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i can keep a secret

if you can keep me guessing

the flavour of your lips

is enough to keep me pressing

currently listening cause this is “see you later,” I’m not into goodbyes
Behind These Masks We Renegade Create your own Friend Test here	Monday, June 30, 2008, 11:58 AM etched with marks so I can feel -stares- Most of the time, I feel that I can never live without you. And other times, when I feel hollow and so very lonely and angry, I ask myself... Do I really need this? The things that changed. The things that you do. The things that I say. -stares- Saturday, June 28, 2008, 10:31 PM I'm guilty, but I'm safe for one more day FOOD AND FACIALS My boyfriend commented recently that I look so much thinner now, in a good way. (: ARE YOU BEING HONEST OR DO YOU JUST WANT TO GET LAID?! Anyway, other than my ever chubby perut, I do think I've lost a few kilograms, if not, milligrams- I'M SO POSITIVE. LOL. I suspect it's ever since I stayed over at Azmi's house, where I rarely eat proper big meals. Instead, I settled for snacks like hotdogs- trust me, Azmi's place is sausage paradise-, home made pizzas, and dark chocolate. I must emphasize on how much I find dark chocolate rather soothing to my body. The effect is immediate, especially after I got nagged by my aunt. I can actually feel my muscles relax and my calamities fade away. It's like sipping Camomile tea.... Ahhh. However, I was rather skeptical with what Taufiq had said, as I never thought that snacking my meals away would have a positive effect, until I read this: http://positivefitnessblog.com/category/lifestyle/healthyeating/ It so caught me by surprise cause things that you'd never thought was ever deemed healthy, like snacking and dark chocolates, were mentioned. This comes to show that one must never try too hard to get in shape. OR, my boyfriend is simply a fucking sick pervert who claims his love for my thighs. -_- Other than eating, I've been really particular about my skin now. Usually, I never really bother to use the creams and lotions that my aunt buys for me. I leave them lying around somewhere and before I know it, my sister and my mum would have slopped handfuls of them on their skin. However, I decided to take a little step towards skin care. CLEANSE, TONE AND MOISTURIZE. I swear, I usually cleanse just to remove my make up and other debris. I found it to be such a hassle. Today, I LOOK FORWARD TO THOSE THREE STEPS. I'M SUCH A GIRL! I even exfoliate on certain days... zzz.. I just want to be as pretty as you... lol. fuck you. Now that I eat healthy and do healthy, I must get rid of unhealthy habits, before it's too late. HAHA. LOL SHAFIQ! This was taken donkey days ago. SO CUTE KAN HE! I'll Maple now. (: You made me, you broke me, you saved me You're crazy, but I'm not done Friday, June 27, 2008, 12:08 AM 21 JUNE 2008 Engagement Of Faizal Mirza And Nur Syida GROOM TO BE BRIDE TO BE HANDSOME AND CUTE WAKILSZX SI MENTEL AND THE SISTER OF THE GROOM TO BE (: HAPPY BOY BOYFRIEND STEALER ^~~BOYFRIEND~~^ LIKE YOUR MUM THE WOMEN Okay, conscience cleared! Thursday, June 26, 2008, 2:18 AM :) Other than bragging rights for something that is really not worth bragging about, I really have nothing else to blog about other than for the fact that I miss my boyfriend a hell lot - GOD, I AM SO MINAH. LMAO- and that I really think my brother is being a quite menace to my other sister since I've been away. Yesterday afternoon, I managed to shop till I literally dropped. I was so racked out. Being in a superbly generous mood, my aunt decided that I do deserve a new bag after whimpering to her that I needed a new one. My pink Roxy duffel bag was not at it's prime condition after a year of using it almost everyday. After her constant insistence of asking me to get Kipling, Lacoste, and even CK, I settled for a rather sporty yet girlie number, by Paris Hilton. I swear, I loved it the moment I laid eyes on it. She then asked for suggestions on what to get for my sister for her up coming birthday. Knowing my sister being a tad bit