A Story To Tell Your Friends

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i can keep a secret

if you can keep me guessing

the flavour of your lips

is enough to keep me pressing

currently listening cause this is “see you later,” I’m not into goodbyes
Behind These Masks We Renegade Create your own Friend Test here	Friday, October 31, 2008, 10:21 PM i'll layer my chest with concrete to set my heart stone cold you could have torn my heart, shatter my dreams puncture my lungs, so I can't scream you could have said, I'm sorry but it couldn't go on this way, It wouldn't be right to stay you could have left, leave me in the cold, and let me break myself apart with my bare hands but you didn't whatever it takes, i will be there, climb the mountains so high soar the skies and the stars swim every ocean and swing from tree to tree, i might fall and crumble against the stone, drown and drain into the sea, whatever it takes.... I am dying to go jamming. Or should I say, lepak sessions with an acoustic guitar, where we busk at Punggol Town. I still remembered the uncle who approached us and said he was rather impressed with Razin's playing and my vox after watching us practice Three Cheers For Five Years. being a rocker himself back in his youth, he encouraged us to just play with our hearts. I firmly believe, with passion and commitment, the music inside us will never die. how delusional can you be siti! rofl. NGEHHHHHHH YAY, NEW SKIN! Thursday, October 30, 2008, 11:47 PM if anyone cared i don't need excess baggage in my life. Ouh. I splurged on a hoodie online (: I <3 THE DETAIL! AND I'M BROKE NOW. Costed 105 SGD! So much for recession. Tuesday, October 28, 2008, 4:53 PM OMFG! I CANNOT BELIEVE MY NATE 'IN-SHINING ARMOUR' ARCHIBALD IS SNOGGING JENNY HUMPHREY. ): I HATE GOSSIP GIRL! It's the same feeling I had when Harry Potter started having feelings for Ginny Weasley. Nauseating. ): kbye , 2:50 AM go vertigo! Hello (: I've been so busy living my life that I haven't had any proper updates other than giving you people a sneak peak of the world through my eyes. Our little Motley Crew, along with Baby, Afir, and Haqeem dropped by the little lanes of Arab Streets for good old sheesha. I swear, the gentle scent of cherry and passion fruit still lingers at my fingertips still. Razin's virgin puff, or not? Hmmm? My favourite pair. The best boyfriend in the world. The mf. Happiness Cynde He won't shut up. My bestfriend :D Jums and Haqeem Finally, proper chairs. Unwind (: I was happy. Joke of the day. Razin to stranger: You sing? Stranger to Razin: No, I'm malay. ROFL. Bottomline, it was a blast. Btw, HAS ANYBODY TRIED MINERAL MAKE-UP? I've ordered Mineral Loose Powder from Amway through my cousin. However, I don't know how to apply it as I think that Mineral Make-Up brushes differ slightly from their artificial counterparts, if that's what you call non-mineral make-up. Plus, I don't know what's the benefits of using mineral make up other than the fact it does not cause clogs and it is made from 100% natural mineral earthy ingredients- like soil? LOL. JOKE. Back me down from backing up Hold your breath now it's stacking up Etched with marks, but I can deal And you're the problem and you can't feel Try this on, straitjacket feeling so maybe I won't be alone Take back now, my life you're stealing hello Straightjacket, you'd keep me warm even if it's only on the outside. Happy Diwali everyone. Monday, October 27, 2008, 1:26 AM Celebrate, the music is great Thanks Kenrick for getting the cake and helping me out with the contacts. Without you, the celebration wouldn't have been the same. Thanks all for coming down to the heartlands of Punggol. Jan's CS friends and the sec school buddies. The song. Cake cutting JAN GOT CREAMED! Shafiq doesn't smoke. He puts cigarettes in his nostrils and nothing more than that. REALLY. From our usual lepak place, we headed to Compass Point where Jan was bullied into taking the very expensive kiddy ride, at B1. We had our dinner at Pizza Hut. Where I ate just one slice of pizza. ): I was and am still, having the flu. A really bad case of flu to be exact. Credits to Adam for making dinner possible. Razin's dessert. I'm happy that everything went fine. Phew. I always had thought the only flaw to the plan was that Jan were to not turn up at all. SHEESHA TOMORROW! WHEEE! Sunday, October 26, 2008, 9:23 AM Gossip Girl So who hasn't jumped into the bandwagon with the rest of us telly dorks, to catch Gossip Girl every Monday? No, we don't need to read the books to truly understand the adolescent mind; THE TV SERIES IS MUCH BETTER- and fuck, no way will I imagine good old Dan Humphrey being gay, as what is published in the books. Though I wished that life was as exciting as GG, I would never want to imagine my boyfriend sleeping with my bestfriend, and then having him bankrupt and allow him to see a hippie chick. However, I cannot deny the rivalry between S and B, is anything exaggerated. I totally can see