A Story To Tell Your Friends

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i can keep a secret

if you can keep me guessing

the flavour of your lips

is enough to keep me pressing

currently listening cause this is “see you later,” I’m not into goodbyes
Behind These Masks We Renegade Create your own Friend Test here	Monday, March 31, 2008, 2:33 AM cause if you jump, i will jump too Greetings to the serene republic of the blogosphere. It is I, the incredibly awesome, a little above the average, sweet teenager who is about to starve herself to sleep after she's done penning her thoughts in this humble and ordinary site. LOL. Had my lunch/dinner with My Taufiq at Raffles Hospital's Banquet. The greatest boyfriend in the world promptly bought me Fish Porridge the moment we found a seat. Yes, the boy knows how to keep his woman. LMAO. Want some? Savouring. After which, we walked around at Bugis with Haqeem. My boyfriend had the mood to camwhore seh!!! That's how belo he is. I don't know how else to describe him. He's just that belo. I was trying so hard not to laugh. rofl. There is something in you that makes me believe that you are indeed the one for me. Maybe it's the way you longingly look at me every time, with your innocent eyes, or maybe it's how you hug me so tight and that you whisper in my ear that you'd never let me go. Perhaps it's the way you smell my hair the moment you lay your eyes on me and when you're about to leave. It could be the way you hold my hand, exactly to how I prefer it to be held. The simple things that you do to me that makes me fall in love with you every single day. To hate being away from you, even if it's just a second. To miss you whenever you're not here. To say I love you to you, and believing to what I've just said. There is no greater person than you, from where I stand. You are unlike any other, compared to all that I've met. You are incredibly perfect, in every sense. iloveyou we'd say, it was love Saturday, March 29, 2008, 8:55 PM that everything that I said and did, wasn't just deceiving How many of you actually log into www.wholivesnearyou.com? I login about once every week to check out their GARAGE SALE where they feature their blogshops. I mean, I like online shopping. It's really less of a hassle as everything you'd wanna find is a click away. Not that wholivesnearyou's GARAGE SALE is anything convenient compared to ebay, but it's just fine when I feel like browsing through different blogshop sites. Back to the main purpose of this entry. Ahem. The moment I log in, I would be flooded with tons of messages. Ok, I do read and reply to most of them, but I stop the moment they ask for my number or even my email add. I mean, it's only courtesy to acknowledge someone's salutation, right? However, many of a time, I do encounter really pervy ones like this, for example: For one: I'm really glad that you actually realise that you are old, Uncle Daniel. I mean, most men who are at their prime, such as yourself, live in absolute denial of being 37 or so. It's really relieving to know that you do see your sagging balls and crippled dick, resisting with all their might against the laws of gravity. However, Uncle Daniel, I really must emphasize that not all hot and sizzling 18-year-olds actually think of car rides, looking all posh and glam beside an old wrinkled fool such as yourself. Ah, Uncle Daniel, you flatter me. Really. However, there are hostesses and girls out there in the streets of Geylang waiting to be Sugardaddy-ed. There is a variation of size, age and race there. The best thing is that you can do EVERYTHING that you want to them, without any obligations as long as you keep the dough rolling. The things ppl do for sex. Tsk. Friday, March 28, 2008, 8:17 PM cause you shine brighter than anyone Entertaining really Had an interview at the YWCA. I assume I got the job since the boss said I would be getting my schedule by Friday. So, yes, I might be working for the Christians. LOL. Not that's anything bad. Not very bad at all, since I've been working for those Punjabis for already a year. However, I'd be still working at SSC, hopefully. My Taufiq offered me work at his place since I'm practically free on weekdays, which I waste with surfing the net, youtubing and of course slacking with my favourite few. I just recovered from a mild case of diarrhoea. To celebrate the very happy occasion of not passing out whatever I eat after every ten minutes, I ate a whole lot of indian food with My Taufiq last night. Notice that 'My Taufiq' has become the in thing. Okay, lame, but I'm so in love with the kid, I really can't help myself, can I? Anyway, the boy was late again yesterday. I got utterly pissed off that I refused to talk to him for like