more classy than girlie, I managed to persuade her to get her a really cute, yet, posh bag from Guess- if she hates it then, screw her! It was close to a 2xx bucks, how can you not like sth worth that kind of moolah. Both our bags almost amounted to a staggering $4XX. After dinner, we managed to psycho her into going to F21 at Wisma- I STRONGLY NOT RECOMMEND THAT BRANCH AT ALL, FOR THEY HAVE SALE ASSISTANTS WHO ROLL THEIR EYES AT YOU. BLOODY MINAHS. THE SKANK WAS SO IMPATIENT LAH. NB! I got a dress for myself and my sister. I am rather sure she'd love it. Cause I'm quite certain that I love it. MUAHAHAH. She would wear my stuff anyway, vice versa(Ouh, btw Fatyn, my very cute bf noticed that you are wearing my clothes, so prominently displayed in your blog. I heavily emphasize on the one very one that he bought for me. Pandai2 lah kau take the hint lah eh. kthnxbyeily). That two, plus a few more insignificant pieces that I chose on impulse, amounted to a whooping $1xx. I feel so bad now. HAHA. FUCK YOU, NO! i want. ouh ya! I bumped into Fab!!! So handsome seh Fab now. Lol, why I keep using seh and per in my daily conversations now a days? fuck you, Taufiq babykins! YOU MELAYUFIED ME. K JOKE. you know I love you. (: Tuesday, June 24, 2008, 4:18 AM counting lies Promises. I bet you laugh deep inside whenever you swear that you'd do something that you eventually won't do. You'd do anything just to keep me here. Maybe lie, cheat and steal. You suddenly come to realise how easy it is to convince me to stay. Twist the facts here and there, and add saccharine to your lips and press them against mine. So fucking easy. Perhaps I should have stuck to Plan A of letting you be. I shan't make you somebody you are not. It irks the shit out of you anyway. Be whoever you wanna be, and I choose who I wanna be with. summer stars never seems so dull tonight. Perhaps tears blinded their shining light. Monday, June 23, 2008, 2:48 AM To you: I suppose the thing I love about you is the sparkle in your eyes which oozes sincerity and child-like wonder. I don't know what you see in me, for I'm utter rubbish that you happen to trip and fall for. Saturday, June 21, 2008, 9:55 PM nobody I enjoy lying in the blankets with you, talking about our past and probable future lives. How it was, and how it could be. With each thought of the many possibilities that scares us, it is comforting to hold you immediately, just to assure and lie to ourselves that it'd be easy just as long as we're there for each other. It's so nice to bask in denial, and to savour that momental bliss. Really. I like making fun of Shafiq for his keleng descendants. Lol. Keleng descendants. And that is not a racial slur. Come to think of it, I'm wondering how did the nicknames for certain races came about. Like 'Keleng' for the Indians, and 'Mat Saleh' or 'Ang Moh' for the Caucasians. hmmmmm... (: I like my life. It's great. You'd envy me if you met me. You'd so wanna be me. Okay, that's a lie. Only Taufiq does. HAHAHA. LOSER. Ily though. Have a great day at school my lovelies. (: Do give me a wake up call after school. Cause I might still be asleep then. And to all Singapore Poly students like my boyfriend and his friends, Wendy and Eeyin- yes, I do remember you guys- happy mugging. Rofl. I'll post some photos of Faizal Mirza's engagement soon. Yes. My cousin is so blessed with such a nice name. So Faiz, please send them photos, a.s.a.p. [: Friday, June 20, 2008, 3:03 AM love songs At this very moment, I'm gossiping with my boyfriend about our acquaintances who happen to be in a relationship together. Just when I thought the world could not possibly get any smaller, it did. It's so scary that my boyfriend's social circle are somewhat interrelated to mine. I'm into Malay/Indon songs at the moment, thanks to Razin's influence. My current obsession : I can't seem to get the tempo right for this song. Such a beautiful song. :( Wednesday, June 18, 2008, 9:33 PM about a girl(s) With the recent hormonal changes, I was rather out of character. I felt every possible emotion there is in a day. I