me, being all Blair, and Naddie, all sunshine sweet Serena, getting it on in front of some ulu playground near her house. Yes, I'm not a fan B, for I find her so anal; an exact replica of me, though I'm less manipulative of course. Honestly, I think every girl is a B inside. I'm sure everyone is insecure and hates to be outshone. Chuck would be a great friend to have, though his promiscuity and high libido scares me very much. All these, contributes to what a show GG is, therefore, somebody please write to them writers and innocently ask, why why why B is falling for C, why D and S refuse to talk about things; I SWEAR, THEIR ISSUES AREN'T AS COMPLICATED AS THEY THINK!; why N likes boho chick, why boho chick is even there, is B still bulimic, are there some unsettled business between S and N; i swear, i thought there was somewhere in the 2nd season's first few episodes. If GG, were to end up like all the American shows, like Prison Break, One Tree Hill, and the O.C, I wouldn't be very happy. REALLY, I'D HATE IT. Too many plots, too many episodes; there has got to be an end to every beginning! p.s, I find J annoying and anorexic. rofl. HAPPY BIRTHDAY JANNATUN NAEM!!!! <3 edit- ): ninjavideos.net got me emo cause the videos won't play. surfthechannel lags like crazy. friendster.com made me even more emo cause i read sth from someone. and finally, got ugly photos of me uploaded in facebook, emo. k im going to bathe and get ready to meet jan! WOOOTZZ. Saturday, October 25, 2008, 7:31 AM these insinuating thoughts I don't know what you are thinking half the time. Perhaps you barely ever express your emotions into concrete words that I can actually understand. How am I to react when you tell me that you love me so much, and tear yourself apart like as if I don't feel the same way. I love you. Btw, I slogged for a few minutes-on my bum- just to photoshop a new picture for the intro page of the blog. I DIDN'T KNOW WTF I WAS DOING! Click, drag, lol here, and there, liquify here and there, blur blur, rofl. You can see it when you first go on to this site before clicking the links on top. (: Friday, October 24, 2008, 12:35 PM fingerprints sold me out I'll be awake and kicking at the break of dawn these days. It's a much more desirable habit as I can now see my father awake and lively-if not, he'd be off to work by the time I usually wake up; 3pm?- and my mother can no longer think I'm depressed. Out of impulse and for the sake of having something warm later for class, I bought, yet another hoodie. This one's from Peninsula. So cheap that I feel like a slut. ROFL. I feel like getting a matching pair for me and my boyfriend from TM! My boyfriend and Shaffiq is so vogue mansx. (: ZOMG, FUCKING CUTE. The day before, met Nadiah for some gossip girl 101! And nad, Zaakee is a such a loser. Please throw him away. ROFL. OKAY, SO THIS IS A VERY BORING POST- i know! I just got nothing to do but slack and waste $$$. I WISH I HAD YOUR LIFE OF SCHOOL, O/A LEVELS, AND BEING BROKE, not. KTHNXBYE Wednesday, October 22, 2008, 5:02 AM Yesterday, I lie down on bed, restless, my brain on overload, trying to slowly process the most deviously thought out plan ever to exist. It was genius, foolproof. Strangely alarming, yet, not surprising. The lengths one went through just to patch an open wound. I managed to crack the code. Oddly enough, it had to be the second time. It's not the matter of how many times someone lied. Cause everyone has a reason to do so. A little secret they glorify just for themselves. It's the matter of how much of the truth was there to begin with to base a friendship built upon layers of concrete. Now I shall ponder: Who can I proudly claim,"I know you". No, I am not angry, nor would my level of trust in you would be affected. No, no. Cause I believe there is a good side to you. Cause you are a great friend, one of my best friends, in fact. And if you feel broken and torn, and even if you don't believe that friends would be by your side in your days of misery and torture, you know we'd be there for you if we can, for we are just a phonecall away. Tuesday, October 21, 2008, 3:00 AM safe inside myself I've only been a psych student for a while now, and I already put people into my imaginary little box, where I 'judge' them and 'predict' on their next possible moves. Though I am flawed and I've been wronged few times, I'm getting pretty good. The little puzzles pieces, seemed all gibberish until I try to put them together and form the invisible link. I don't read your minds, thank you very much. Every little action and word people do/say tells them a lot about themselves, and their motives. There is always a motive behind every damn word people say; how it's phrased, the verbs, adjectives, blah, blah. After saying all this, I only have just one thing to say, and that is I know you want something out of me, cause there is no one else. just ask for it, but take back your smile; i don't need it. I want you to know, with everything I