ten whole minutes. He gave the sick puppy dog eyes, an innocent pout to die for, a really big hug of which he could have suffocated me with all his exhaled air to which I inhaled and countless sorries sugar coated with kisses on the cheek. It might seem rather petty, however, to be late on every possible day and occasion there is, is rather a turn off. Really. I know boys would be yakking to how girls are always 'fashionably late', but that being alright. Here's the real deal. Girls take a while longer than their egotistic male counterparts for they have more hair on the head than most boys do, of which takes ages to dry up. Girls also have a choice to choose between a dress, a skirt, a tank top, shorts or a pair of jeans to look as gorgeous as they want, while boys can easily grab any shabby old tee, wash worn jeans and still look cool. Girls have make up to put on so that you retard boys would notice them. For the effort we put in to look great, it's only courtesy and respect to be on time. However, for me, it's not the amount of time I spend to look presentable, but it was the distance. Like for bleeding's sake, I live at the other end of the NE side of SG while he lives like six stops away from the mall. Yes, that bf of mine has to be cockslapped. :) I was having dinner today with Nadiah and Azmi at Plaza Singapura's Pizza Hut, savouring my Basil Crayfish Spaghetti when they casually announced that they are together. I felt my heart beat stop for like a nano second, before looking up at them, thinking they were pulling my leg. I didn't buy it. AT ALL. However, after looking at their blogs and some careful thinking, I feel happy for them. :) Very happy for them. Hehe. After Azmi left, Nadiah and I walked around a little bit as we waited for My Taufiq to finish work. Babykins had a 10 hour shift. He had that really worn out look across his face. I felt so bad for a moment cause I made him spend the whole night with me yesterday. However, I got over it as I was so happy to see him. He had this talcum smell which reminded me so much of babies. I was catching whiffs of him throughout the train ride. I. Am. Such. A. Sick. Pervert. Anyways, me and Nadiah took some wacky photos at Daiso. AMACIAM! I really couldn't believe that I did that. It's written all over my face. Anyways, Metalcore fans, listen up! Do come down. Awesome bands like Dying with Mary Jane and In Hatred and Gifted will be performing. I've yet to hear Dying with Mary Jane live, but after catching Josette's Of You, I reckon it would be an awesome performance; Muslihah was the former lead vocalist for Josette's. My dearest Chayaya cousin's ex boyfriend's band, Her Doink Dead Prada, will be there too. I'm not coming down since I've got work. No moneyyyyyyyy. T_T HATE MATS? PLAY THIS! http://happeepill.com/cartoons/p2p/p2pmat/mat.htm But I feel so alone today cause i miss my baby the love i've been missing for so long her loving keeps me moving on Thursday, March 27, 2008, 3:33 AM the sound of the new year saviour; pen on paper It's four am. I'm not having a writer's block for I'm perfectly certain of what to write down, only that my brain is shutting down slowly with every backspace I punch. I've just finished gorging my supper of pita bread and my prawn sthsth, which I made myself; i dumped to what I think is minced onions and garlic, grounded chilli, tomato ketchup, dried prawn paste and every other condiments that I saw into the frying pan- which tasted good by the way; and watching Big Daddy, starring The Great Adam Sandler. So awesome. That show inspired me to get my own kid, whether through adoption or my own. I'm getting a break for two days from JM cause I'd go mental if I were to continously work there everyday. However, I reckon that these two days would be just as hectic as the following days to come as I've got my poly application to do. Taufiq's the sweetest. :) I don't know how much more on that can I ever emphasize, neither will to describe how awfully nice a person he is in mere words would probably be an insult to my ever cute bf, cause those words are probably insatiable. I think that if this were to ever be a mistake, I surmise that it'd be the best one. Ok, to put it as a 'mistake' would be wrong and very subjective, but I'm just stating the negativity of it all, of which that I hope and wish and pray that would never happen, for I strongly believe that this is by far the best thing to ever happen to me. Ok, I do feel that I say that often, and I will dread looking back into the past entries to read which other insignificant soul could ever be compared to my Taufiq at the moment? Like, what the hell was I thinking? Wait, I never really think, do I? HAHAHA. You made me cry cause you said you love me