swear, my heartbeat was at a unhealthy range. Urgh. I feel terrible for letting it out, however, I would feel so fidgety and discontented if I hadn't. Everything annoys me. Even my room- so swept it, vacuumed it, move the things about a bit and mopped it. It got me thinking that if I were to get my own house, I'd probably clean it every once a month, since only a month would I have that drive to want to do so. I hadn't had much sleep lately either. The late night Mapling and the crack of dawn meetings with my boyfriend/friends are to be blamed. I LOVE MY BF :) bABY, we need to take more peekchers!!! I'm jabbering. So excuse me, while I kiss the sky. Monday, June 16, 2008, 4:03 AM ;D I miss my handsome burger.... ... ............. . ................... ........ ............. Baby, I miss you. Hi, annoying people of this space. I would love to share with you my many complains about how certain people blog. Not only will I tell it, I would also, demonstrate it so that you'd know how I feel every time I read your sorry ass blog: I WISH THAT PEOPLE WOULD NOT BLOG IN 12 DIFFERENT COLOURS AFTER EVERY LINE OR PARAGRAPH. AND TO BOLD OR ITALIC THE WORDS UNNECESSARILY IN THE SENTENCE. IT IS SO PAINFUL FOR THE EYES. AND I HATE IT WHEN YOU PEOPLE TOGGLE-(sTh lIkE tHiS, bRaInLeSs BuFfoOns) YOUR WORDS. FUCK YOU, YOU CRAZY BITCHES! ISN'T IT TIRING?? And don't lolzspeak! KNNCCB. YOU WANT TO DO THAT ON MSN, BY ALL MEANS, YOU CRAZY SICK SON OF A BITCHES! BUT I REALLY CANNOT TOLERATE IT WHEN YOU LOLSPEAK IN AN ENTIRE PARAGRAPH LIKE THAT: I did soem layouting 2 da video page, hope u all liek its! :D soem of dem vids don't work anymoar, so to the poster of these; plz refresh teh vids or delete teh broken links 2 Youtubez. So, com taek a look an add your commentz. FUCK, ARE YOU MENTAL? Only 13 year olds think that this is cool. Anyway, I met Zeek today. Wheehehe. Same old, same old. I'm so in love with his childlike wonder. He never cease to amuse me with his random ramblings of whatever and whenever. I miss him now already. I do hope he swings by again to his grandmother's next week. And hopefully, I'd be at home. Or else, we'd meet again, after another 6 months or so. I would like to start my lip balm collection :D -dances in circles- FUCK, NOT LIP ICE, YOU CHEAP SKATE LOSERS! Tasty, yummy, sugary, lip balms :) Taufiq loves em... On me. -giggles and jumps- On another note, I've started playing Maple. And yes, I was lost. I suck so bad. Fuck, I suck at Neopets, now I suck at Maple, the only game that I once believe to be impossible to suck at. 160608 HAPPY BIRTHDAY TAN MOHD FAIZ & 170608 HAPPY BIRTHDAY RAZIN Shafiq, your turn soon :) Jan, biler mau game, Jan? hehe. Sunday, June 15, 2008, 3:04 AM for better for worse this love must be cursed I'm so bloated up right now. Pffttt. And Snow Patrol's You're All I have is on constant replay in my head. It's one of those songs that gets me in a daydream where everything is in black and white, involving a boy and a girl, with occasional fairies flitting by leaving trails of fairy dusts. Lol. I've come to terms with the fact that I'm totally in love with you. However, I secretly desire that you'd be a lesser part of my life. It's not that I love you any lesser, as that would totally contradict my opening statement, in declaration on how much I adore you. It's because right now, I am having troubles with continuing my life, without having you by my side. It's so weird that I feel this way as I do think you can function fully without having me around. I feel less whole not having you around. It's like I am half the person I am if I don't have you and that I need you to make me feel complete. Maybe I've adapted or I've grown so attached to you that I subconsciously think that you practically grow on me like an extra limb or my favourite talking shadow. I realise that if you went back home, and I went back to mine, I'd feel sad and I'd drown my sorrows with the likes of American cartoons like Family Guy or The Simpsons. I can never suppress my overwhelming joy whenever I hear my telephone ring, in hopes it'd be you