won't let this go. These words are my heart and soul, I'll hold on to this moment you know. As I bleed my heart out to show, and I won't let go. Note to self: never be little Miss Nancy Drew ever again. . Monday, October 20, 2008, 5:41 AM cause we're all brighter than stars There's a few reason to why I adore Chace Crawford, other than the fact that he is simply gorgeous. For one, he has the most amazing eyes. I can just DIE, into them. Secondly, he has awesome hair, that can be ruffled in every way possible but to fall perfectly back in place. Also, let's not forget about how nice it would be to kiss his lips. His killer abs and biceps are totally secondary with a face like that. Lastly, he's a perfect candidate for the Ken doll, if Barbie ever needs a new boyfriend. Seriously, he's made for girls, and I would seriously, be the unhappiest girl in the world if I were to ever find out if he turned out gay like Clay Aiken. Rumours of Utt being gay, has never been confirmed by anyone. If it was true, I'd be quite devastated, and I'd probably hide myself in the fridge for days, to eat myself to death. My boyfriend has passed his Basic Theory Test for his bike license. I'm so proud that he managed to do it in one sitting. (: I'm beginning to feel very very uneasy about him getting a license. Honestly, I'm freaking out. Really freaking out. And just in case you were wondering, Chace Crawford's my imaginary boyfriend; the real one is living proof of anime eyes. And the tear in your eye, and your calm hard face Makes me wish that I was never brought into this place Secondhand Serenade plays the best acoustics ever. I'll now nurse my backaches and other sores by lying on bed watching Simpsons all night long. Sunday, October 19, 2008, 1:10 AM where the party people at? First and foremost, I must declare that I absolutely have nothing against the Chinese race here in Singapore. However, I must openly announce my loathing for the Chinese of China who have blatantly abused chemicals where normal sane human beings use for the production of plastic, to be used in dairy products. My question is, WHAT IN THE FUCKING WORLD ARE YOU THINKING? Many people, AND I DO DARE FUCKING SAY MANY PEOPLE, have over looked your filthy traditions of eating monkey, dog, snake, fetus brains for the couple of decades. Your absurd, and unhygienic ways of spitting and spreading SARS-yes, mutherfuckers, i had to bring up SARS- the world, has forgiven you, NOW YOU PUT MELAMINE IN OUR MILK! Just to cut cost, YOU FUCKING TRY TO KILL HALF THE WORLD, who buy your cheap ass sloppy labor and products! SO IT'S CHINA RULES THE WORLD AGAIN? I don't mean to be a bloody conspiracist or follow US' cry of thinking you'd overthrow them, but you are so LOW. omg, i can't stand it. Melamine, when added to watered-down milk, makes it look richer in protein than it really is. SEE HOW FILTHY THE REASON WAS TO WHY IT HAD TO BE MIXED WITH THAT?? I'm sorry, i got so fuckng agitated after reading that report recently. I seriously seriously think that the entire of China, needs to be counseled and treated. They are still all loose thanks to Communism. On a totally random note, I love my cheer friends very much. We went on the annual Denvers Raya outing. Everyone was in their baju melayu get ups. The day started off pretty ): for us. We were in a rented car that-wait for it- had no air con. we baked our skins and had our hairs blown dry the entire morning. The early afternoon was burnt at Zee's huge*56789 house, where most of us slept on the coach. I didn't wanna wake up. ): Fast forward..... I was very unhappy with my make up and hair. No thanks to the car. Other than that, it went pretty much alright. Just to fill the space (: Questions Why is it that people say they 'slept like a baby' when babies wake up every two hours? If a deaf person has to go to court, is it still called a hearing? Why do we press harder on a remote control when we know the batteries are flat? Why do banks charge a fee on 'insufficient funds' when they know there is not enough? Why does someone believe you when you say there are four billion stars, but check when you say the paint is wet? Why do they use sterilized needles for death by lethal injection? Why doesn't Tarzan have a beard? Why does Superman stop bullets with his chest, but ducks when you throw a revolver at him? Why do Kamikaze pilots wear helmets? Whose idea was it to put an 'S' in the word 'lisp'? What is the speed of darkness? Are there specially reserved parking spaces for 'normal' people at the Special Olympics? If the temperature is zero outside today and it's going to be twice as cold tomorrow, how cold will it be? If it's true that we are here to help others, what are the others doing here? Do married people live longer than single ones or does it only seem longer? Do you cry under water? How is it that we put man on the moon before we figured out it would be a good idea to put wheels on luggage? Why do people pay to go up tall buildings