when I told you that I'm not worthy of you. You're awesome, you really are. Cause those weren't tears of grief, but of joy so overwhelmed that to keep it in would be sin. Today, you asked if you were to be compared with Faiz(why him always huh? just cause it's four years?), who'd be better. I hesitated to answer not because I wasn't sure, I just felt that there was never a comparison to begin with. The most honest answer that I can give you that would probably not relate to the utterly redundant and probably rhetorical question, is that I love you more than I've ever loved anyone. I feel this love can be compared to a year's worth of a relationship cause it's not how long of a time you guys were together, it's how you treasure it together. Am I completely insane and naive to have said that? Maybe, but I'm as sure as hell that I love you to death. WATCH THIS. TICKLE ME EMO/ELMO There will be terror at the sight of this... She only knows how to stay awake in here Wednesday, March 26, 2008, 1:38 AM seindah sinaran mentari, seanggun sinaran rembulan Just got back from JM. Boring, really. However, I must admit, the gossips were really funny to hear. Really, to be the subject of ridicule and not knowing it, the idea, is hilarious. Like really, how can one not possibly know that they are mouthed about in every possible way? -_- And how can one be THAT stupid to allow a girl to drain his wallet everyday? For fuck, it's bleeding obvious the woman just wants you for your moolah. Gold digging biatch. It's not like I pay for every god damn thing whenever I'm out with my bf because my bf's a gentleman (LOL, WHAT THE FUCK, THAT IS SO CLICHE. THIS BLOG IS REALLY GOING TO THE DAWGS. READ MORE SITI!!!), but I have the decency to pay what I can. Urgh. Idiots. I've never mentioned that my boyfriend danced in a random 7-11 at Kovan, to a Hindi song, have I? Well, he did. MY GOD. IT WAS SO FUNNY. I laughed till my stomach hurts so bad. God, that was so unexpected. I'm so not used to his sudden outburst of humour. I swear, I've got a weak heart. I might just die of shock.This is why I love you; you make me fall in love with you every day. Babies are awesome! Very awesome! with every single word you say Tuesday, March 25, 2008, 7:12 AM But did you know, That when it snows, My eyes become large and the light that you shine can be seen Eye bags! Sigh. I've got work later at JM. After so long, I got to work there again. Not saying like it's a choice, an option, nor was I ever hesitant about it, I'M JUST TIRED LUHHH. Hahah. But I do need money. After not working for two weeks, thanks to the lack of events and my holiday in Malaysia and Indonesia, I'm flat out broke. I'M SERIOUS. I'm so broke that I owe Nadiah $2!!!! I hate owing cash; I practically never borrow. Finally, a very decent photo with my retarded-i-don't-know-how-to-pose-to-the-camera-boyfriend. It's trademark, B. Not many people can look like as if they're having constipation in every photo. LOL. JOKE. CUTE WHAT!!! Haqeem and Taufiq were comparing their sisters' personalities with their girlfriends'. I'm not sure how flattering is it to be compared like a living clone to B's sister, cause the way it was said was neither good nor bad. They've created this hypothesis of all boys would want to find a girlfriend (if they are not gay of course) who shares similar traits with either their mother or sister. SO SHAFIQ, WATCH OUT! I'm dying to see which sister your future gf would be like. I'm so laughing at that very thought, honestly. I mean, after the countless complains and bitching about your sisters' antics, I'M REALLY DYING TO SEE ANY UNCANNY RESEMBLANCE OF THEM AND YOUR FUTURE GF. Don't disappoint me, Shafiq. As in, don't turn out gay. HAHAHAHAH. It's creepy really; to be turning 18 in matter of weeks, and just before I know it, I would be like in my twenties. I don't think that I'd be mature enough after all these years of waiting to be an adult. Really. I mean, I'm still babied by my mother and my cousins, Azmi and Yunus, and mother has been very over-protective. And to think I'd be getting married, walking down the aisle, getting my own house, working, having babies- yikes- having to handle tax and what nots. Sigh. I don't really feel like growing up. Sunday, March 23, 2008, 4:10 PM kill me with words, forget about me; it's what i deserve Yes, updates, updates. I've been so busy lately. I'm guilty of spending all my money and all my time with B. Yes, I'm such a terrible friend. Finally, it's Sunday. I needed a breather from the whole lot that's been going on. And yes, I know I've been blogging every other day, but I felt I've been keeping tight-lipped about things; I'm planning to keep it that way. I'm sorry guys. Anyway, B's been really