSD(TM) Card * Advanced speech recognition * Mobile email capabilities * Opera web browser * Speakerphone I like the colour :)  * 2 MP camera with 8x zoom * Video capture, playback, and streaming * Stereo Bluetooth® wireless capable * AT&T Mobile Music with one-touch access * Digital audio player - supports MP3, WMA, EAAC+, Real, WAV * Cellular Video - Get news, sports, video, and more * Picture and Video Messaging - Send photos, video and more * Instant messaging - AOL®, Yahoo!®, & Windows Live® * High-speed data access via broadband 3G network * Large 2.2" internal and 2.0"external color displays * microSD(TM) removable memory card capacity * Download games, videos, music and wallpapers * Opera browser for full HTML web surfing * Crystal Talk(TM) for improved audio quality * Advanced speech recognition * 3G high-speed data access * Mobile email capabilities * Picture Caller ID * Airplane mode * Speakerphone I won't get this I think. It's JM's phone lah. And it's heavvyyyyy. T MOBILE SIDEKICK Juicy Couture  KNN, IT'S NICE LAHHH. And QWERTY keypads aren't that bad. I used a blackberry before, so this one shouldn't be a problem. ouh wait, there is a problem. T MOBILE's only available in the US. argh. roses for the dead Saturday, December 08, 2007, 3:02 AM
 the eighteen visions Don't add salt to the open wound cause it would hurt. What ever you said wouldn't change anything anyway. Yes, I bailed you out, and to you, I'm giving excuses. I said sorry, yet sorry isn't enough. It never was enough, was it? What is there to say, other than I was a disappointment. Met the noobies of SSC's BQT. I love them lah. They're like so funny. OK, only one or two but still, it's cool. Said (read: saaaa--aiddd or sa--iddd) had the cheek to say I was mental for laughing manically at BartenderGuy (I'm sorry, I really don't remember your name) though I never talked to him until today- cause I only know him today. Rouchen and I hit it off pretty well for my awesome Mandarin. Ever since I stole his seat, we became buddies. Yes, in a matter of hours of knowing each other, we're already at each other's throats. Other than that, BQT's staff are quite awesome. Ouh, Dai Wei the shuai ge (he called me cute, I have to credit him for that) has gotten very sociable. Maybe he's happier to have more MICs working there- I don't mean to be rude, but how else can I say it? There's a lot of movies I plan to catch this December, one being The Golden Compass. Jan, Shafiq, Zul, Megat, Faiz, WATCH WITH ME!!! And the other, is NARNIA. I want to hug Munchlax lahhhh. I miss you, I fucking miss you. and mark a place in time for every chance you took Friday, December 07, 2007, 2:53 PM
 Been 'partying' under my roof on alternate days now. But there wasn't any booze. Dammit.I feel like getting a booze. I haven't gotten any for months. wheee~~ I feel fucking horrible. I'll be scuttling off to work now. Heh. I miss you all lahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. Thursday, December 06, 2007, 2:21 AM
 Hello but goodbye I left. Don't ask me why. Don't even make me change my mind. I'm through. The reason to be there is lost. Cause I lost everything that I ever had. So what's new? I'm probably the only person to ever give in to situations I can't handle. Or maybe, I've handled enough. How much can I contain? Not much. I woke up this morning from a nightmare of you again. You were trying to hurt me. I knew you were. I never felt so terrified in my entire life. I'm too scared to sleep. Too scared to even come out my house. Cause I feel you watching me. You're evil. YOU ARE JUST SO EVIL. I hate you. now the rain is washing you out of my hair Monday, December 03, 2007, 11:43 PM
 To be consumed by overpowering fear, I pray for redemption. I don't want a saviour nor do I need deliverance. I just want... And there I go again. Speechless. For I don't know what is that I need. I'm searching for... Tsk, what am I even looking for? What is it that I lack? What is it that you say is missing in me? Cause only you know, yet you won't tell me. For once, this bothers me. cb , 1:13 AM