and then put money in binoculars to look at things on the ground? Did you ever stop and wonder...... Who was the first person to look at a cow and say, 'I think I'll squeeze these pink dangly things here, and drink whatever comes out?' Who was the first person to say, 'See that chicken there... I'm gonna eat the next thing that comes outta it's bum.' Why do toasters always have a setting so high that could burn the toast to a horrible crisp, which no decent human being would eat? Why is there a light in the fridge and not in the freezer? Why do people point to their wrist when asking for the time, but don't point to their bum when they ask where the bathroom is? Why does your Obstetrician, Gynaecologist leave the room when you get undressed if they are going to look up there anyway? Why does Goofy stand erect while Pluto remains on all fours? They're both dogs! Can blind people see their dreams? Do they dream?? If quizzes are quizzical, what are tests? (This one kills me!!!!) If corn oil is made from corn, and vegetable oil is made from vegetables, then what is baby oil made from? If electricity comes from electrons, does morality come from morons? Why do the Alphabet song and Twinkle, Twinkle Little Star have the same tune? Stop singing and read on . . . . . .. . . . . Do illiterate people get the full effect of Alphabet Soup? Did you ever notice that when you blow in a dog's face, he gets mad at you, but when you take him on a car ride, he sticks his head out the window? Does pushing the elevator button more than once make it arrive faster? imissyoutaufiq Friday, October 17, 2008, 6:24 AM Some say the world will end in fire; Some say in ice. From what I've tasted of desire I hold with those who favor fire. But if it had to perish twice, I think I know enough of hate To know that for destruction ice Is also great And would suffice. -Robert Frost I'm probably gloating, but I can swear to you that this is the mere truth, right from the bottom of my heart. I shan't put this to shame for I'll never be the same if I ain't got you. You have the innate ability to tear down everything that I believed in, and gave me new light; it's like as if you gave me God's gift of sight for the second time, only this time, the world's no longer as angry as I had seen it was. You splashed shades of lavender and yellow onto my world canvas of grays. Doesn't matter if it's really true that the world's really grey or even upside down, cause I'm with you. (: okay, I will stop gushing about my cute cute boyfriend, rofl. Every Tuesday, is 50% off all waffles day! I took the opportunity to take my other siblings, to the nearby entertain hub, at the very heart of DTE, where we had the most scrumptious waffles and ice cream. (: The waffles were clearly, orgasmic, and I cannot wait to step on the grounds of Gelare again-but probably not for another 2 months or so, cause I'd never sin myself with such things too often. Come to think of it, I rarely ever have dessert... Ya hor -ahlian moment... OMG, I pig out a lot, but never would I treat myself to the likes of cheesecakes and ice cream that often. I do eat a whole lot of other things to abstain from junk food-which is a good thing- but it was never for the sole purpose of not eating dessert. I suppose I never tempt myself with that, unless it's 10 day craving. Yay, I splurged on make up at The Body Shop. I love the glow that make up gives. A brush and a fucking blusher for 53bucks? Unhealthy. (: And I signed on the membership too. Tehehe, now I no longer feel left out as most gfs have this great card. Plus, my mum could use it as well, she buys our family's favourite, Strawberry Bath Gel thingy and the body splash. They gave me like 2 welcome gifts, the mascara thingy- OMG HOW HANDY, I've always wanted a new mascara ever since my evil- READ: EVIL- sister swapped mine with her second grade Silky Girl mascara. Got so bored of watching Family Guy and American Dad online- thank God for Seth MacFarlane, incredible performer- and Gossip Girl- I LOVE BITCH FIGHT. Serena's getting pretty over the top, but I've always had a soft spot for her. Compared to Blair, she's such an angel- I decided to amuse myself with my new buys. (: The brush is so much softer compared to the Lancome one which came with the set. Totally doesn't take a jab at your skin with their soft hairlike bristles. The mascara too lives up to it's claim of no clumping. How could they just give me 5ml of such a great product!!!!!!! lol, random. (: found this very useful. On nurulicious' blog. Anteprima (On-tay-pre-ma) Anya Hindmarch (Un-ya Hine-march) Agnes B. (Arg-nias Bay) Azzedine Alaia (Aza-deen A-lye-a) Balenciaga (Ber-larn-sia-ga) Bally (Ba-li) Balmain (Bahl-mahn) Baume & Mercier (Bomi Merci-yay) Braun Buffel (Brown Byu-furl) Bvlgari (Bull-ge-ri) Byblos (Be-blos) Cacharel (Kare-sha-hell) Cerruti (Cher-ru-tee) Chantal Thomass (Shan-tal To-mah) Charles Jourdan (Sharls Shor-Darn) Charrier (Sha-ree-ay) Che Che New York (Chee Chee New