awesome =) MUST I REALLY SAY MORE? Watched BE KIND, REWIND with B yesterday. After that, I met up with my favourite few, Jan and Shafiq, along with Jan's cousin Kak Fidah. She's really funny lah. Hhaha. We chilled a while at Starbucks and then we headed to Kovan for some pool. Just to let you guys know, I suck so much at it that I wished I was never been born. HAHA. Then, I met up with B again, along with his cousins, Haqeem, FaizNur and Firdaus to play some bowling. I was so stressed about getting some pins knocked down that I kinda lost the whole idea of just having fun. Got pretty mental after being out for the whole day, so I fooled around with B and his cousins until the break of dawn. Meet Elmo. B bought it for me yesterday. Elmo's pretty naughty. He used my laptop to download porn.. He told me he watched hentai cause he likes exaggerated bestiality. And he's pretty gay too. He was caught messing with my eye make up. I'm suspecting that Elmo misses Cookie Monster a lot. So he got kinky with my Triangel. Well, you know I made that up. :) Please don't make it hard for any of us. Don't tell yourself you love me, cause I would choose to ignore the fact. Live in denial for what it's worth. smiles at your laughter, it's the only thing i've been waiting for Friday, March 21, 2008, 2:48 AM i like burger jokes CHERISH cher·ish –verb (used with object) 1. to hold or treat as dear; feel love for: to cherish one's native land. 2. to care for tenderly; nurture: to cherish a child. 3. to cling fondly or inveterately to: to cherish a memory. Not many of us know how to do that. We tend to forget that nothing is forever and we are never immortal. We take everyday mundane things, or routine doings for granted. Even people we see everyday. So babe, I'll hold on to you. I forced bf to take a picture with me. Cause I got bored camwhoring alone with his phone at Starbucks, while he and his cousin stone. After the pictures were taken, BF: Eeee. Don't want ah, delete. My face no nice. Me: BUT YOUR FACE LIKE THAT ALREADY! HOW TO CHANGE! hehe. I'm such a butch. LOL. You became the light on the dark side of me Wednesday, March 19, 2008, 7:30 PM the circle of life So, Mother didn't cook today. I have a feeling it's due to the late shift that she had yesterday. Poor her. She ordered pizza (why am I not surprised?) for our dinner, Hawaian and some weird crustacean filled one, which, mind you, is very messy to eat. Plus, it's got this acquired taste. I mean, there was shrimps, anchovies, squid slices, and probably tuna (for the fishy smell). Eating all that, with melted cheese and bread is just too overpowering for the tastebuds. Like, even a seafood lover like me, felt that was an overdose to the whole seafood pizza platter idea. For a friend I need a miracle cause I know miracles happen once in a while The most recent being him, the very person who makes me smile But today I ask, I beg and I pray Is for a miracle to save you, and protect you from harm's way The chances are slim, the future seems bleak The thought of you leaving us, makes me feel weak Maybe my thoughts are going stray And you may think I'm being very gay But trust me, my friend when I say, YOU OWN, AND YOU ROCK MY EVERY DAY! lol... AMUSE ME! PLEASE!! LIKE NOW! OUH FUCK YOU PEOPLE, I'LL AMUSE MYSELF! there: HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA Tuesday, March 18, 2008, 6:00 PM the four letters Alhamdulillah. after what seemed to be like 2 weeks, I'm thankful that you're okay. Now we shall wait and see, and with God's grace, what you went there for would be worth the while. :))) JANNATUN NAEM JANNATUN NAEM JANNATUN NAEM JANNATUN NAEM JANNATUN NAEM IS BACK!!!! why did you kiss me on the cheek the first day we met? i couldn't help it, i'm sorry. silence i know you were talking a lot that day, but i wasn't listening. I was busy staring at you. The very wishful birthday wishlist: 1: I did mention before that I lost my 1st Generation iPod Nano right? =( I have to have it. Or I'd go insanely bored in bus rides. Seriously, I love Apple's iPod Nano. I don't get it to why people would settle for the more ridiculously overpriced iTouch (yes, yes, YOUTUBE, SAFARI, TOUCHSCREEN- I get it) when you can buy the Nano, which is like, just about half the price(yes, and half the memory) and with Apple's signature click-wheel. Why does everyone else like the idea of touchscreen? Seriously? What is so cool about it? Fuck, it dirties the screen lah. And yes lah, iTouch is so tech freaky, with practically every possible function there is, but the reason to why I buy an mp4 player is to listen to music. And yes, my argument is obsolete. I'm such a loser. hahaa. 