on the other line, which is how it usually is. I think of you and it drives me rather deranged to the point that I have to entertain myself in other means other than blogging. I've realised that every fucking post is about you, or you'd come into the picture; not that I don't want people to know of your existence nor am I ashamed of anything that we've did together on our practically daily outings, it's just that I do feel that I mustn't or I'll be just like every other girl blogger there is. Yes, it's true that there is nothing wrong being mentally in love with someone, but I would never want to think as myself as someone who can never do without my bf. Yes, it's true that I am very lucky to have you with me almost everyday, even if it's only for a few hours. Other girls would die to be invited warmly into their bf's house by his mother or to their family gatherings. And I thank you for that. I'm not saying that we should spend less time together for I do think I'll go bonkers and text you endlessly. I'm just jabbering about how I feel and how useless and insignificant I am to the world without you. AND THAT, MUHD TAUFIQ BIN RASHID, is how much I love you. So don't go about yakking to me on how I don't love you anymore cause I always make fun of you and the occasional ego bruising comments. AND YES, I STILL LOVE YOU EVEN THOUGH YOU LAUGHED AT ME (YOU LAUGHED AT ME!!!NB) WHEN I TOLD YOUR TEACHER SISTER THAT SAKURA IS CHERRY BLOSSOM, THINKING THAT WHAT I SAID IS WRONG, UNTIL HER SCIENTIST OF A HUSBAND ASSURED ME THAT I WAS RIGHT, AND THUS HUMILIATING YOU (YOU LAUGHED AT ME!!! NB! FOR STH THAT IS RIGHT! KNNCCB -_-). I miss the twins. BADLY... Something about her. I hate the way you wake me up every afternoon just to ask me to eat. You'd either use the keys or knock on the door endlessly. I hate it when protect the bad, spoilt and rotten. I hate it when you defend the good and innocent. I hate it when you tell me to wear this and not that. I hate it when you say my make up's bad. I hate it when you tell me to exercise everyday. And I hate it that you mispronounce my boyfriend's name. I hate it when you cook, but I hate it more when you don't. I hate it when everything I do is wrong, and I hate it more when you're right. I hate it when you get on my nerves, and that happens practically all the time. I hate it that I owe you my life and I know I can't repay. I hate it when you tell me to use my money, but I hate it more when you pay. What I hate most is knowing I can't imagine what it's like without you, someone whom I'd tell people, "I hate....". How ironic is that? checkmate, almost lover, CHECKMATE. Friday, June 13, 2008, 12:44 AM For Kucinta With You was the song that I was raving about when I first IMed you. You and Me was the first song you asked me to sing to you. You kissed me after that. Grow Old With You was the first song you sang to me. I teared after that. All My Loving is the song I hear when I miss you. And I still miss you after that. :) Wednesday, June 11, 2008, 8:58 PM chokesondick I've photographs to upload, a whole bunch of stories to tell, a funny dream to share, and an inside joke that cracks me up in the insides. ;) Denvers cheerleading training was alright :) ALRIGHT :D Taufiq's trying to find all the flaws of me going into sth like cheerleading. He's rather against it for some reason. Aww, baby, I won't get hurt, I promise :) This will mark the third day of silence with my brother. I'm so fucking pissed with him that I wished that he'd grow a brain or two. He's having this jealousy thing ever since the twins have taken a liking for me. Like fuck, I'm supposed to like kick the two pests away or sth? One sticks to me and that becomes my fault. My brother now think and claims that I've never ever given him any attention which is of course A FOUR FUCK LIE, YOU LITTLE UNGRATEFUL SWAG! I've always asked about his homework, woke him up for school sometimes, send him to the bus stop, send him to school if he feels like it, but NO, THE LITTLE PEST thinks otherwise!! I don't give my fullest attention to him for that two days gives him to conclude brilliantly of not loving him any more lah?!! I want to burn his face! Jealousy is the cousin of greed. Yes it is! I want long, long hair. It's been months since I've last had a cut. Must resist. long princess hair..... LOL Sunday, June 08, 2008, 12:49 AM What I like about you! I'm an official convert of the one-too-many-times-used cliches; or perhaps, I've always been, only to never admitting it. Fool! Urgh!!! TAUFIQ. IS. SO. SWEET!!! 