York) Chloe (Klo-ay) Christian Labourtin (Christian Loo-boo-tahn) Christian Lacroix (Christian Le-kwah) Claude Montana (Kload Moan-tana) Commes Des Garcons (Kom Day Gah-sohn) Coccinelle (Kor-chee-nel-li) Courreges (Coor-ash) Cynthia Rowley (Cynthia Rao-li) Dolce & Gabbana (Dole-chay & Ger-bana) Donna Karan (Donna Karen) Dries Van Noten (Drees Varn Note-earn) Emmanuel Ungaro (Ee-man-noo-el Oon-ga-ro) Etro (Air-tro) Fa:ge (Farge) Furla (Foor-la) Georg Jensen (Jog Yen-sen) Gianfranco Ferre (Gianfranco Fair-ray) Gianni Versace (Gee-ya-nee Ver-sa-chee) Givenchy (Jee-von-she) Guy Laroche (Ghee Lah-rosh) Helmut Lang (Hel-moot Lung) Hermes (Air-mez) Herve Leger (Er-vee Lee-zhee) Issey Miyake (Is-say Mi-ya-kay) Jaeger-LeCoultre (Yay-ger ler Koot) Jean Paul Gaultier (Zhon Paul Gol-tee-air) Lanvin (Larn-von) Loewe (Lo-ay-vay) Longchamp (Long-shum) Louis Feraud (Loo-ee Fay-ho) Louis Vuitton (Loo-ee Vui-tong) Marithe et Francois Girbaud (Mar-hi-tay ay France-sua Jee-bow) Martine Sitbon (Marh-tin Si-bong) Narcisco Rodriquez (Nah-see-so Rodri-gehz) Pierre Cardin (Pier Karh-Donh) Plein Sud (Plan Sood) Romeo Gigli (Romeo Gee-li) Salvatore Ferragamo (Sel-ver-tor-ray Fairer-gum-moh) Thierry Mugler (Teary Moo-glay) YSL Rive Gauche (YSL Reev Gosh) Yves Saint Laurent (Eve Saint Lor-rong) I never knew that all this while I've mispronounced my bra set brand. Tuesday, October 14, 2008, 3:02 AM punk kidsz So baby and I met up yesterday for a really late lunch. He just got back from school and he had claimed that he missed me dearly. I-am-such-a-smug! Went to eat at Ikea, since I had planned the day before to meet up with Yunus and Clarence there. Baby has some killer looking butchered chicken legg, roasted to utter perfection, hiding the ugly fact that the chicken slaughtered to have one of it's two feet, placed decoratively on that dinner plate. I had vegetarian pasta. ): I was clearly upset with the server, after she told me that Fish and Chips are only served on Fridays. That's a lie! ISN'T IT? ): I tried to look happy with my meal. ): Yes, the boy loves his chicken. What a crime. satiated, he was. The cutest room ever! reminds of Strawberry Shortcake. Lol. gay. Something about men Something Oprah Had To Say About Men If a man wants you, nothing can keep him away. If he doesn't want you, nothing can make him stay. Stop making excuses for a man and his behavior. Allow your intuition (or spirit) to save you from heartache. Stop trying to change yourself for a relationship that's not meant to be. Slower is better. Never live your life for a man before you find what makes you truly happy. If a relationship ends because the man was not treating you as you deserve, then heck no, you can't "be friends". A friend wouldn't mistreat a friend. Don't settle.If you feel like he is stringing you along, then he probably is. Don't stay because you think "it will get better." You'll be mad at yourself a year later for staying when things are not better. The only person you can control in a relationship is YOU. Avoid men who've got a bunch of children by a bunch of different women. He didn't marry them when he got them pregnant, why would he treat you any differently? Always have your own set of friends separate from his. Maintain boundaries in how a guy treats you. If something bothers you, speak up. Never let a man know everything. He will use it against you later. You cannot change a man's behavior.Change comes from within. Don't EVER make him feel he is more important than you are... even if he has more education or in a better job. Do not make him into a quasi-god. He is a man, nothing more nothing less. Never let a man define who you are. Never borrow someone else's man. If he cheated with you, he'll cheat on you. A man will only treat you the way you ALLOW him to treat you. You should not be the one doing all the bending...compromise is two way street. You need time to heal between relationships...there is nothing cute about baggage... deal with your issues before pursuing a new relationship. You should never look for someone to COMPLETE you...a relationship consists of two WHOLE individuals...look for someone complimentary...not supplementary. Dating is fun...even if he doesn't turn out to be Mr. Right. Make him miss you sometimes...when a man always know where you are, and you're always readily available to him - he takes it for granted. Never move into his mother's house. Never co-sign for a man. Don't fully commit to a man who doesn't give you everything that you need. Keep him in your radar but get to know others. -m3m0res.blogspot.com i hope you enjoyed that, cause i did. Sunday, October 12, 2008, 3:16 AM sunshine gold Feeling so blue. ROFL. Okay, bad pun. But really, every one and everything else seemed blue. And heck, my twins were in blue denims, with blue prints on their shirt. Ouh, just to sidetrack a bit, MY BOYFRIEND SAID MY TWINS ARE SO MALAYSIAN KAMPONG KIDS! The cupboard was blue. So was the bedsheets. So was I. My sis up there was in a