2: Ouh. There is no #2. I want an iPodnano for my fucking 18th birthday. that's all. cause im a happy kid. and i got no other wishes other than to die and go to heaven. LMAO OUH. THIS IS VERY VERY FUNNY. WATCH IT. Saturday, March 15, 2008, 1:43 AM am I who you think about in bed? Useless complains. No matter how much or how worthy of a complaint is by a part timer, it'd be obviously shrugged off. So, there. I will not dwell on it. I'm tired. Tired and very vulnerable at the moment. Don't ask why, but sometimes, there is this aching feeling that I'll soon lose everything that I'd never want to let go. That discontentment and anticipation of the worse to come. Drives me to tears with such paranoia. -EDIT S I realised that I have never shown PDA (public display of affection) ever with my previous bfs. Whenever I see couples liplocking- the guy practically eating the girl's face out- or hugging on the escalator, I'd find myself wishing for them to disappear and get a damn room. Now, I'm grossing out 5 year olds and being scorned by other single youths. i love you muhd taufiq. Thursday, March 13, 2008, 5:14 AM with the nicotine whisked in your breath, i kissed you I slept pretty early the previous day. I was dead tired from all the shopping I had at Bugis street with my sister. I bought a Supergirl Tee from DC, a staggering $33, mind you - for a tee shirt- a pair of shorts, two pairs of bras (how necessary was that info?), and yet another dress (it's gorgeous lah, I really cannot help it! I CAN'T. It was screaming,"BUY ME BITCH!"). My wardrobe's scaring me to death. And to think I've gotten rid all that I will not wear. It still seems bursting. I HAVE A FEELING MY MOTHER PUT BACK ALL THE CLOTHES THAT I'VE THROWN OUT LAH! Annoying. She was the one who told me to put them out. Yet she folds them or rather, chucks them back in. Why do mothers ALWAYS do that? Ok, that was really sidetracking. As I was saying, well, yes I bought yet another dress, for it was really thanks to my sister's evil psychopathic whispers. She kept stressing on the fact that I have tons of tees already (she emphasized on the many "boyfriend" prints) and that I should buy more bottoms instead. Sigh. Yes, I need more bottoms. Donate ah. I've been wearing my sister's bottoms most of the time. Heh. Drives her insane sometimes (but not as much as she drives me up the wall) when I wanna wear what she wants to on the same day. Anyway, when I bought my Supergirl tee, I was too lazy to try it on, and bought the an S size, which is the same size of my The Flash tee, without realizing that they are of a different cutting, thus, I struggled trying to don it on. It fits lah, however, I could feel all my tummy fat bulging out. Trying to take it out was another issue by itself. Now I've got to head back to Bugis to get an M. M for meaty. LMAO. B slept for the entire day. From a probable 4pm to 10pm. Got pretty pissed at him as I've been trying to reach him all day. I wanted to ask if he wanted anything. Melampau eh dier. And after that malay sentence I just typed out, I can imagine my best friend saying, "Ah, dah mula la dier, dengan keminah-minahan dier." Yes, Jan, I miss you lahhh. Come back lah. Your girlfriend and I miss you liao. Haha. I miss B a whole lot, but it's okay, cause I'll be watching a movie with him later in the afternoon. Finally, some alone time with him. Though I like the company of his family, it'd be nice to actually have some alone time together. B and his cousins had already invited me for a chalet in May, and a road trip in December. No pressure, Siti, no pressure. I'm just glad that I can pretty much get along with them. Anyway, my sister got her bf (I swear, I thought they broke up already?) a tee from Spade at a discount of 10%, thanks to my affiliation with Florence. Thanks Johnson. I will promise to look for Florence the next time I'm at Vivo. I've got no idea what has possessed my mother, she plans to hit the gym later this morning. She had asked my sister and I to join her as I've got experience with the gymming equipment. It'd be a sight, really. An aunty at a gym. Have I mentioned on how DREADFUL the weather has been? It's been raining all day, all night. If this were to continue, SG will no longer be able to support fragile and delicate species like me. I was close to freezing at Bugis, mind you. I was shivering a lot. My limbs were shaky and my teeth clattered. VERY COLD OKAY. I felt as if I was stripped naked and thrown into a freezer. I dreamt that the US will break into pieces - serves them right, those bitches- and that the world's oceans will soon drown us all. In panic, every one packed their bags to set off to our new world, Mars. I woke up feeling very frightened. Armageddon's so close and here we are, blogging and chatting, fucking, drinking, smoking, lazying, and