060608 ROSES-ahem, 3 stalks to be exact, a huge red ones, and two pink buds- He bought them just to surprise me on our 3rd month. For the first time, I was really caught off guard. Alright, I have to credit him for the watch for my birthday, so this shall be the 2nd time he had me utterly... Well, HE HAD ME. I AM SO HAPPY THAT I CANNOT CONTAIN IT. MUST SMILE... =) On the contrary, I must tell you on how over rated Papa Bread's cream puffs are. We had them while chilling at Starbucks before heading home. Looks are deceiving, mind you. yes, it's always more disappointing when it comes to our taste buds. Like seriously, they do look mouth watering. I swear, I must have been salivating while I was in the queue. Cannot possibly imagine how grotesque I must have looked. Hypocrisy (or the state of being a hypocrite) is the act of preaching a certain belief or way of life, but not, in fact, holding these same virtues oneself. Did you know that it's really tiring to hear the same old thing again and again? And knowing that after all these years, you have not changed a little bit? And you wonder why you don't have any true friends. At least have some integrity. Don't blame others for the mistakes you've made. -shabelongsto.bs The only reason why I'm quoting this is that it reminds of me sth so hilarious that I almost peed thinking about it. It all points down to the irony of every thing and everyone. Like what is being said on Harold and Kumar 2: EVERYONE'S A HYPOCRITE. Do you like getting blowjobs? But do you like giving blowjobs? See. Aren't you a hypocrite. I've lost my passport. I've made it official. I've even checked under my bed. I'm depressed. I MIGHT NOT BE ABLE TO GO FOR THE CRUISE BECAUSE OF IT. NB!! And I'm in such a foul mood for I'm having this never ending toothache. I need to see a dentist soon. Soon. SEJA @ COSPLAY EVENT; chinatown. 070608 FAIZ JUST LOOKS SO WRONG IN THAT HAIR. Muahah. Fight scene My kuzin iz kewl. BUT WHY SANDALS? burok. http://sgcafe.com/showthread.php?t=50230 More pictures of Abg Iwan's wedding tomorrow or the next day. K BYE Friday, June 06, 2008, 9:28 AM a frightening magic, I cling to HAPPY 3MONTHS ANNIVERSARY BABY!!! lol There is something in your smile that tells me that you're worth while. There is something in your kiss that makes me miss. There is something in your eyes that shines so bright. There is something in you, that makes me feel alright. There is something in the way you sing to me before I sleep. There is something in the way you laugh that gets me so warm. There is something in the way you love that makes me believe. There is just something about you, love, that makes me feel complete. I feel sick =( As powerful as the blade, and as gentle as the mist, The beginning and end of all that is. Tuesday, June 03, 2008, 11:49 PM tickle me silly There's just one person out there who is genetically perfectly created for us. They don't have to be the very person you're seeing or the one you are married to. In fact, you may have never met them. A passing stranger or your best friend who you wish to never get involved with. And I do think I've ever touched on this issue, and yet I'm bringing it up again thanks to watching Cinta Tiga Musim for the 100th time. And it's only after the 100th time, do I realise the minor flaws of this soap opera. I'm dying to watch Ayat-ayat Cinta, though. Read really great reviews about the movie. I've made up my mind that I'll be joining the Denvers Cheerleaders since I'm practically out of NP. It seems to fit my schedule though. It's so fucking unfortunate that they have training every tuesdays and