shade of cyan. My brother was unfestive, in blue, nonetheless. Anyway, sometimes, I seriously wonder,"How could my mother love me/her/him/them?". I've always felt that some of us are the spawns of Satan, himself, yet, our mother, has this unconditional love and affection for each and every one of us. Though it may differ in our eyes, the level of love and care, she still claims she loves all of us the same. We're stubborn, rude, self absorbed, conceited, naive and probably everything that she is not. So how can all mothers, in general, learn to love? Not only do we cause pain seconds before we are born into a world of saddists and druggies, in her hopes that we'd make society and her proud, a pain which she endured then, AND than to suffer yet again with our brash and insensitive comments about her hair, and outdated dressing. I'm not here to preach to heart/love our mothers and embrace them with joy and tears, for that can wait, for the mother's love was never a matter to be questioned about. It's the spawns that they bore. Like, my cousin, for example. She's rude, arrogant, undeniably deluded and plain. Yet, her mother dotes on her more than her other siblings. None of the cousins particularly adore her; we pretend she doesn't exist; however, we cannot deny on how BLIND our aunt is. SERIOUSLY, SHE SCREAMS AND HOWLS AT GUESTS, IN FRONT OF GUESTS, balistically, "Who told you to come to my birthday party? You are uninvited. Fxxx, sxxx, sunxxx, cb, etc." I swear, I applaud her for her guts, but slap her some dignity and pride. with this, i end my post with, "even if you have no shame or dignity, pls be reminded that YOUR MUM does. what you do, reflects greatly on her." Saturday, October 11, 2008, 5:47 PM God forbids Why, in the name of Ghandi, Skywalker, Muhammad Ali and all that is good, and pure, are people, SUDDEN, hardcore fans, of F1 racing, AND, Avenged Sevenfold? Firstly, are Singaporeans really THAT fake, to sudden proclaim and know everything there is to the named sport and band?!! Suddenly, Chapter 4 and Bat Country is the most awesome-est song to ever exist in the planet. Suddenly, Lewis Hamilton is every girls dream guy? TELL ME, why am I not hyped about this at all? For one, I don't fake it like you people do. Fun fact #6, the only sport that I find effing cool and that I wish that I could do it is entertainment wrestling. Hands up, who wants to do a 619?!!! Another thing, I think the band A7x, no offence to anyone, is not my kind. I've TRIED LIKING IT. I swear, to God, I've tried that 3years ago, but I decided that alternative punk was a happier genre to stick to. I mean, every song from A7x sounds almost the same. Unless you are into the raspy nasal voice of who ever the frontman of A7x is, Gates, Shadow, or Vengence, whatever, which is very unlikely, since half the population is into the cynic whinings of Miley Cyrus. Just because you have seen F1 racing and breathed the toxic fumes of every engine there, makes you a hardcore fan? JUST BECAUSE A7X IS COMING TO SG, and that everyone other fan before you is going to their concert, MAKES YOU HARDCORE FAN? -coughs- Hardcore poser. Liking on racer, doesn't make you A HARDCORE FAN OF THE SPORT, BUT A HARDCORE GROUPIE OF THE RACER. Same goes to posers. If you only like one or two songs from an entire series of albums of songs, MAKES YOU A FAN? WOW, SHOOT ME. Then, I should be worshipping Miley Cyrus and Lindsay Lohan! OMG! fuck you people. Thursday, October 09, 2008, 3:13 AM My undeniable unhealthy thirst for the perfect execution of the plans set out in my brain gets me slightly deranged. I'd panic without a second thought of how minor the matter maybe to have foiled my very well thought out 'what to do' list for the day. I do not like last minute plans, and I absolutely hate it when those last minute plans, clashes with what I wanna do for the rest of the day. My mood deteriorates, and the possible smile or grin would disfigure into a pouted sulk for I'd be contemplating on what to do next. sigh. I always wonder to why I'd beat myself up for the littlest things. I shall now spare you the agony of my spinning thoughts with pictures of my date with my boyfriend after what seemed like decades. I swear, we haven't been alone together for a pretty long time. I miss you. We went to eat at Ramen Ten's Tampines outlet. I heart my new dress! (: Soft shell crab ~~ Salmon stuff! HOT FAV! My happy boyfriend His curry chicken ramen thingy i love you baby Wednesday, October 08, 2008, 12:18 AM Hey, hey, you, you Happy 19th birthday! Since, it was your birthday on the 6th Oct, yesterday, I took the liberty and utmost honour of gracing my blog, entirely with your pictures. Well, not entirely. Are you ready? I sincerely apologize if these were to ever ruin your social life amongst girls, but I can swear to you that the BME girls would forever and always adore you. ................. ......... ....... ...................... .......... ............... .. ..... .................. ...... .. .... .. .... Nice