 Say you don't love, cause mine died so long ago. I've given up on this ever since you left me hanging from a thread. You left cause you said it hurts everytime I say that I love you to you. You got me out from this never ending circle though you're the one who was leading it. You got me to realise that love isn't supposed to hurt. I've concluded that I'm just a parasite, leeching everything that you've got, causing pain and grief. I'm just a weigh around your neck bringing you down every single fucking time. I'm through asking why and how you got hurt because of me. After so many years, I still care. I still got some humanity in me. I guess it's because we're so close, and I supposed it's natural for me to still care. However, I do feel that there is limitations. Cause now, I care and love you as much I'd care for my best friend, and probably nothing more than that. I am hungry. Very hungry. I think I'm underfed. Ok, that's a total lie cause I will have food every bleeding day of my life. I just forgot to again today. I was just too effing lazy to even eat or bathe(eh, I did bathe in the end ok.) I suppose this should be good for me, cause I'm so elefattttt. = OMFG! Cuteness!  SEXYSEXYSEXYSEXYSEXYSEXYSEXYSEXYSEXYSEXYSEXYSEXYSEXYSEXYSEXYSEXY SEXYSEXYSEXYSEXYSEXYSEXYSEXYSEXYSEXYSEXYSEXYSEXYSEXYSEXYSEXYSEXY SEXYSEXYSEXYSEXYSEXYSEXYSEXYSEXYSEXYSEXYSEXYSEXYSEXYSEXYSEXYSEXY SEXYSEXYSEXYSEXYSEXYSEXYSEXYSEXYSEXYSEXYSEXYSEXYSEXYSEXYSEXYSEXY SEXYSEXYSEXYSEXYSEXYSEXYSEXYSEXYSEXYSEXYSEXYSEXYSEXYSEXYSEXYSEXY SEXYSEXYSEXYSEXYSEXYSEXYSEXYSEXYSEXYSEXYSEXYSEXYSEXYSEXYSEXYSEXY SEXYSEXYSEXYSEXYSEXYSEXYSEXYSEXYSEXYSEXYSEXYSEXYSEXYSEXYSEXYSEXY SEXYSEXYSEXYSEXYSEXYSEXYSEXYSEXYSEXYSEXYSEXYSEXYSEXYSEXYSEXYSEXY SEXYSEXYSEXYSEXYSEXYSEXYSEXYSEXYSEXYSEXYSEXYSEXYSEXYSEXYSEXYSEXY SEXYSEXYSEXYSEXYSEXYSEXYSEXYSEXYSEXYSEXYSEXYSEXYSEXYSEXYSEXYSEXY SEXYSEXYSEXYSEXYSEXYSEXYSEXYSEXYSEXYSEXYSEXYSEXYSEXYSEXYSEXYSEXY SEXYSEXYSEXYSEXY I'm so boy crazy that I should be slapped. Rah. He's cute lah can. Omg, he is so cute that he should be stabbed. I saw this NVSS NPCC 2006 CD that they gave us for our dinner and dance. There were so many unglam photos. God, I totally want to burn the the cd literally. I WAS LIKE SO UGLY LA. And no, I'm not bold enough to upload my fugly photos here. And speaking of very unglam photos, HUA JIAMIN uploaded a bloody ugly photo of me and put it on her friendster. The woman caught me off guard and snap! There goes my social life. I hate you so much JM. You'll get analed by a pig. I swear on that JM; YOU'LL GET ANALED SO HARD BY A PIG. I want to kill my neighbours. They are playing Karoke at like 2.30 am at night. MUDDERFUCKLES. I miss you lah Munchlax cause the beauty of grace is what makes life not fair Sunday, December 02, 2007, 2:03 AM
It's December already. It's surprising as it's like as if it's yesterday that I knew JM from the orientation. It's like as if it's yesterday that I came to school, utterly lost with no old friends. Looking back, it's just interesting to how I got here.  I sometimes wished that I hadn't gotten close to anyone. I wished I had busied myself with other things like how I did last term when I had Magnum. I don't know why I wish that way, but getting close to ppl was never really my forte. Cause I fear that I'd lose them. Now that I've gotten them, the love, the fun, and all the laughther, I cannot imagine myself without them. God's amazing sometimes. Yeah, sometimes. Somebody told me(I think it's my mother actually) that find someone who loves you more than you love them. The irony is, what's love anyway? Cause I've seen love die way too many times. How much can you take and give away? HEROES IS ADDICTIVE. Lmao. praying for sovereignty |
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