bitching. tsk. I'm paranoid. I should really cut down on raving on how much I THINK my B is awesome(for I KNOW he is awesome- SEE THERE I GO AGAIN!), cause by now, it's getting very sickening to even read my own blog. If I wasn't me, I'd smash the computer screen and probably IM me to stop making such a frenzy out of it. Like, ok, you have a bf, like GOOD FOR YOU! So delirium lah. Meluat like that. LOOK! MALAY WORDS! IN THIS BLOG. I've gone mental. So okay, people get a little bit feverish about this whole bgr nonsense. But I reckon, I'm really over doing it. But of course, I've seen MUCH MUCH WORSE blog entries. I feel very hungry now. =( You're what make me smile when I'm tired Tuesday, March 11, 2008, 2:07 PM became as mad as rabbits Someone says Azmi is not a good debater. For fuck? Do check the link out and tell me on how out of point the 'debate' is. http://antiargue.wordpress.com/ For one, yes everyone is entitled to their own opinion. For fuck?!! Why the hell is movie being compared with a person. IT'S LIKE COMPARING ME WITH A STAPLER! A DRESS WITH A RULER. A BIRD WITH A PLUG! A CUP WITH A KEYBOARD! I'm sure you guys get the idea. Tsk. Damn brainless lah. I was taking a dunk (yeah, why the hell must I be so direct?) when I began thinking about Jan who is in Egypt right now. I felt really horrible all over again. My heart weighs so heavily thinking about it. Been reading, scaring myself, being all so negative and pessimistic. =( It's been only a day. And I'm already having so many cynical thoughts. Best friend, come back safe! I need my lepak kaki! Without you, poking fun at Shafiq will never be the same again. =( I'm feeling very weak these past few days. I'm getting dizzy spells and diarrhoea. I've got no appetite to eat though I swear, I'm famished. Urgh. Monday, March 10, 2008, 9:30 AM story of infinite last chances I doubt you'd be reading this by the time I'm done cause you'd already be away. The fact doesn't sadden me for you are going for a cause; it frightens me at the thought of you not coming back. Cause you said the chances are indefinite. Right now, it seems so bleak. Cause losing you would be losing my lepak kaki, my listening ear, my adviser, and of course my best friend. Best wishes, and my prayers would be with you. On a lighter note, the mother, sister and I went to eat at Sakura for dinner. My mother wanted to treat her pinoy friend and nephew. Had like a pretty scrumptious dinner I have to say. BUTTER PRAWNS AND TOM YAM SOUP = HAPPY SITI. B, ily for being there for me today. =) My bf's the nicest person I know by far. He doesn't get angry like, at all. I mean, so far. heh. Met up with B under his block after 12am cause I cannot resist meeting him, for I miss him like crazy. His sister, Lala and two cousins, Haqeem and FaizNur came down, and we had PRATA. Muahahha. Prata's a staple, I'm guessing. B eats a lot. And he chews very loudly. FaizNur is so amusing. I find her pretty cute actually. bleah. WHO CARES. I just want to rave about how madly in love I am with my B. HAHA. I carry your heart with me (I carry it in my heart) I am never without it (anywhere I go you go,my dear; and whatever is done by only me is your doing, my darling) I fear not fate (for you are my fate,my sweet) I want no world (for beautiful you are my world, my true) and it's you are whatever a moon has always meant and whatever a sun will always sing is you Here is the deepest secret nobody knows (here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud and the sky of the sky of a tree called life; which grows higher than soul can hope or mind can hide) and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart I carry your heart (I carry it in my heart) SOME FILLERS 1. In three words, explain yesterday: could be better 2. What made you smile today? My b! 3. What were u doing this morning at 8? lying in bed doing this 4. What were u doing 15 minutes ago? just reached home. 5. Something that happened to you in 1985? Nah. 6. Last thing someone said to you? bye I love you 7. What was your answer? I LOVE YOU TOO 8. Worst thing currently on television: If Noose was still on, that's probably it. But on TV mobile, it's probably My Sassy Neighbour. 9. What was in your e-mail today? Nuffnang, forwards and more forwards 10. How many different beverages have you drank today? two. 11. What is your favorite part of this day? Liplocking with B perhaps? LMAO! 12. Your current To-do list? Get into Tp Get money for the cruise this June Put my dirty laundry into the washing bin 13. Where is your best friend rightnow? ON THE FUCKING PLANE 14. What color is your toothbrush? pink 15. What are you wearing right now? CLOTHES 16. Any plans for Friday night? working 17. Least favorite place to shop. IP ZONE 18. Things you bought today? eye make up? but that was yesterday 19. Last gift you received? Muhd Taufiq Bin Rashid 20. Who gave you that? GOD 21. What made you sad today? Jan going away 22. What can make you happy? porn 23. Beauty is: everything but Michael Jackson 24. Describe your key chain: i don't have a key chain 25. Where do you keep ur change? your peehole perhaps? 