teeth, really. Priceless much brotherly love was spread on the second night of the BME chalet. The usual birthday bash was literally thrown at him; into the pool. He managed to blow every candle out with a single breath, only to forget to make a wish. -_- I had to take one with him. I missed him a lot. Urgh, make-upless. Ah, my favourite girls. (: Baby, I love you. I'd skip all the cliche sappy nonsense, for I have run out of them and I don't wish to be repetitive. It's the 7th month already! (: cause someone like you is impossible to find Monday, October 06, 2008, 12:10 AM i'm quite in love with myself Handwriting Analysis! Siti uses judgment to make decisions. She is ruled by her head, not her heart (OMG, Nadiah always tells me this!). She is a cool, collected person who is usually unexpressive emotionally. Some may see her as unemotional(LOL). She does have emotions but has no need to express them. She is withdrawn into herself and enjoys being alone. The circumstances when Siti does express emotions include: extreme anger, extreme passion, and tremendous stress. If someone gets her mad enough to tell her off, she will not be sorry about it later. She puts a mark in her mind when someone angers her. She keeps track of these marks and when she hits that last mark she will let them know they have gone too far. She is ruled somewhat by self-interest. All her conclusions are made without outside emotional influence. She is very level-headed and will remain calm in an emergency situation. In a situation where other people might get hysterical, she has poise. Siti will work more efficiently if given space and time to be alone. She would rather not be surrounded by people constantly. In a relationship, she will show her love by the things she does rather than by the things she says. Saying "I love you" is not a needed routine because she feels her mate should already know. The only exception to this is if she has logically concluded that it is best for her mate to hear her express her love verbally. Siti is not subject to emotional appeals. If someone is selling a product to her, they will need to present only the facts. They should present them from a standpoint of her sound judgment. She will not be taken in by an emotional story about someone else. She will meet emergencies without getting hysterical and she will always ask "Is this best for me?" People that write very large tend to be very social and friendly. It seems Siti has this type of writing. This indicates a need for people and a particular natural ability to socialize and be the life of the party. Now, if Siti also has specific fears (like fear of criticism or fear of trust) then she will deny she is the life of the party, because fear has overcome her natural inclination to be social. People with large handwriting tend to be effective at anything that requires interaction with lots of people. she is a people person. Siti will be candid and direct when expressing her opinion(I shocked my cheer friends with that. In a good way, I suppose). She will tell them what she thinks if they ask for it, whether they like it or not. So, if they don't really want her opinion, don't ask for it! Siti is a cumulative and procedural thinker. She likes to have all the facts before making a decision. She thinks or creates much like a brick mason, stacking fact upon fact. Her thought pattern or the conclusion will not be complete until the last fact is in place. Like that brick wall, Siti learns faster through visual demonstration than through quick verbal instructions. Once she has learned new material, and understood it, she won't forget. Siti is a methodical thinker, therefore she is able to build things and come up with new ideas. In an argument, she often loses to rapid thinking people because she is thinking thirty minutes later about what she should have said. These people often are very booksmart, but can be out-gunned in a rapid fire verbal debate. She may learn new ideas at a slower pace than other "less detailed" people, but once she gets it, she can handle repetition. Some people hate jobs with too much repetition, she can handle it better than most. Siti is a practical person whose goals are planned, practical, and down to earth. This is typical of people with normal healthy self-esteem. She needs to visualize the end of a project before she starts. she finds joy in anticipation and planning. Notice that I said she plans everything she is going to do, that doesn't necessarily mean things go as planned. Siti basically feels good about herself. She has a positive self-esteem which contributes to her success. She feels she has the ability to achieve anything she sets her mind to. However, she sets her goals using practicality-- not too "out of reach". She has enough self-confidence to leave a bad situation, yet, she will not take great risks, as they relate to her goals. A good esteem is one key to a happy life. Although there is room for