fridays for I've school on just those two days. I suppose I have to sacrifice my Saturdays for their training. I haven't contacted Harlis though. Damn you bitch ass M1! I miss cheerleading. I don't know why I'm all so rara when it comes to cheerleading. Btw, I miss Magnum Force. A lot. It's getting to me so bad... I miss the now ex captain, Emily. She's like so cool. And I miss my buddy as well. SUE!!! Not to mention all the bus 74 mates. I hate myself nowszxx =( Its funny how hello is always accompanied with good-bye It's funny how remembering good memories can make you cry It's funny how forever never seems to really last It's funny how much you'd lose if you forgot your past It's funny how friends can just leave you when you're down It's funny how when you need someone they're never around It's funny how people can change and think they're so much better It's funny how many lies can be packed into one love letter It's funny how people can forgive even though they cant forget It's funny how one night can contain so much regret It's funny how crazy and ironic life turns out to be but the funniest part of all is that none of that seems funny to me -Heather Noble Secondary school girls these days. I cannot stand it when they stare at my boyfriend. They'd point and giggle. Hello, I'm invisible perhaps? Or do you have selective seeing? But I hate it more when they stare at me. I even had a primary school girl practically rolling her eyeballs out at me when I'm with my bf. You skanky little whore. I'll kill you! I know of your filthy intentions of stealing my boyfriend when you actually grow breasts and you'd sluttishly flaunt them at him.- and yes, I do have a hell of an imagination. Ouh, and all these, happens at Pasir Ris. Pigs, slutty, slutty pigs. There's only one thing that I hate more than the fact that I hate secondary school girls; It's secondary school groupie girls. They're nauseating. Their obsession is for a band or a singer is just really...... fuck, i can't even come up with a word to even describe how disgusted I am with secondary school girls. Ahem, I mean, secondary school groupie girls. Those crazy bitches would fucking stalk these singers if they could. As if these people are their sole reason for survival. I've even googled the name of a local child celeb. I wanted to die of repulsion. They have tons of photos of them tailing these people mindless. I'll digress now. hehe I'm rather pissed off that the jackets that I've ordered have yet to arrive on SG's shores yet. I'm so tempted to tell the seller to suckadickanddie, but I shall be patient. I mean, I've waited a month already, I'm so sure I can wait another week or so. Frankly, the only reason that allows me to wait a while longer is that I think that she's really rather nice to me, except that she's kinda Lian in her emails. I'm stressed. I need to buy more clothes in spite of the fact that my closet can hardly contain anything anymore. Note to self: Clean your room. It could be infested by fungi by now. Clear out your closet again! Just keep the clothes that you'd wear. You need new bags for school. Seriously. I secretly think that everyone has obsessive-compulsive disorder. let's kill everyone Sunday, June 01, 2008, 1:49 PM suicidal I think most of my BME friends prefer Nadiah to me. Ouh well. I feel silly all of a sudden. Though I know it is true. And I hate my mother. Bitch. Urgh. Nah, I'm the bitch. Perhaps it's just one of those days where I wish that someone would just take a gun to my head and just blow my brains out. Seven years eh, pretty baby? So easy to say. Gambit and Rogue of X-Men are really cool. I like them both, don't you? I'm hungry. kbye		saintjuliet sitihamidah mail me: CHEERDANCEFLY@GMAIL.COM 010590		theparade alya azmi hadzah yunus jan wendy liyana michael clarence nadiah khairul anshar towkoon hakim harlis pamela sohvil ashley koh beforetoday + Siti/Hammy/Chitty/Cheetszxxz/Santi/Hamster has mov... + whatever. bleargh. I sincerely wish, for the sa... + Meet my cousin's new born baby! 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