26. Are you happy with your life? well, ya. 27. What are you thinking now? my growling stomach 28. People you trust the most? Jan, Mimi 29. What day is it today? MON 30. What are you going to do afterthis? sleep. hahaha k ty! i love those eyes :) Sunday, March 09, 2008, 10:45 AM Have you seen him? SO WHAT'S LOVE? 'When my grandmother got arthritis, she couldn't bend over and paint her toenails anymore. So my grandfather does it for her all the time, even when his hands got arthritis too. That's love.' Rebecca- age 8 'When someone loves you, the way they say your name is different. You just know that your name is safe in their mouth.' Billy - age 4 'Love is when a girl puts on perfume and a boy puts on shaving cologne and they go out and smell each other.' Karl - age 5 'Love is when you go out to eat and give somebody most of your French fries without making them give you any of theirs.' Chrissy - age 6 'Love is what makes you smile when you're tired.' Terri - age 4 'Love is when my mommy makes coffee for my daddy and she takes a sip before giving it to him, to make sure the taste is OK.' Danny - age 7 'Love is when you kiss all the time. Then when you get tired ofkissing, you still want to be together and you talk more. My Mommy andDaddy are like that. They look gross when they kiss' Emily - age 8 'Love is what's in the room with you at Christmas if you stop opening presents and listen.' Bobby - age 7 (Wow!) 'If you want to learn to love better, you should start with a friend who you hate,' Nikka - age 6 (we need a few million more Nikka's on this planet) 'Love is when you tell a guy you like his shirt, then he wears it everyday.' Noelle - age 7 'Love is like a little old woman and a little old man who are still friends even after they know each other so well.' Tommy - age 6 'During my piano recital, I was on a stage and I was scared. I lookedat all the people watching me and saw my daddy waving and smiling. He was the only one doing that. I wasn't scared anymore.' Cindy - age 8 'My mommy loves me more than anybody, You don't see anyone else kissing me to sleep at night.' Clare - age 6 'Love is when Mommy gives Daddy the best piece of chicken.' Elaine-age 5 'Love is when Mommy sees Daddy smelly and sweaty and still says he is handsomer than Robert Redford.' Chris - age 7 'Love is when your puppy licks your face even after you left him alone all day' Mary Ann - age 4 'I know my older sister loves me because she gives me all her old clothes and has to go out and buy new ones.' Lauren - age 4 'When you love somebody, your eyelashes go up and down and little stars come out of you.' (what an image) Karen - age 7 'Love is when Mommy sees Daddy on the toilet and she doesn't think it's gross.' Mark - age 6 'You really shouldn't say 'I love you' unless you mean it. But if you mean it, you should say it a lot. People forget.' Jessica - age 8 :) I had an awesome time yesterday bowling with my bf's aunt, uncle and cousins. Before meeting the aunt and uncle, his cousins, him and I played pool a little where I got trashed big time by bf, as none of my super Taiko moves actually happened. I was giggly okayyyyy. Bleah, excuses. I will play pool more often, I've got to. Aunty and bf taught me how to bowl (READ BITCHES: I AM SO COOL) as they wanted me to try out sth new and bowling is their weekend activity. I swear, Aunty and Uncle are pro lah. My wrist hurts now. Bf's the cutest, I swear to fucking god, he is so cute! While his uncle and aunt were around, he'd steal kisses on my cheek every chance he could. My god. I'm so... whatever. I'm loving this. =) Ouh yes, I rebonded my hair whilst at Batam a few days back. =DDD Batam was awesome by the way. The spa was very needed thank you very much. I got pretty shy undressing in front of the masseuse. She just smiled while I laughed nervously back at her. There was a part when she had to make circular motions on my breasts; I LAUGHED OUT LOUD. HAHA. And I don't wanna waste another moment of this. I swear, you make me fall in love. Yes, people fall in love. Thursday, March 06, 2008, 6:35 AM we watch the city come alive There seems to be a price for everything, even happiness. How materialistic this world can get? It's so cliche to say that money cannot buy you happiness, when in truth, money is what makes the damn world go round. If you're talking about the material things in life, like