improvement in the confidence catagery, her self-perception is better than average. One way Siti punishes herself is self directed sarcasm. She is a very sarcastic person. Often this sarcasm and "sharp tongued" behavior is directed at herself. Siti has a tendency to put things off, Siti procrastinates. She sometimes pretends to be busy, so she will not have to do whatever she is putting off. She is often late to appointments or deadlines. This usually leads to a great amount of effort at the last minute to meet the deadline. Procrastination is an important factor as it relates to her output on the job or at school. Remember, Siti will put it off until later. Procrastination is easily overcome through a simple stroke adjustment in the handwriting. Siti is constantly disappointed when trying to reach success. She works very hard, perhaps harder than most, then just before succeeding, something happens that keeps her from success. Often, Siti changes to a second project just before the first one is finished, thus failing to complete the first project. Sometimes she changes because she feels she needs a different challenge. Siti feels dejected. This feeling relates to her failures. This trait is very important in a working situation and in a relationship. She must be handled in a very special way to get the most work from her or to make a relationship last (OMG TAUFIQ, I LOVE YOU). Concerning this trait, personality modification is available to change her life. Siti has a healthy imagination and displays a fair amount of trust. She lets new people into her circle of friends. She uses her imagination to understand new ideas, things, and people. Oh my goodness, this is so hauntingly scary, cause it's just so true. Yes, I'm in love with myself. So, who isn't? Sunday, October 05, 2008, 1:32 AM I chatted with a really old, good friend recently. Usually, I'd avoid the topic of BGR with him, for I'm afraid of causing awkward moments or a sudden divergence. However, today, after 4 years of avoiding, I realise that I couldn't, cause it'd be brought up somehow. siti says: i'm sure school's crawling with girls. You're not that bad of a person. Not that perfect either. xxx says: not my type luh siti says: then what is your type? xxx says: what do you think? Forgive me if I got totally conceited at this point in time, but I do feel this rush of guilt, running down every inch of my skin. and yes, you are that great of a person to me. (: Saturday, October 04, 2008, 12:31 AM i've got the gift of one liners I just got back from lepak-ing with Jan, Jumzx, and Kenrick at Serangoon. They picked me up from the CC after cheerleading. Sigh, what a day. I bet tomorrow's even longer. Not to mention that I have yet to study for my exams-that's so fucked up. However, considering the fact on what a prodigy I am, being the youngest to enroll in the class, I'll probably scrape a few points here and there. OKAY, FUCK YOU, SITI. It's strange that whenever I'm in the shower, that I'd somehow reflect on what I've done, what I've become, and that sometimes, I wish, I wasn't me at all. For one, I'm such a bitch to have scored with someone as angelic as Taufiq, yet I bully him, shout at him, walk out on him, etc. Sometimes, I'd even wonder if he even had any feelings at all. For another, I'm rather conceited, to the point of being egotistic. And lastly, I've got a major issue with confidence. Self assurance isn't enough, somehow. sigh. it's just strange how my reasons would actually negate each other, isn't it? Skip this part if you're a guy. ............... ....... ......................... ... ..................... .... ........................... . ......... .......... Looking for : ticktock. Thursday, October 02, 2008, 9:05 PM the reason to rejoice It was babies galore this Hari Raya! The ever lovable twins, Iksan and Ikram Durrah Hannah, means Pearl Happiness. zomg, so cool. And shy little Amirul Other than that, MY SHOES ARE AWESOME! There are two kinds of people in life. People who I acknowledge as classmates, acquaintances, team mates, bros/sis' and People who I know, but I pretend that they don't exist for their mere presence, nauseates me. I don't know why, but this is like totally random. Really, I'm sure of it.... I just think, a mere opinion, that if one too many people have the same opinion about one person, I'm sure that those many people can't be like lying right? Maybe some might be influenced, but how long can you stick to what another person say, without actually seeing it and making their own judgment? I'm sure individuals-righteous individuals- would want their own stand to something and not just go with the flow, right? Sometimes, these people don't really have a conscience. Don't ask me why, they just don't. I enjoy gloating. It's a terrible favourite past time. My bf, being the angel that he is, thinks that to rub it in someone's face, is just downright mean. BUT WHO CARES!!! lolzx. 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