clothes, a car and what nots, then that's satisfaction to a certain extent. Probably there is a need for a balance for everything. For a simple SMS can make you smile. How easy it is to smitten a kitten like me. Pretty easy. I admit, I'm a simpleton, however, despite the fact I lack of many things for flawless I am not, I dare say, I'm pretty god damn amazing for I find it very alarming on how I manage to charm myself without fail everyday. HAHAHA. I surmise that how you start the day will determine how you end it. Thank you God, for I've started two days feeling pretty ecstatic. Nah, I don't quite get what I'm rambling about. I just know, I'm a happy kid. =D Well, Good Morning SG! Feels nice to breathe the fine morning air here. Got back 1.30am. It's Thursday and I'm getting ready to go for a half day trip to Batam for a Spa. Taufiq was saying that I can't seem to stay long in SG. Haha. He's got no idea on how long it's been since I stepped on to foreign ground. I do feel like complaining about my aunt's antics, but I guess I will just skip that since most of us would probably know what she's like. Her mouth has to be at constant movement. Whether chewing or nagging, it's gotta be moving. Every chance that she's got, that mouth's gotta move. I'm a patient person, I swear, but I do have limits. I've yet to blow for, yes, I'm that patient. I will now stop bad mouthing. For it is a sin. LMAO. sweet dreams that won't come true, i'd leave them all for you Wednesday, March 05, 2008, 2:32 AM and there's hearts all over the world tonight So here's a bit of life in KL; Went to a bar Sight see And ate at a semi fine dining restaurant So life's not that bad With the very little time I've got left here, I need to find stuff for my sister. it's really wtf lah to have only a hundred SGD at a metropolitan city. I mean, this is not Malacca where everything is pretty cheap. Things here, are quite a rip off honestly. I'm getting so fat. So fucking fat. My tummy. My arms. tsk. I MISS SG. I REALLLLYYY MISS SG. siti will promise to exercise when she reaches SG and go on a diet. you make me fall in love Monday, March 03, 2008, 6:52 AM I'll never spend a day without you in my head ONE DAY BY SINGLETRACKMIND An English adaptation to the Peter Pan's Mungkin Nanti Honestly, I love it though the original version was of course much better. his vocals are like bad, but the music is definitely awesome. How can it not be? IT'S PETER PAN. So, recap of 02/03. We'll keep it short and sweet. watched Death Note 3 again at 1240am. Headed to Boat Quay. Got into Jewel's Bar. Did the double Ds. I'm a happy 17 year old kid :) Slept at 1pm like a baby. Woke up at 730pm angry, dizzy and of course hungry. Packed my bag, gedebak-gedebuk, piangpiangpiang, I'm here in KL. Just when think you know someone, someone else comes over to tell you a certain detail; opinion or fact; of that someone, which after that totally shatters that little impression you had of them. I'm starting to wonder on how many people have been putting up this front? Our friendship has been a facade all along hasn't it? After like, what, bloody five months or so, the sweet and kind person I thought I knew, was never there to begin with. tsk, fucker. Ouh but then again, I do have fuckers for friends, great to know. I'm not available, for you to throw me back in to this hole Saturday, March 01, 2008, 8:09 AM for every day with you is the new best day of my life You know that very deranged feeling of being absolutely euphoric that you think that you cannot possibly contain it? I'm overwhelmed. I feel like smiling all day. Falling, falling, falling. Yes, I'm falling. Maybe. I'm quite enamoured. Thinking of ways to tell you without freaking you out. However, I love things just the way it is. Friends, it's so easy to be friends with you. Though I wish for more, I don't wanna ruin anything that is rather picture perfect between me and you right now. =) ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ Finally, I got my ass out of the North East side of the SG and headed to town. A breath of fresh air, to finally see civilisation. Watched L: Change The World, a prequel to the Death Note series. Pretty cool actually. No spoilers here, so go ahead and watch it. Three stars, I dare rate it. Thanks QiuHui for the movie and the food. You're a such a darl. Before we caught the film, I met Nadiah, who I really feel like breaking every bone in her body for splurging(AND SHE'S PROUD OF IT, MIND YOU) on a Zara leather jacket. I'm being realistic- or should I say, SAFE- here, is it really humanely possible to don a leather jacket in SG's torrid weather? I say no, but I'll see what Nadiah has to say about that. 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